TheComfortCorner | V.10

[caesou]

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holy moly. just went through a lot tonight.

[okabudge]

bah. having a tough time finding a job that i qualify for that i could easily do with my health stuff. i've gotten more rejection emails than i can handle and the only 2 interviews i've secured both had more qualified candidates. the lack of responses overall is really disheartening.
i am starting to regret going to the hospital- if i had known that my request for leave wasn't communicated or secured correctly, i wouldn't have gone. it hurts that my manager told me i could file things retroactively only to come back to termination when i brought in my doctor's note. i know there were a lot of management changes happening at the time that i needed help, but i'm bitter that my job was lost in the noise of it all.
i feel guilty for placing the burden of the entire financial situation on my partner while i do my best to find some kind of job. i've been out of work since february. the total lack of direction and all-consuming uncertainty i am experiencing at this moment have me in a constant undercurrent of dread, even when I'm doing my best to enjoy the moment.

i am trying to focus on what i can control. i am trying to take pleasure in the little things.
it's just been difficult.