TheComfortCorner | V.10

[♥ mizu]

MY AUDIO WAS ALL THE WAY UP IN CLASS ON MY COMPUTER AND I PAYED A VIDEO AND IR FREAKING BLASTED FBIR I COULDNT TRUN IT OFF OMGGGG

IM SO GLAD THRRE ARE ONLY FOUR PEOPLE IN THIS CLASS AND WERE ALL FRIENDS 😭😭😭 THEY ALL LAUGHED AT ME

[screamingrainfrog]

I'm having my death anxiety™️ again but this time apocalypse and war flavoured.
I've been having this for a while now but its slowly getting more and more frequent and worse. Literally had a mini breakdown one night in February? Because I thought the world was ending ( sun was going to explode, I think that was the reason ) and I would never be able to say goodbye to my mom. Having a similar situation now, I want to fix everything that has ever happened between me and my friends, I want to tell them all how much they mean to me or have meant to me in the past I just want to get absolutely everything out in the open because its killing me that I have things unsaid. Only problem with this is I don't think theres a socially acceptable way to do it fjdnjxnd how am I supposed to be like 'hey my brain is telling me that everyone is going to die soon (maybe even right now) and I need to tell you everything I have ever thought about you and how much I love you even though we like never talk and I'm pretty sure you are sick of me'
I actually feel so embarrassing for even feeling like this. Everyday it happens and then the next day the world is still going and the cycle repeats.
Idk theres so much more it's doing to me as well but this is what I've been going through today. I'm tired of being filled with dread over and over again. Idk how I am supposed to do anything like this.
Also also I am waiting on a job interview to be a waitress and you know how stupid it feels??? I am going to die why am I waiting for a job so i can serve pizza. That doesn't seem right i feel like i need to be doing something else, something important but idk what.
Also also oh dear god probably the worst part of this is I am so aware that it's a reality for so many people </3 it makes me feel sick. I wish the world leaders and people green flagging wars and destruction can feel the guilt and terror I do, i hope it haunts them every minute of every day.

[kotak]

I'm having my death anxiety™️ again but this time apocalypse and war flavoured.
I've been having this for a while now but its slowly getting more and more frequent and worse. Literally had a mini breakdown one night in February? Because I thought the world was ending ( sun was going to explode, I think that was the reason ) and I would never be able to say goodbye to my mom. Having a similar situation now, I want to fix everything that has ever happened between me and my friends, I want to tell them all how much they mean to me or have meant to me in the past I just want to get absolutely everything out in the open because its killing me that I have things unsaid. Only problem with this is I don't think theres a socially acceptable way to do it fjdnjxnd how am I supposed to be like 'hey my brain is telling me that everyone is going to die soon (maybe even right now) and I need to tell you everything I have ever thought about you and how much I love you even though we like never talk and I'm pretty sure you are sick of me'
I actually feel so embarrassing for even feeling like this. Everyday it happens and then the next day the world is still going and the cycle repeats.
Idk theres so much more it's doing to me as well but this is what I've been going through today. I'm tired of being filled with dread over and over again. Idk how I am supposed to do anything like this.
Also also I am waiting on a job interview to be a waitress and you know how stupid it feels??? I am going to die why am I waiting for a job so i can serve pizza. That doesn't seem right i feel like i need to be doing something else, something important but idk what.
Also also oh dear god probably the worst part of this is I am so aware that it's a reality for so many people </3 it makes me feel sick. I wish the world leaders and people green flagging wars and destruction can feel the guilt and terror I do, i hope it haunts them every minute of every day.

this makes so much sense and also same. i live in a country with close geographical proximity to one of the wars in the world right now and it's so scary, i've also fallen down a rabbit hole of consuming apocalyptic media (the last of us, etc.) which is making it so much worse cause omg health anxiety combo. but we truly can never know what "the future" holds (as in our experience, there is always just going to be the present, we can't exist both in the future and in the present, so it's really just an illusionary construct we choose to rely on). these grand, terrifying situations are not in our hands, all we can do is make the most out of the opportunities we have to be with the people we love, so the way i cope with this constant fear is i try to make my experiences and connections count by doing small, manageable things that show the people i love that i care (like cooking for them, talking to them, helping with chores and reminding them i love them as often as i can) because it's all i can do. and that's okay despite all the complicated, difficult-to-manage emotions it evokes. right now we're safe and we're together and we're okay and that's what matters.

sometimes the only thing that helps is taking your mind off of the fear - the world can be horrifying, but if you and your loved ones are all safe in the present there's no imminent danger, nothing you have to do to protect your survival, you're allowed to rest and do things that aren't necessarily "important", they can just be pleasant!! (i've gotten back into playing club penguin and even though it has no inherent value or importance, it helps me balance my brain!) rest is so important in tackling anxiety but it can be such a tough thing to practice if you also have crippling anxiety about the possibility of not leaving a legacy or making an impact on the world. but honestly, the pressure i put on myself earlier in life due to this exact anxiety was SO overwhelming that i can't create anymore, i can't make music (what i've always believed would be my main contribution to the world), i can't paint, i can barely sing (my central passion since i was a toddler!) and through trial and error and a lot of pain and resistance i have realized that the only way to heal and untie the knots of this dysfunction is to step back, focus on something else that i care about but that doesn't put such life or death pressure on me and take small, slow, caring steps forward, trying to get back into what i truly value as important that has been tainted by my fear. my advice to you is to just try to take care of yourself as if you're another person, someone you love deeply - what would you tell a friend you care about if they were stuck in the same cycle of fear? maybe the pizza job could end up being a fulfilling "distraction" where you make awesome connections with others and discover great things about life! your feelings aren't embarrassing at all, they're understandable and important, but they don't indicate that you're in danger and that something will go wrong, they're just a method your mind uses to try and protect you from pain, or to prepare you for difficult situations that may hypothetically happen. and if by any chance you've been needing to hear this, it's going to be okay!

i hope my response isn't invasive, i just feel very connected to what you said as i've been struggling with death anxiety daily since my dad passed away and it's one of the most isolating experiences i've lived through, so i think it helps to know you're not alone. also i recently watched a video about apocalyptic media that helped me deal with my fear by reminding me that the positive qualities of human nature don't cease to exist just because stressful scary things happen, so i recommend it a lot: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1rvYYD9mlac&t=909s

i hope your stress eases and that you have an awesome day! (if you need to talk to a stranger who shares this experience my pms are always open)

now for a personal rant, i'm sooo broke and i have no idea how it happened but it feels so embarrassing. i wish i was better with money and i wish that on most days i didn't feel so disconnected and hopeless that only materialism and my collecting hobbies make sense as milestones to look forward to :c experiences give me so much stress and anxiety to deal with that i'm perpetually exhausted so i can only get excited about material things because they're static and i'm fully in control of the intensity of the situations related to them that i choose to experience

[demodog]

you ever feel so alone even in the company of others?
like you feel hollow, like a shell of who you used to be.

[♥ mizu]

I'm so freaking stressed rn and like it's really really bad and my sister only sends me dry responses I can't handle this oj my god i hate my life

[screamingrainfrog]

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this makes so much sense and also same. i live in a country with close geographical proximity to one of the wars in the world right now and it's so scary, i've also fallen down a rabbit hole of consuming apocalyptic media (the last of us, etc.) which is making it so much worse cause omg health anxiety combo. but we truly can never know what "the future" holds (as in our experience, there is always just going to be the present, we can't exist both in the future and in the present, so it's really just an illusionary construct we choose to rely on). these grand, terrifying situations are not in our hands, all we can do is make the most out of the opportunities we have to be with the people we love, so the way i cope with this constant fear is i try to make my experiences and connections count by doing small, manageable things that show the people i love that i care (like cooking for them, talking to them, helping with chores and reminding them i love them as often as i can) because it's all i can do. and that's okay despite all the complicated, difficult-to-manage emotions it evokes. right now we're safe and we're together and we're okay and that's what matters.

sometimes the only thing that helps is taking your mind off of the fear - the world can be horrifying, but if you and your loved ones are all safe in the present there's no imminent danger, nothing you have to do to protect your survival, you're allowed to rest and do things that aren't necessarily "important", they can just be pleasant!! (i've gotten back into playing club penguin and even though it has no inherent value or importance, it helps me balance my brain!) rest is so important in tackling anxiety but it can be such a tough thing to practice if you also have crippling anxiety about the possibility of not leaving a legacy or making an impact on the world. but honestly, the pressure i put on myself earlier in life due to this exact anxiety was SO overwhelming that i can't create anymore, i can't make music (what i've always believed would be my main contribution to the world), i can't paint, i can barely sing (my central passion since i was a toddler!) and through trial and error and a lot of pain and resistance i have realized that the only way to heal and untie the knots of this dysfunction is to step back, focus on something else that i care about but that doesn't put such life or death pressure on me and take small, slow, caring steps forward, trying to get back into what i truly value as important that has been tainted by my fear. my advice to you is to just try to take care of yourself as if you're another person, someone you love deeply - what would you tell a friend you care about if they were stuck in the same cycle of fear? maybe the pizza job could end up being a fulfilling "distraction" where you make awesome connections with others and discover great things about life! your feelings aren't embarrassing at all, they're understandable and important, but they don't indicate that you're in danger and that something will go wrong, they're just a method your mind uses to try and protect you from pain, or to prepare you for difficult situations that may hypothetically happen. and if by any chance you've been needing to hear this, it's going to be okay!

i hope my response isn't invasive, i just feel very connected to what you said as i've been struggling with death anxiety daily since my dad passed away and it's one of the most isolating experiences i've lived through, so i think it helps to know you're not alone. also i recently watched a video about apocalyptic media that helped me deal with my fear by reminding me that the positive qualities of human nature don't cease to exist just because stressful scary things happen, so i recommend it a lot: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1rvYYD9mlac&t=909s

i hope your stress eases and that you have an awesome day! (if you need to talk to a stranger who shares this experience my pms are always open)

Thank you so much for this <3 sorry I didn't see it last night but I really appreciate it :']

[marinara sauce]

welp almost five weeks no contact and it hasn’t gotten any better! yay for me. lol

[trilli]

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[dakotapaws]

i dont know whats causing these feelings. i just get? sad? sometimes? that itself isnt new. it sucks. and i dont have the time, nor energy, to go find comfort in what i usually do. so im just. stuck with it until its gone for a bit.

and im tired of waiting for this labwork to come back. the medicine im on isnt working and everything i eat sets me off. i just want to start the new medication but i cant until then. sigh.

[Ch!cken]

girl it has been two years why did u unblock me on spotify..........