You forgot me,
You forgot me.
Left me with my sins.
Cried myself to sleep each night,
Just prayin you'd come back.
Falling stars, just like my tears.
Terrified of the night,
And the dreams it would bring.
Filled with you, always you.
I cried out all my tears.
I'm changing my ways
I'm changing today.
I'll be a better friend, lover, and person.
I'll care for those who have are poor,
I'll pity those who have no heart.
I'll smile brighter, like the sun.
I'll change today,
Getting better, everyday.
- Kayla - Girl - Seventeen - Single - Mood: bitter -
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"And you're tied together
with a smile but you're
coming undone..."
Kayla sighed in complete and utter frustration, running a hand through her greasy, filthy hair. Rain poured down and soaked through her clothes, chilling her to the bone. She glared up at the sky with such venom in her sky blue eyes it might send God himself begging for mercy. She was livid with anger. Shaking her fist like a crazy woman, she let out her anger with a ferocious sounding scream. "WHY ME?! WHY IN THE WORLD? I DON"T NEED THIS!" Her voice, shrill and emotional, echoed around her. Kicking a nearby tree, and cursing in pain, she beat herself, the trees, stomped on the ground. Kayla, in other words, was in complete meltdown mood. She had totally lost it, and was having a temper tantrum. Like she was three. But at that moment, she cared for nothing but going home and curling up with a cup of hot chocolate. She just wanted to see her family and friends. To just have her old life back. She'd give up anything, anything to have that back.
But nooooo, she was stuck on this god forsaken island, for homw many freaking days until a stupid resce airplane came to get them. Ugh, what in the world could be taking so long? Hatred pouring from her very soul, she stomped out of the jungle and marched right onto the beach, and up some rocks where she promptly sat, glaring out at the ocean. Taking a deep breath and counting to ten, she tried very hard to calm herself. Putting her hair up in a bun, she closed her eyes and though of happy things for a few minutes. Feeling better, she massaged the back of her hand until she felt the anger go away. She needed to think, and be practical. Find food, forage. She didn't know how to hunt. But she could eat edible food. And build weapons and a place to stay. Shelter. Yes, she was good at making things.
But for the moment, she was going to let herself sit right here, on this rock in the pouring rain. Why? Because she felt like it, and she also needed to collect her thoughts more. She wuold need to keep in mind exactly what food she needed, and what kind of shelter she was going to make. Kayla was thinking of one up in the shelter of a tree, because god forbid a bear would go crawling around the jungle ground at night. And Kayla was in no mood to become food. So a tree shelter it was, then. Up high, and safe. Closing her eyes, the girl let her thoughts wander, a tear sliding down her cheek every now and then as she thought of home. Oh how terribly she missed it.
it's been a long time since I've been here. perhaps I'll stay awhile.