TheComfortCorner | V.10

[♥ mizu]

yayy we're calling and hes shopping :) this is so fun. even tho were not talking and hes just talking to the sales lady this is nice :) idk i just wanted to happy vent, its kind of comforting

[DuckquackQUACK]

idrk if this is a vent or not, but i'm a furry, and i don't have any fursuits or any of that stuff yet. i only have therian masks and tails, but it's kinda scary to go out, bc you never know who calls you a furry, who barks at you, etc- ANYWAY i really want a fursuit- especially like a custom made one to match my oc species (mostly the leader of them, ''big boy'' Farrison) and idrk if i want it actually... bc i don't wanna go out with it just to get insulted and howled at, but i still want that damn fursuit. i'm just gonna say, i think it's really expensive, but at least i have my 5 dollar roblox avatar to have fursuits on :P also i want earrings :D

[marciplier]

dude. really

[♥ mizu]

i havent gone full breakdown yet but birthdays are always so emotionally charged for me

it's 3am, i know i shouldn't expect it but my friends usually message each other at 00:00 to express their birthday wishes, right. they did this last year. i thought we were closer than last year. i can't actually share my age on CS but. this birthday is very special. it's a milestone birthday, if you know what i mean.

do you guys want to know who has wished me happy birthday? exactly 3 people. my crush (mentioned above), the receptionist at his hotel, and the serviceman who came to deliver him chocolate cake when he realised that it was my birthday. he wanted to call tonight, as he always does, and we talked. at 12:05 or so, he realised it was my birthday. he told me happy birthday before anyone else, and i must admit that i began crying to him. he called the front desk, they wished him happy birthday because he was too shy to say it was mine. when they came to his door with the cake, he told them it was mine and the man sang happy birthday to me. they'd even written him a note in chinese because they thought it was his haha. it read, "happy birthday, you are valued and bring joy into the world". even my crush was singing happy birthday to himself, it was very cute

he keeps asking me what my gifts are going to be, and i know my parents likely won't get me one. he said i should go wake my parents up and tell them it's now officially my birthday - i did, they got mad, no "happy birthday" from them haha. he's not a very emotional person but.. it was so kind of him. he didn't know how to comfort me when i was crying, but he was the one to make me laugh. he was the one to wish my happy birthday when nobody else did. he was the one to stay on call with me for 5 hours.

do you want to know what else? my parents are taking me to a restaurant tomorrow. he said he'll try to go, because it's in his hotel's city. it might be too far away for him, but the fact that he'd even say that is just.. so kind. i feel that he must think of me as a friend, but that is just. it is so kind. he makes me so happy, even if he's sassy and silly and kind of blunt sometimes. he's still kind. he's still the only one to remember my birthday. can you believe that, cs friends? isn't that so kind? i cannot stop crying, the fact that somebody would do that for me. i cannot believe it. i have never had somebody do that for me before.

[^RukaDog^]

I have an overdue English assignment that I can’t be bothered doing omg. Like when will I EVER need to write a story about Greek mythology in 20 years time- like it’s so useless and I get straight As in English and I know FOR SURE I’m going to actually fail this 😭😭

[♥ mizu]

my dad cancelled our reservation to that restaurant because he said he doesnt feel like driving 40 minutes. he hasnt even said happy birthday. ive been sobbing all morning. he didnt know about my friend but im so disappointed. were instead going to the restaurant my parents like.

idont know why i always get so excited. there was no reasont o be excited over something so stupid its just another day. i feel so worthless. why would anyone do that for me. why would i feel so entitled to expect him to do this. he doesnt have to but hes taking me to another restaurant why am i sad. howcan i hate this restaurant when they serve good food . how can i say i dont wanttto go when its a giftdinner. i dont deserve my friends why would they ever do anything for me i dont needanything why ould my dad drive so far when he doesnt have to its not that important its just 1 day. i was so exctied over something tso stupid.what do i actually bring into the world why would he do that for me why would you just decide ohhh this is the day she was born its not that important i dont bring anything to this family we can do this any day. i am so guilty why am i sad ill see my friend on monday but i was so excited to see him today he was so kind to me last night. buthes stjjust being nice i dont need to go 40minutes why would bmy dad drive so far away to take us to this restaurant if there is another im so entitled and greedy

[UraniumIsotope]

I hate being sick, all I am is constantly sick or getting sick and I hate it. Right now I have a really bad cough that gives me a headache when I cough. I can’t stand it, I’m tired of taking medicine constantly. I question why I hate having a weak immune system so when people don’t cover their coughs or sneezes, I always end up getting sick as well

[gamer]

lonely.

my boyfriend is manipulating me. that much is clear.
he doesn't seem to really care about me anymore.
i don't think there's a future with us.
but i don't know what to do without him.
i'm scared.

[lisica,]

on fallouts w someone and can’t sleep over it. I feel trapped and pathetic cause i know ill be apologising and begging for forgiveness when i dont deserve that. This sucks

[sinensys]

caught in the vicious cycle of just,, eating. i eat because i cant tell if i'm hungry, bored, or not hungry but aware i should eat something. i didn't want to eat some of the things i did but i did anyways because i thought i wanted to. like what?? out of context it even sounds absurd

also i can't tell if some of my reactions are from dhe iv. last night i had to cancel a lab meeting bc i felt like my whole body was thrumming to the beat of my pulse. but then when i checked my pulse, it was like,, 87 bpm. at night that's uh not ideal but also not dangerous. i'm also just bloated and feel like there's a heavy rock in my abdomen. idk tho bc i can't really do anything about it rn.

also i think my meds might be not ideal again. seroquel is not helping me sleep anymore and thats so fun!!! and i still get depressed but no bipolar highs. i shouldn't miss them but i do. ik it might just be my plummeted mood due to not doing as well in one of my classes as i wouldve liked plus three days of being hooked up to an iv for three hours and just being tired. ik it might just be that. but this feeling sucks. i wanna do stuff and also not. if it made sense it wouldn't be an issue ig lmao