[khenney]

Where have you gone?
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So I've been avoiding this one.
Well here we go (big trigger warning)
A few months ago, a customer kept coming in and buying puppy vaccines and other items for a litter. We got to talking and she showed me updates on her litter whenever she came into the store. No matter how pretty the othe pups were I kept gravitating towards one specific one. A red and white male. This was odd since I prefer females and didn't want another dog for me (I wanted my son to pick one out)
Anyway, I kept joking with the breeder that for some reason I was being pulled to him.
He took several extra weeks to sell. No biggie I have 2 dogs and 2 cats and other critters.
Still thought of him often, a friend of mine is a friend of the breeder. So I was a bit surprised when I saw that pup had been brought back a month later. I mentioned about the universe wanting me to have him. Needless to say I ended up bringing him home.
And then I found out why the universe needed me to have him..
Within the same week of bringing the new boy home I lost my best friend.
She spent the weekend at the ER vet but she never got to come home. I had to make that decision while on the phone with my mom as we both cried for her, I stared at my new pup, wondering if it was his fault, maybe the stress, maybe I focused on him and missed something.
Luckily mom and I were able to go and say our goodbyes. And I got to speak to her vets. It wasn't the new baby's fault just like it wasn't my fault. She was old, poorly bred, and had many long term issues that came together. Igave her a lastkindness and the universe gave us a new companion to help both me and my remaining dog(her bonded partner) a way to move on smoother.
My son and my fiance were not as found of her as me and my other dog were.
Renley hated kids, and strangers, and had bad eyesight from a young age so she barked. She was as dumb as a brick and as useful as a box of rocks. But she was my best friend. I saved her life as a puppy and in return she saved mine. I wasnt ready. It's been very hard but I've coped rather well.
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I suppose I will finally end this here. It's so late and now I'm upset. Besides the sadness the reason I didn't want to post this was because I knew I wouldn't be able to draw her correctly. I did my best though
Thanks for reading. Pet loss is valid. It doesn't matter your age or theirs.
I will probably edit this a tad tomorrow

[*JACKAL*]

It’s perfectly drawn and I’m sorry for your loss. I hate losing animals. I also hate other people losing animal.
Big internet hug for you xx

[Vruja]

Lots of support and internet love from here!
The art is amazing

[gypsum_moon]

So sorry to hear about the loss of your beloved furbaby. It is not easy when we lose someone that we love so much and so dear to our heart. It is so hard to do the right thing by saying goodbye to our best friends that have become such a big part of our lives. My heart is heavy for you at this time, as I went through the same thing like this sadly to say more than once,and it never gets easier. 😔 I send hugs, prayers, and loving support to you and your family at this time of grieving. Btw, your art is beautiful and lovely by all means. ❤️

[khenney]

It’s perfectly drawn and I’m sorry for your loss. I hate losing animals. I also hate other people losing animal.
Big internet hug for you xx

I've been preparing myself for a few years now, I've seen many internet friends loose theirs beloved pets and man is it hard.
thank you very much Xx

[khenney]

Lots of support and internet love from here!
The art is amazing

thank you very much, I appreciate it

[khenney]

So sorry to hear about the loss of your beloved furbaby. It is not easy when we lose someone that we love so much and so dear to our heart. It is so hard to do the right thing by saying goodbye to our best friends that have become such a big part of our lives. My heart is heavy for you at this time, as I went through the same thing like this sadly to say more than once, and it never gets easier. 😔 I send hugs, prayers, and loving support to you and your family at this time of grieving. Btw, your art is beautiful and lovely by all means. ❤️

I've found that talking about her and mentioning her in regular conversation has actually helped a lot. You never really understand how truly lonely it is until they are gone. Its heartbreaking but I don't think I could trade that kind of love and loyalty for anything, even knowing at the end is great sadness.
I'm very sorry for you as well, they are worth every minute