Crushes, Boyfriends, and Girlfriends

[Cirque]

So, there's this guy that has history with my best friend & me, and we're unforunate enough to have to sit by him. [I'll call him G]
Not only does he irritate my friends and me in general, but he's always sweaty. ALWAYS. It.is.disgusting.
Anyway, I have the worst feeling that he likes me. Our history teacher was talking about some of things that can make us get bad scores on tests and quizzes, and he said, "Maybe you were hungry, maybe you were staring at the dreamy person by you...."
I turned to look at my best friend, who sits next to me, because we were both laughing about it, and as I was turning around, I saw G staring at me. And today, when my best friend and I got to history, G said "Woah, they're wearing matching shirts! [since my best friend and I accidentally wore the same shirt today xD] And look, it's Cirque! Hi, Cirque!". My reaction: -.- *Dear God, why me?* "Ehh, hi."
I don't just want to say, "Um, hey, G, look....I don't like you..like that, or in any way....." But I don't know what to do.
Dx

[s y n]

Well, wasn't yesterday eventful. I couldn't get on to say anything, but like I've been wanting to say for a long time...

GUESS WHO'S NO LONGER SINGLE?

-Points madly at self-

That's right! Red finally stopped being picky and got someone. However, my new boyfriend is not A. The guy that I slow danced with at the dance - let's call him J - is like one of my best friends. We were inseperable when we were younger, but in grade two he moved to a different school. I didn't seem him much after that, and it was sad because we both really liked each other. I started seeing him quite often when he was dating my best friend. She told me herself that he had a crush on me, but I didn't believe her. Until just recently when he asked me to the dance. I feel bad now about rejecting him to go with A, seeing as A ignored me the whole time, and I was telling him that at the dance. Because of my stupid quick-forgiveness, I still really wanted to go out with A, especially since he had ever-so-sweetly apologized and gave me a good reason for avoiding me. This week I was feeling pretty down, and J was right there to comfort me. We've always been really great friends - and we've always had crushes on each other, though mine faded away once I stopped seeing him - and I saw that as just a friendly thing. But then I hung out with him and when I was feeling pretty sad for some personal reasons, he hugged me and told me that he'd always be there for me. And then he did it. He asked me out. I said yes, and he literally flipped out in all his happiness. Later on I asked him what was up and he said, "Oh nothing much, except for the fact that the girl I've had a gigantic crush on for two years and who I've wanted to go out with since forever finally said yes!" It was really sweet of him. He's the protective type, and he likes public affection. We hold hands in the hallways and hug and stuff. All the girls are pretty jealous, and I'm happy that I realized that, if A really wants to be with me, he'll realize that I'm not going to wait for him forever and show me that he'd make a good boyfriend.

Oh, and if you're wondering, as for M, I slowdanced with him at the dance. I still have a bit of a crush on him, but we're basically just really good friends now, and I'm perfectly fine with that c:

[F e a r l e s s.]

So, there's this girl in my first hour art class... Let's just call her T. And well today my friends C, M, T and I were all working on our art projects. So we started to talk about random things our pets, siblings, etc. And so of course eventually crushes come up and we start to talk about them. Well turns out that T and I both like the same guy. Not trying to sound rude but, she's really no competition, and number two because she's just a bit... Awkward? So anyway I was saying how I liked N since sixth grade and then she said she has too, cool. So then I said that on Friday he tripped when he was walking into the classroom and blamed it on me, she said he did the same thing to her... But she dosent have any classes with him because I have EVERY single class with him except for art, which she is in. So at this point I'm like, okay. Well let's mess with her a bit. So when she went to the bathroom I told my plan to my friends C & M and when T comes back I tell her that N told me he likes me. And she's like, "Oh, yeah... He told me that too. But he said I'm one of a kind." so now I'm like, okay, this chic is just trying to make me mad. But I shrugged it off and later that day in Science we had to come up with "rough drafts" for our science safety posters and I drew these deformed looking people and N stole them from me and said (quote) "Hahaha! I will keep it forever!" and that made my day! But as a bonus, he also wished me good luck on our volleyball game that we played woo! So yeah, enjoy! Lol

[starstream<=]

Well, wasn't yesterday eventful. I couldn't get on to say anything, but like I've been wanting to say for a long time...

GUESS WHO'S NO LONGER SINGLE?

-Points madly at self-

That's right! Red finally stopped being picky and got someone. However, my new boyfriend is not A. The guy that I slow danced with at the dance - let's call him J - is like one of my best friends. We were inseperable when we were younger, but in grade two he moved to a different school. I didn't seem him much after that, and it was sad because we both really liked each other. I started seeing him quite often when he was dating my best friend. She told me herself that he had a crush on me, but I didn't believe her. Until just recently when he asked me to the dance. I feel bad now about rejecting him to go with A, seeing as A ignored me the whole time, and I was telling him that at the dance. Because of my stupid quick-forgiveness, I still really wanted to go out with A, especially since he had ever-so-sweetly apologized and gave me a good reason for avoiding me. This week I was feeling pretty down, and J was right there to comfort me. We've always been really great friends - and we've always had crushes on each other, though mine faded away once I stopped seeing him - and I saw that as just a friendly thing. But then I hung out with him and when I was feeling pretty sad for some personal reasons, he hugged me and told me that he'd always be there for me. And then he did it. He asked me out. I said yes, and he literally flipped out in all his happiness. Later on I asked him what was up and he said, "Oh nothing much, except for the fact that the girl I've had a gigantic crush on for two years and who I've wanted to go out with since forever finally said yes!" It was really sweet of him. He's the protective type, and he likes public affection. We hold hands in the hallways and hug and stuff. All the girls are pretty jealous, and I'm happy that I realized that, if A really wants to be with me, he'll realize that I'm not going to wait for him forever and show me that he'd make a good boyfriend.

Oh, and if you're wondering, as for M, I slowdanced with him at the dance. I still have a bit of a crush on him, but we're basically just really good friends now, and I'm perfectly fine with that c:

i'll admit, i let out a bit of squee at this.
very... adorable. x3

[arcticwolf]

Today at lunch, Peeps stood up from across the table and came over to stand next to me. He leaned on the table and I brushed against him whenever I moved, we were so close.
He smelled good XD. A little like cinnamon. {And I zoned out thinking about that so long a message popped up asking if I wanted to turn on sticky keys with a little "bleep" that snapped me out of it, oops.}

B-but he's so unexplainable. T>T My cheeks were burning so bad, it hurt. I asked my friends if my face was red, and Saree pointed to the exit sign and told me "It's that red. Like, really bright red." I asked them to feel my face and they both agreed it was on fire xD.

It stayed like until twenty minutes into the class period I have after lunch.

And I still have the problem where everytime I look at him and he's close to me, I want to attack his lips alkgldjjaadgak

wth. why.

[F e a r l e s s.]

Lol I know your pain man, every time N and I are close my face turns bright red and I just want to lean in and kiss him sooo bad! And I think he does too... Lol and everytime I see him in the hallway we both look at eachother and I feel the née to hide my face behind whatever it is I'm holding. For the sake of my bright red face. Well anyway today I tripped in the stupid crowded hallway on my way to science >.< (I'm such a clutz!) and no one would even stop to help me (buttholes!) and so like EVERYTHING had spilled everywhere and people were stepping on it and stuff... It was like one of those nightmares! And then he comes walking my direction, and I am like scrambling to just pick everything up so I'm not late to class, and as he gets nearer and nearer the redder I feel myself turning and then o/c he gets to me he bends down without saying anything and helps me pick things up. Well I had this note between my friend P and i and it was about N :3 so when I got to class I was looking for it frantically and all I'm thinking is oh crap! He has it! He has it! And I turned and lpoked to where he was sitting, and he was looking down at something in his lap that I couldn't see... One of his friends was leaning over him reading it and turned over to me and winked an I was like... Great.... So yeah, I'm pretty sure he has it or something cuz his friend keeps teasing me thathe has something of mine >.< what a great day....

[greysilence]

This year was my first year running for Student Council, and I had to give my speech during lunch today. I noticed K standing, his eyes on me the whole time. (he sits in the very back of the lunchroom, I had to give my speech in the front) I felt so stupid giving my speech, but he clapped when I was done. And when I went and sat back down at my table, he gave me a quick, small smile. I still don't know if I should talk to him or not though. It just doesn't seem...right. Like I'm not suppose to or something.

[arcticwolf]

But I don't just want to lean in and kiss him, I want to grab him by the rim of his shirt and kiss the life out of him.
....

[grim.]

Well, Justice and I broke up a little over week ago. He was the one who ended it, but I'm not mad at him. I can understand where he's coming from and I know we'll still be friends. We ended up breaking up over facebook, mostly because we never see each other anymore. He moved to the next town over and he was going to school there and he rarely came to my town unless he was spending the night at one of his friends houses. Here's what he told me;
"Jess our relationship is going to have to end because I won't be seeing you at the Fort because I have to help my elders but there are a lot of people that think you're cute. Anyways I won't be going to the Fort I have to help out a lot of people on the rez, just go look for that one guy. I hope you understand."
I was sad when I read that, but I knew it was true too. We never saw each other. For that whole month we were dating we only spent one or two days together, and saw each other for a couple minutes at a time whenever he was in town with his family or whoever. If his family hadn't decided to move the relationship would have been alot stronger, but they moved and he had no input on the decision. Plus it would have been nearly impossible once school started. I miss him, but, well, what can I do?

(I'm sorry it's so long, just bare with me and read it? I've got a few questions buried somewhere under it, plus who doesn't like 'drama'?)

I miss Justice alot. I haven't seen him since the week before we broke up but I can't stop thinking about him. It's horrible and the worst part is I have one of his hoodies in my room still. I don't really want to give it back to him, and he hasn't asked to have it back. I got it from him while we were still dating and I really like having it around because it smelled like him, but then my mom killed the smell by finding and washing it. It's weird that I miss him so much a week after we broke up, when we did I didn't cry or anything. I was sad but I didn't cry, and I wasn't mad at him. We're still friends though, but I think it is going to be awkward, especially if we go snowboarding and I bring Shay along with me.

Shay is a guy who I used to go to school with in elementary school. We used to hang out on the playground together because neither of us had other friends. We hung out with each other up until grade four when he moved to another town. He moved back to my town this year, and he's going to my school. We're both in grade ten now. I used to have a crush on him when we were little, but after he moved he kind of just slipped out of my mind and I never really thought about him much though once in a while I would pull up a memory and be like "Haha, oh yeah, the good ol' days." So anyways, he moved back to my school and he's in three of my five classes. He's in my Science class (we sit at the same table), he's in my math class and english (we don't sit near each toher 'cause of the seating plans).
Anyways the first day I neve really gave much thought about him, though I remember thinking "Wow, he looks lonely, maybe I should go talk to him or something." But because of my general shyness around new people I didn't. I went on my computer a couple days later and he'd sent me a message through Facebook on the first day of school. It said; "My 'first day' crush, Jamboree Jessica :p" I thought that was funny/cute. We started talking, and he kept commenting on how awesome I am for random stuff like playing Call of Duty and Fallout, snowboarding, and he kept saying I was funny.
Eventually one thing led to another and he ended up saying; "Not to be creepy or anything, but your status shows that you recently broke up with someone, that's one unlucky guy." I replied with something like; "Mmmm, it wasn't really his fault. His family moved and he didn't have an input in the choice. It wasn't really going anywhere, we never saw each other and we both knew it so he decided to end it. But ah well. And no, it's not creepy." Anyways we kept talking and apparently I've been assigned the task of teaching him to snowboard this winter. I think he might like me. Every once in a while I look in his direction and he'll snapp his head the other way real quick and when we pass each other in the hallway he'll look at me real quick then look away and he usually tries to make an effort to talk to me, but I think my friends might intimidate him. Any help, advice, tips, words of wisdom anything?

Then there is Maynard, this one is brutal. He's one of Justice's friends. I consider him my friend too, and I'm not sure if I like him or not. I think that I don't, yet I think about him all the time kind of sub-consciously. I think he might like me too. He tries to talk to me, but only when none of my friends (Vicky, Summer, Jade, and Nathen) around because he doesn't know them. And whenever I see him in the hallyway he looks at me for a pretty long time until I catch his eyes then he turns his attentions somewhere else. So, anyone got any idea what's going on here?

This is confusing for people, so here is the list of people I'll likely mention quite a bit;
Justice = Ex boyfriend/Good friend.
Vicky = Best friend/Sister through thought.
Nathen = Cousin.
Maynard = Friend and maybe, maybe, very slightly, crush.
Shay = Friend, and maybe a small crush.
Michael = Friend and small crush.
Flo, True, Elijah, Coleman, Summer, Jade and Isaiah = Friends.

[F e a r l e s s.]

Well, I might be getting the courage to ask N out, I've decided that he's too shy to make the first move... Is that weird for a girl to ask out a guy? And any advice on how I should ask him out?