TheComfortCorner | V.10

[dratio]

The downstairs neighbors hardly shut up. Banging on the walls near midnight. I'm sick of them.

[screamingrainfrog]

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[^RukaDog^]

(Happy vent)
I GOT AN A IN MY ENGLISH TEST TODAY!!!!
YAY! I LOOOOOVVVEEEE ENGLISH NOW!

[vist]

i need help, serious serious help,.
i wish i wasn’t this way either,.
i want to heal, i want to be more than i am,.
im sorry,.

[bunnyboy]

i wish i was valued. but im just not. and i need to accept that people generally dont care about me. im hated wherever i go because of things i cant help. im autistic, i act autistic i guess, i dont know. im tired of people not liking me over me being autistic. im doing my best, but its never enough. ill never be enough.

[flooxii]

im scared and i don't know what of.

[Wolfumus]

Health issues have me scared. I've already been to the ER. Thought I was having a heart attack. I'm young, I'm healthy, it's extremely unlikely, but I went anyways because I was scared. And they cleared me. EKG, X-ray, both great. I should be fine. Just a panic attack, right? A 36-hour panic attack. Weird, but maybe. I'm paranoid. Just paranoid. But I'm still scared, because now I'm in pain again. The urgent care says acid reflux. Really? Are we sure this time? Please tell me you're sure this time. Did the meds help? I can't tell. I'm sore. I'm scared.

[nobxdy]

a little update to my situation, im feeling a lot better since my last comfortcorner post. it absolutely sucks what happened, but slowly but surely i've begun to accept it. it didn't help, though, when they saw i was over my grandparent's house and decided to pay an unwanted visit. the entire time they were there i was just so mad, and clearly didn't want to be bothered, but they once again didn't get the hint. they asked me to text them when i got home, i never did. how many boundaries do you have to cross.. anyway, besides that, things have been okay. now im just worrying about assignments.. i feel like im not going to get them done in time.

[sinensys]

once again, things have fallen on my shoulders --- it's like fate decided to play a silly goofy joke and now i have to wade through the resultant muck.

my bipolar disorder is making it hard to do things --- i can't fall asleep, or all i want to do is sleep. i have an exam next week, two assignments due tomorrow (three if you count tuesday's assignment), the dog is bloated, and tomorrow i have an interview at 9 am, meaning i need to be up at 7ish. this interview is for a summer thing that is really cool, but it might only happen because i don't make it into the reu i want to get into. it's the only one i applied to because i wasn't on top of things, and i'm competing for the slot with some of my friends. i don't know if i can make it in considering my past few semesters at my current school, getting my bachelor's. i did so well getting my two associates before my worst two disabilities came into play. i did reasonably well last semester because one of the courses was easy, the second was laden with bonus assignments to make up for kicking everyone's ass, and the third i was curved up to a b-. the other one i got a b in because i was so overwhelmed and battling migraines, bad bipolar meds, and the bipolar disorder itself. i don't think i'll make it in considering all my other friends are doing so well. so having this interview as backup would be great, but the truth is that it's just what i'm scraping by with. i don't know. it feels so hopeless. i'm so tired. the last few days i've been home have been me working around my younger sibling too, she comes with challenges. i know she's struggling, but with some things, it really does feel preventable. friday evening i could not get much done after 7 because she decided to cut the dog's nails on her own and on the first one, cut a little too high, resulting in blood. i had to stop her from doing awful things to herself. today she's done little and ended up not eating all day and vomiting when she tried to eat junk food in the evening. i need to be asleep right now but i haven't showered yet or put the birds to bed. i want to sleep, but don't want to do the things i need to do to get there. i have someone asking me for notes from a past class, but i don't think i took any good notes then. i was too overwhelmed and struggling with an undiagnosed mood disorder. i wish i had gotten it diagnosed earlier. it doesn't matter what i wish.

[LittleMaple]

I can't sleep and I have to get up in 1 hrs 30 min for an 8 Jr day and it makes.me feel like a bad person and im really upset and I feel like.i can't do anything right and I just want to cry and cry and cry and cry