by Verdana » Tue Dec 20, 2011 12:49 am
//Boredom Continued//
I whistle to myself, growing slowly louder as I go. I know I should stop, for all the reasons I have discussed in my head, but I can't. I can't, because I fear that I may go insane if I let the peaceful tranquility pervade my skull. Hah! Insane? I'm already insane. No, I'm not. Obviously I'm not. I couldn't be. But you are, Shay. Let's look at the evidence. Evidence? I don't have time for... Oh. Right. Aware that it would be a welcome distraction from the stillness, I compile the following list to prove my insanity:
Why Shaygrin Is Insane
1. I ran around naked in a public marketplace. This does not prove my insanity in any way, but the odd sense of satisfaction I gained from the incident does.
2. I talk to myself in my mind. Not to the Power (that's a whole different point entirely) but just to me. I have in-depth arguments with myself, too. Isn't that supposed to be a telltale sign of madness?
3. The Power. Need I say more? In case I do: Is it some other-wordly being that is guiding me to fulfill its own plot, or is it just the part of my mind which wants world domination? You see my point?
4. When Vlad's in serious lecture mode, I sometimes get the overwhelming urge to bite the side of his neck. Or do other strange things. Just to see how he'd react. Even though I know I should be listening and taking notes or something.
5. Sometimes, when I dream, I see things that happened hundreds of years ago, or that haven't happened yet. Hey, it may just be my subconscious.
6. I once took an elephant and...
I could have gone on (boy, could I have gone on!) but I get distracted. I've been whistling all the way through my listing, and now I notice something. The sounds doesn't feel right. I can't place it. It's not bad, it's just not... Not what I'm used to. Still letting my little tune weave the air, I try to place what's wrong with the noise. Not wrong, as such but... You know what I mean. I listen carefully, and it starts to make sense. The sound's... It's not my whistle. It's higher. But not only that. It's kind of like when you... It's as if...
No.
No, that's completely out of his character.
He would never...
Would he?
I listen hard, resisting the urge to turn around to look with all my heart and determination. It can't be Vlad. He's not... He doesn't... Only, I know better. Sometimes, when we're not in danger and he's not trying desperately to make me learn things, I see this side of him peeking out. The playful, boyish side. Maybe that's what's happened. I hope so. He's a good whistler, if it's him. Whistling is an under-appreciated art form. A good whistler is hard to find. Vlad, if it is him, is very good. He's a master. That's what persuades me that it's him, actually. If Vlad does anything, he's sure to be very good at it. It's one of the things that makes me feel so safe with him.
I want to look, to confirm my suspicions, but I hold myself back. I don't want him to know that I've noticed. I'm so used to him being serious and prim that I'm scared that, if I acknowledge him, he'll stop, and we'll lose this moment of perfect unity. And, at first, that fear keeps my head still. But slowly, the desire to know for sure starts to win out. Before long, I can't take it any longer. Moving only my eyes, at snail's pace, I look towards the vampyre, whistling all the while so that he won't suspect anything.
Yes, it's him. I know it now. It's hard, but I refrain from smiling. I whistle on, a glow of contentment spreading through me at the beautiful sound we're making together. Then I start to get daring. Let's see how well he can go when I start to change the tune. Abruptly, I change the whistle to a quicker, more upbeat and playful. He falters, but soon picks up, working hard to adjust. I feel a surge of triumph. Not so great when the unexpected happens, are you? It makes me feel good, to know that he's imperfect, like me. It makes us seem closer. More alike.
I want to see his face again. I glance to the side, and his eyes are waiting to meet mine. My eyes widen, I blush, mortified. Now it's over. Now we'll finish. But deep inside, I know my fears are groundless. He looks at me, and he smiles. That smile is a picture I'll hold in my head when times are tough and I feel alone. It's impish, playful, but at the same time so gentle and loving that it makes me want to melt. What in the name of the knife was I worrying about? Vlad's himself and no one else. He wouldn't stop. He'd never stop.
We play around with tunes and rhythms, until we fix on one we like. No word is shared, no thought; we just whistle. And then Vlad stands up. I watch him, perplexed, as he bends down and regally offers a hand, his face mock-serious, eyes twinkling. I take it with a teasing curtsy, realising his plan too late. He takes my warm, small hands in his cold, big ones, changes the rhythm of the whistle (which I helplessly adopt) and he begins a dance.
I'm sure we've been through this. Me and dancing? Not a good mix. I have two left feet (unless I'm fighting or stealing something) and the last time I practiced was at the Mozart concert. I try my best, but I'm just not cut out for it. We try a waltz, a foxtrot, a gavotte, all to no avail. I just can't dance the way he wants to. He notes my frustration and despair with concern, and then he changes tack. We start to dance in a way far more reminiscent to the twirling madness in a bar.
That's where I find my balance. This kind of hip-swaying, flexing, sashaying, flirtatious step, with no rules or guidelines, just the beat in your ears and what cones first to your head? That I can do. I start to beam, and I close my eyes rapturously, aware of Vlad beside me but not very much else. We are in sync, merged in movement. I love it. I'm aware, briefly, of a lifting motion, but I assume it's my own adrenaline, and think nothing more of it. That is, until Vlad stops.
I continue dancing for a split second, unaware of anything besides the rhythm in my head. We'd stopped whistling some time ago due to lack of breath, but I hadn't been aware of anything. My mistake. When I notice that Vlad's not moving any more, i stop dead, my eyes snapping open. I don't like what I see. We're being watched, by Amaya and someone else, someone who gives me the creeps. I wonder for a moment why we're so much higher up than them, and then notice that we've ended up on the table. I have no idea how.
Next to me, Vlad's not happy. I know him well, and that's why I can feel his keen embarrassment emanating from him. He covers it up with curtness and a rather aggressive attitude. One he's used more than a few times on me. Is that why? Was he embarrassed? I look upon the newcomer, called Nate, with interest. She seems to like Vlad as much as he likes her. Great. Then my hand is grabbed, something I'm getting rather used to, and I am towed along in Vlad's wake.
He makes for our rooms. Or, my room. Or, his room? I'm not sure of the logistics. I am unable to do anything but try to keep up. He whisks me in there, closes the door. Then, breathless and elated, I begin to laugh in great, mirthful whoops. I laugh and laugh until my legs can't hold me up any more, and even when I'm sprawled out on the floor I keep on laughing. That was the most fun I've had in ages. Please, let it be repeated!
//Forgiven and Forgotten//
So Shaygrin went about fixing up the wound on Kuar's head as best she could. As she did so, she tried to forget that she had been the person to cause the wound. It was a sickening thought. It was red and very swollen, the flesh obviously tender to the touch. Kuar stayed mercifully still, but Shay could tell that she was causing him no little discomfort. She tried to balance swiftness with tenderness, but there was no way to make the process any less painful. By the time she tied off the last stitch, Kuar had done considerable damage to the kitchen table. He thanked her gravely, and she patted his shoulder.
Good boy. Well done. It should heal without infection, but it will leave an impressive scar. I'm sorry.
She was, too. Deeply so.
I'll clean up the kitchen. She tactfully left out when she would do so. Shaygrin avoided household chores as if they would bite her. In a sense, this is what she imagined. They'd seep into her, slowly turning her into the idyllic woman that the Power and Vlad wanted her so desperately to be. She nibbled her lip thoughtfully, observing Kuar's tired face. He looked almost lost. Kind of... Longing.
I'll help you clean up, Shay said quietly. She put a hand on his arm. She wasn't sure how to phrase the question she wanted to ask without upsetting him. Eventually, she just asked it. Shay had never been a champion of tact.
What happened to Conis?