HANNAH


I guess I have a way of attracting pets that aren't meant for me...originally. My mom was a live-in nurse for this patient before she hurt her back and couldn't work anymore. And the woman owned an Australian shepherd who was allowed to pretty much run all over her property. This dog wasn't fixed, so pretty much every time she went in season, she was going to have a litter of puppies. The woman couldn't get around very well and her husband was...an unsavory individual who didn't care about animals, so since they lived right next to a very busy road, most of the puppies either ended up 'stolen' or roadkill. Hannah came from a litter whose daddy was an Australian Cattle Dog (AKA blue heeler). She was a little red merle with one blue eye and one brown. She was the last of her siblings left...this was the first time my mom saw how that family handled their irresponsibility, and she took Hannah home to save her from the same fate as the others.
Hannah was supposed to be one of mom's special dogs...and goodness knows as cute as she was I did everything in my power to avoid her. We usually had anywhere between 10-16 dogs (my mom was big on rescue at the time) and I was heavily addicted to internet rp, so I wasn't interested in a new dog. But Hannah just loved me. She used to listen for the bus, and would leap over any obstacle in her path to get to me when I got home. She was my shadow everywhere. No matter how many other pets I had, she was the one that loved me the most.
My mom and my step-dad split up after I graduated high school...we were going to move to another state in order for me to go to college, and we had so many dogs...some of them had to go. And Hannah was one of the ones. I was so stupid with animals then...in and out of my life. I had insisted on getting a labrador, even though I had a perfectly good companion dog, and I chose him over her. She went to a local rescue group and I tried to go to college.
Several disasters later...we went from four dogs to one, living out of a motel, my mom and I. We had to come back to my home state, and couldn't keep any of the dogs but my mom's old german shepherd. Years passed...three of them. We had recovered financially, were working, and I had my own apartment. I wanted another dog like Hannah...no other pets had satisfied the longing I had for her. So I finally saved up some money and called up the first ad for puppies I found. Mom and I went together, because she was really excited for me, too. And when we got there, there was one puppy left. It was the most...unusual looking aussie I'd ever seen. It was a red merle, but the colors just looked off. Mom loved it instantly, but I wanted to see the parents.
So we go to the sliding glass, and there's four enormous aussies all shouldering for front place to see the strangers. And this dog...something about her just looked familiar. I said, "Mom...look, you've got to see this. This dog looks JUST like Hannah!" I turned, and the owner looked puzzled, saying, "Well, that IS Hannah...but how did you know?" All I could do was stare at him. I've never been so thunderstruck in my life. Mom, when she recognized her, said "Oh my God that is Hannah.." I remember only vaguely that she started telling our story, but he let her in, and...it was like we'd never been apart. She was a little shocked at first, but I sat down on the couch and she just snuggled up to my legs and all I could do was cry. I'd never had Hannah fixed, and the rescue people never thought she wasn't, so these people that lived over fifty miles away had adopted her and found out too late she wasn't fixed when she had pups...and when they saw how beautiful her pups were, they decided to just let her continue being a momma. They had never been able to figure out the bizarre colors she had until we said she was mixed with ACD, and that cleared up a lot. We were even able to show them her puppy pictures. As it happened, they were trying to get rid of all their dogs but two because of a change to city laws regarding pet ownership, so instead of a puppy, I got to bring my baby home at last.
I know I'd never have another chance like this in my lifetime to try and make right a wrong I've done. Hannah is my daily reminder that you never abandon family, even the furry kind. Because they DO keep loving you after you're gone. They love you...they miss you...and they don't forget. That dog is still as madly in love with me today as she was three years ago when I found her again. In fact she's caused us a lot of grief (and $$$ -_-) with uber separation anxiety. But no matter what she destroys, she still adores me. At the time I was needing an affirmation of faith, and finding her again like that, a bizarre and wonderful miracle, was a huge step in concreting my love of a forgiving and caring God. And if He's willing I hope to have Hannah a few more years yet. I haven't always done right with her, but I don't hesitate to believe that she'll be waiting for me at the Rainbow Bridge one day. She loves me too much not to, and it wouldn't be heaven without her.