ok, so, here we go.
my boyfriend, his name is sawyer, and i have been dating about four months. he's a sophomore and i'm a junior, so we don't see each other much during the school day other than the three minutes between classes, lunch, and one study period on monday and wednesday(though he usually kind of does schoolwork the entire time with some of his classmates).
a very big thing about sawyer.
he's phlegmatic. he's so chill and easy going it's almost weird, but he's a hardworker and an all around good guy. the thing is...
he doesn't talk much.
it's kind of a miracle we even started talking, but i actually went to school with him for three years in elementary, and somehow during the time we had driver's ed together, we swapped phone numbers and started texting and hanging out like crazy. and then eating together at lunch and saying hi in the hallways.
another important thing is that my school is rather small. ok, very small by public school standards. this year there are are about 81 of us, and last year 76. so when something happens, everyone knows.
we started dating about two months after talking and were doing good.
until about three weeks ago when school started again.
now that we hardly see each other, everything has been so strained. even when my entire school went on a three day retreat and we saw each other every morning and night, something just didn't feel right.
we can't seem to talk about stuff as much, all my jokes fall flat, and i can't seem to make him laugh or even smile, really.
and when we're sitting or walking together, he doesn't hardly look at me or hold my hand or anything anymore. i almost feel like he doesn't even care that i exist.
but back to the not talking thing. he's the kind of quiet one in the group, rather shy, and is okay with that, but in a relationship you have to have communication and he just won't tell me if something i do bothers him, make decisions (or help me make decisions) that affect our relationship, or open up to me about his problems. i've told him everything about me, but it seems like i'm almost shut out.
i'm not the pushy type, and i'd never bully or nag him into telling me things. and i'm not the best at conversation either, but with him it used to always be so easy.
he says he still loves me and that i make him happy, but i'm the kind of person who has to see it to believe it and he's not coming through. i told him all of this during lunch today because i've always been very honest about my feelings with him. he kind of gave me a blank face, i still don't know what it meant. after that i kind of left him alone and since one of my classes was canceled, my friend and i went out and got ice cream and talked about all of this too, i just feel like i need more advice.
it feels like something has changed in our relationship, and i'm not sure exactly what. i just know it's not very good.
any idea what could be wrong?
