TheComfortCorner | V.10

[♥ mizu]

sobbing why do i look SO ANGRY in my sister's official wedding film lmao. it was so sunny and thankfully my dad looks even angrier but i was sitting in the front row and i look like i'm feeling so awkward lol

[flooxii]

I really hope I'm not a bad friend. a bad person. I'm trying my best all the time, but it never works out. I'm trying so hard for you. I'm sorry I've disappointed you multiple times within the past week. I never tried to. I just want to be a good friend. I want it to not feel like a chore to talk to me.

[nobxdy]

i have to go to bed but i really don't want to because when i get up im gonna have to go someplace i've never been before and interact with people i've never interacted with before as per my class requirements and i have a feeling im not gonna be able to sleep tonight. having severe anxiety sucks.

edit;
I kinda want to backtrack on some of this. Today was a good day, and it honestly warmed my heart to the point i almost got emotional. Yesterday was kind of a bad day, but today was so nice and it made me happy, even if i feel awkward sitting there watching everything.

[Jarex]

I offered on a character design and they accepted my offer, yay cool, I finished part of my half and randomly saw the character on TH's featured, and saw they'd accepted someone else's offer without even telling me... I asked them about it and they said they'd basically cancelled my offer unbeknownst to me. I probably would've gone on to finish my half for the character that I wouldn't even get if I hadn't noticed. what happened to not making artists waste their time?

[CallOfTheSpiral]

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[♥ mizu]

tw for sickness & vomiting & fainting

i have not felt this physically bad in so so long oh my god. this morning i was kind of nauseous, but i told my dad and we decided it was ok to go to school. he drove me in to town to get picked up by the van. as soon as i got in the van i started feeling horribly nauseous again and they had to turn it around. thankfully my teachers are extremely kind and considerate

surprisingly my dad wasn't upset or anything. anyway as soon as i got home i puked. went back to bed, woke up 5 minutes later and the nausea was so bad that i both puked and fainted. cue this happening until now. thankfully the fainting has slowed down but i can't even count how many times it's happened today. it's terrifying

my body aches, my stomach hurts, everything hurts. my throat hurts. i cannot stress enough that i am not a puker. i haven't vomited in years. i think i have the flu. it hit me so quickly, yesterday i was absolutely fine. i can't even eat anything. drinking is even pushing it.

[fluffysweetfloss]

why does my disability make it impossible to trust anyone because it will be taken advantage of if i do? i want to be able to trust and love the way others can but i can't even look at a person without fear.

they're probably just being nice to me, but i'm forced to question if they have other motives

[67Phlox]

I can't think of anything positive but I must, otherwise I'll only spiral down from here.

On another note, increasingly anxious about sharing thoughts. Or anything related to my feelings in general. Might return to a journal

[Jarex]

it feels like there's something terribly wrong with me that I'm not even aware of and that's why nobody likes me

[♥ mizu]

everythnig hurts