TheComfortCorner | V.10

[mars]

someone who used to be my closest, absolute best friend messaged me for the first time in almost a year and a half after we had a falling out. he didn't apologize for what happened that made us stop being friends. he didn't even ask me how I was doing. he just said that he was back and gave me an update on his life.

I don't think he genuinely cares about me, but I can't tell why he did this. was he desperately lonely to the point where he'd message ME of all people? did he want to hurt me by reinserting himself in my life after I had moved on? I don't even know what to think or feel. there's a reason why I stopped being his friend and I doubt he's changed at all

[flooxii]

i thought i could trust you i thought i could trust you i thought i could trust you i thought i could trust you i thought i could trust you i thought i could trust you i thought i could trust you i thought i could trust you i thought i could trust you i thought i could trust you i thought i could trust you i thought i could trust you i thought i could trust you i thought i could trust you i thought i could trust you i thought i could trust you.
what's wrong with me? what did i do wrong? i don't want you to be a lesson. i thought you were my friend. you were. for 8 years. how could you betray me like that? you hurt me. you hurt me so bad. are you proud? are you proud of what you are? what you caused me? i can't sleep because of you. i can't do anything because of you. i can't love.
i want to go home, man. please.

[bestiarium]

I’m trying to be relatively independent living with my partner because everytime I express an emotion my parents berate me to the point of tears :-) unfortunately I can no longer afford to live. in general! I wanted to discuss selling the car. not to get anything back, just so I can stop paying hundreds of dollars I don’t have monthly. I got berated to tears :-) they then told me they were pissed at me for acting like a 5 year old for dissociating through the conversation that was genuinely just trapping me and berating me. and then they told me to leave bc they weren’t trying to trap and berate me. ok! I’ll just starve

[Cowslips]

I'm getting married in June and planning my wedding has been extremely stressful. I didn't invest in a wedding planner, and my relationship with my parents has been strained for the better part of a year, so I have done most of the organizing and decision making myself. I'm three months out and still haven't gotten my dress altered, bridesmaids dresses, groomsmen suits, a hair stylist, a photographer, catering, etc. Not for lack of trying, mind you, we have just been STRUGGLING to get people to respond and find options that fit within our budget. Don't get me wrong, I'm excited to finally tie the knot with my fiancé, but I'm exhausted both mentally and physically.

[troops21]

Feeling the major sense of guilt that I can't always be there for my current friends because of my desire to always find new things and connect with new people.
Like I used to feel guilt or question that I broke up with a very close friend of mine because of our splitting opinions, I hope I don't have to feel distanced from someone again because I know I would be fine but I'm not sure if they would be fine.

Wonder if I should try to seek advice for this. Especially noting our interests don't really align as much as they used to.

[vist]

tired,.

[Jarex]

after ignoring me for months, my classmate is crawling back to me because she got into an argument with the best friend she replaced me with. does she think I'm stupid?

[neapolitan]

for once i'm glad i ever got so used to people seeing my issues as either irrelevant or favorable. i'm sorry you think being "gifted" is good. come back when you have no social network, no social skills, lacking in basic things like how to write long well-flowing texts or just writing by hand at a decent pace. come back when everyone stared you in the eye and told you "i wish i was like you" when all you want is to be normal just one day. come back when you forever have an unbalance of wanting to be perfect because everyone always expected that, right? it doesn't matter if you never practiced, you're meant to be great at it because you're you. and then when you're already struggling you're left forgotten, unimportant, because you're so welcome to please that you don't even dare to say that you want some space too. it's okay. everyone can take their time. i'll be okay. i can be alone for weeks, months, several years by now, only for my friends and family to only talk to me when they want to hear how my sister am. i'm sorry that i tried to be honest about my struggles in life, but i can't fit every aspect of my life into one small forum post. i hope i never have the urge to come back to this site, because it never helped me mentally. thank you, my unquenchable desire for validation, you strike me again, and i can't even bother to try again.

[LittleMaple]

Not feeling very well. Oh no. Hope it isn't coming around again but it probably is since it always does eventually. Don't even have much of a reason to not let it happen this time.

[dratio]

The shaking isn't as bad this morning. Am I getting better? Or am I getting used to it?