TheComfortCorner | V.10

[sinensys]

i'm tired of professionals, i'm tired of being treated like i'm broken, and i'm tired of being helped. i don't want the help i'm receiving. i don't know if i will get the help i want if i ask for it. i am too tired to bother, even though i should be ashamed that i don't want to try. bipolar 2 and no therapy is a bad mix, and while i know i can pull through, it doesn't seem fair to those around me. i want to find ways to navigate the way i'm used to navigating things, not this stupid, stupid mindfulness and meditation. i liked holding and being held by my boyfriend, and he seemed to really like it too --- he seemed a lot more relaxed after it, and he said that much as well. maybe that will help us more with our respective ailments.

why does soothing the unsettled circuitry in our brains have to be so hard? at least our connection helps and the phsycial contact, when schedules align, lift the weight some.

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update:
it baton passed and now i'm just mad. tired, but so damn agitated. shaking.

[vist]

i can’t stop thinking about the possibility that i’m going to lose both my dogs at the same time,..

[just peachy!]

im so depressed idk how to act ...
i feel hopeless, worrying about my future and my health
and i have people who support me but i cant bring myself to accept that they care

[Arlecchino ♡]

stop looking at me like that. stop telling me im not doing enough when im breaking myself to my very soul to try and heal the bond that you broke. i am supposed to be working on forgiving you, but you are treating me like it was my own fault.

why am i to blame for your mistakes? why do i have to lose myself when all i want to do is even have a sense of self?

i am trying to hard to be worth loving but i just keep losing.

[LittleMaple]

Rough night due to my stomach but I'm feeling better now. Gonna go to sleep. Goodnight I love you all like siblings

[♥ mizu]

^ goodnight <3

i'm about to go to sleep too. it's 2:39 AM and i just finished my math homework but i was listening to music til 2 anyway haha. i hope i can fall asleep soon because my insomnia these past couple days has been very bad. it stresses me out. even melatonin doesnt help very much. at least i get to enjoy a warm bed tho. you know, the frustrating thing is that i can't fall asleep, but once it's the morning i can ALWAYS fall back asleep after my alarm goes off T.T

[neapolitan]

why did she have to find me. why now. why do i have to be scared to log into discord because just the thought of it brings back every word she said. i've never been scared like this before.

[stellulite]

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[_SmollJellyfish_]

I feel empty now
It's my problem and my trust issues
it's the only thing that has cheered me up in my life,and now it seems like a lie to me, no matter what they said after the drama
I feel all my hopes collapsed,I don't get anything, I don't see any improvements unlike other people's experiences
no matter how hard I try nothing works, nothing new for myself
I should focus on what to do with my life now, I had other plans but they are unattainable
I don't have a talent, I'm not smart for university, I'm not pretty, I feel like an outsider unlike other humans
and what will I do when I have to get a "real job"?
I, I don't know
I can't wait to get home to look at my comfort series again, or sleep
I can already feel my bad intrusive thoughts eating me

[dratio]

Mfw the doctor doesn't know what's the cause of my symptoms and runs blood tests for obscure conditions 😭