by MoonfallTheFox » Fri Aug 05, 2011 11:23 am
My bird, Shadow, taught me that love never dies. He was my best friend, in a time I needed him most. Here's his story~ This is a post I made elsewhere over 3 years ago. It is a short version of his story, last year I wrote a version of it that was 8 pages long.
A year ago, i lost my best and only friend.
I was a loner in school, everyone laughed at me, and I never once had a guy like me. I was depressed, lonely, and wanted to die.
One day I was walking into my yard to go in the house through the back door, and a little bird hopped acrost my path. He held his wing up and sideways, and was in a lot of pain.
I spent that entire afternoon trying to capture him, but he was smart and fast, and evaded me, the dog, the neigbor's bibi gun, and foxes. How long he had been that way I had no way of knowing.
A week later I saw him again, and, managed to corner him against the house. I threw a towel over him and put him Carefully into a box. He managed again to escape. I again spent two hours catching him again. I put him in a small canary cage that was in our garage for some reason, even though I never had birds. I covered the cage and the panicked, shrieking bird inside and carried it to my bedroom, where I stuck it on my desk and sat there singing to him.
He calmed down somewhat.
For the next days I went to school, came home, Cleaned out his wing, which had bones jutting out of it, and sang to him while doing homework.
I tamed him to the point where I could handle him, and he soon figured out how to open his cage, which was too small anyway, and run around the room. He always came back though.
His wing healed very, very slowly. even when it was mended, he carried it high on his back, and could not fly.
I taught him to wear a harness, which I saved my money and bought for him, and the little starling became my constant companion. I went to school, I came home, I harnessed up Shadow. I went to the dollar store, I went to my friend's houses for dinner, always with him on my shoulder.
he learned to whistle, to imitate the phone, a rooster, a quail, and a cat. i could swear he laughed when I ran into the room thinking a cat had got into there. Or to answer the 'phone'.
Everyone I met knew me for my bird, and all of my brother's friends called me bird woman.
My mother invested in a huge iron cage, which we put on our porch.
But one day, the inevitable happened.
I walked out to feed him and say goodbye to him on the morning of a trip to yellowstone park, and found him lying on the bottom of his cage, not moving.
I picked him up, and he sighed and rubbed on my hand. His head was on almost backwords. It was clear he had taken a fall and had only a short time left to live. In the time I held him, which lasted maybe 20 minutes, he changed me. He loved me, and I knew it. As strange as it is that a little 13 year old girl could understand him like I did, in only 5 months, We had something amazing.
As his time ticked closer, I surfed the internet as fast as I could to try and figure out a way to save him. I found nothing, but I held him warm in my arms.
His time came, much faster than it should have. He screamed and covulsed in my hands, He thrashed and shrieked in agony, he wrapped his claws around my fingers, and then he let out his last breath and left me.
I cried then like none other, as I am crying now, a year later.
But life had to go on, we had a trip planned. So I put him into a box and sat it in our garage, and climbed into the car.
That entire trip was Hell. I spent the whole thing vomiting up my food and crying.
And for a year it was like that, multiple suicide attempts...and so my dad got me Romeo. And he brought me back, the little beast that he is. I still miss shadow, I always will, he was a gift from the heavens. He was just like me, hated for who he was, a Starling. People tried to kill him. People shunned me. But we always had eachother. And I will Always, Always miss that silly little beast of a bird.
I have never forgotten Shadow, the pain of his loss has never faded at all. He will always be my best friend. I preserved his body, and he watches me from my desk- I don't think he's ever truly left me.
My next story is of an animal who is still present in my life. His name is Romeo, and he is a rat. A year after Shadow died, my father took pity on me, and without my mother's knowledge, took me to get a rat. He was 5 weeks old, bouncy and playful, and full of joy. His enthusiasm when I was near him was incredible, and he brightened even the darkest days. He gave me a reason to keep living, to keep trying, and he is what helped me to clean my life up after I destroyed it. He has been with me for two years now, he is very old, and very sweet. His love for me has never faded, and he still brings impossible joy to my life and holds me together. His time is getting closer as he ages, though, and with the passing of my other male, Snitch, the time came to get another rat to keep my life together when Romeo moves on. I ended up with a pair of brothers, 5 weeks old, crazy and incredibly loving. Louis reminds me so much of Romeo when he was young.. he is already a crutch for me, he licks tears off of my face with his little rat tounge and he and his brother both make it thier reason in life to make me smile everyday. Even my boyfriend, who is going through troubles right now, has fallen in love with them and how goofy and loving they are.
Moonfall //
He/Him //
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And it's true, I hate everything but you."
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