TheComfortCorner | V.10

[Saina Belaire]

I don't know how to begin processing everything right now. I finally got my kids here with me. Four years of work to try and give them a lifetime of happiness. And now, the youngest one has something wrong with his brain, I probably finally have the MS kicking in and all my work has amounted to nothing. I get sick, I get better, whoops HAVE A NEW PROBLEM, fixed that one, now you can't use your hands, come to terms with that, let's take your sight. Oh, you've come to terms with that, how about your five year old. What about the 15 year old? How much tragedy can you take? Everyone who says it's to make me stronger can take a flying leap, because really, what benefit is there to shattering me into more and more pieces? I can't take this forever. I can't hold out until it all falls into place. Gofundme's do nothing, so no better housing, only mold. No weight off. No brief moment of respite and I'm so angry. And tired and upset and every negative emotion smashed into one indecipherable ball of despair.

[dratio]

I've been having bad dreams of just about anything. One that is becoming more common is one of my neighbors hating me or trying to get to me somehow, ever since I found out his name, and he was caught peering out the window when I was walking past. I've put in more effort in avoiding him completely since he started going out after I went out. Being in the hospital for a week and then not being home most of the day 4–5 days a week has helped. What doesn't help is me dropping a lot of weight. I've noticed people looking at me more, particularly cishet men; or I've stopped masking so much, and people are thinking I look off. Either way, it doesn't help the dreams since I've had a problem with constant nightmares about running away from something, including accusatory people, and it's been worse now since the hospital.

[Jarex]

being trans is so hard and nothing's making it easier. it will take me at least 3 years, a boatload of money, and a lifetime of hardship to even have a chance of feeling like myself in my body when everyone else gets it for free. it's not fair

[marciplier]

very frustrated and frustrated at myself for feeling that way

[♥ mizu]

I need to get the hell out of here. Thank God I'll be with my sister for a bit. I think my parents are getting worse with age
/pos vent now I have a crush this is nuts I forgot how fun it was

[lyney]

i can't help but feel a little bit disturbed now that i know what's wrong. i'm glad we postponed the surgery so i have time to process and we won't be putting everything on the line financially when we genuinely can't afford it, but it's a little offputting to listen to your bones grind against each other when you walk. i know they're wearing each other down but i can't do anything about it.

it's not that anything's changed. but with every step i take i have to listen to the loud snap and pop, and feel it, feel the grind where they rub up against each other. and now that i know it's my bones there's that sense of.. disgust. it's my own body wearing itself down where the muscle's deteriorated away. i now understand that ignorance is bliss. it's nice to know so i can be more careful, i have four different tears in three different muscles and fluid buildup, but still; i almost wish i didn't know. i'm just going to hope that i don't damage my leg any more in these next three months. i'll be back in a brace for who knows how long, and probably have to fish one of my old crutches out.

oh to have a normal leg. i'll be bedridden after this surgery, but also can barely do anything before too under the risk of hurting myself more. my limp's gotten worse too, can't win.

[^RukaDog^]

I don’t wanna go on school camp
Oh mum..please don’t make me go…

[LittleMaple]

I jave to get a filling and I'm so scares. Im bring my plushie wife (cat she's great) and wearing my gfs hoodie but I'm so scared. God. It's horrible I don't want this.

[Spearow]

Really screwed up last night at work, I let people get to me at my new job. No one there likes me, and after the 500th knitpicking comment I had a full on anxiety attack. Really sucks because the one that has been making most of the snide remarks got promoted and will most likely be my new Captain. Really upset, I don't like walking into a room where I'm not welcome and they talk as soon as they think I'm out of earshot. Dreading going back tonight, I'm embarrassed and feel like I'm going to get fired even though it is illegal to fire someone for a mental health thing. I have to go to the dentist immediately after work too, I hate going to the dentist. Midnight shift makes me so anxious already I just want this month to be over.

[viles]

• i wish i was better equipped to help my friend. they're going through a lot, and i just,, idk. i wish i knew how to help
  
  edit: apparently my sister called like,, two hours ago, too, idk. i'm worried something's up. tried calling back but she didn't answer. i suck at being there for the people in my life