would love some advice on my screw up x
So my coworker and I had previously been interested in each other a little over a year ago but decided not to pursue anything because of our circumstances, but I still have a soft spot for him and it seems like he had one for me, up until now that is.
The other day, my coworker and I decided to go for a drive after work. He was on his motorbike, and I was in my car. We were on the phone while driving around and it was great. I jokingly told him “you should let me try your bike” and he said he’d be willing to. I told him “I don’t want to drop your bike though, I’m going to drop it,” but he insisted that I would be fine.
What a surprise, I dropped his bike in-front of him in the carpark we stopped at. It was so embarrassing and humiliating, and I felt so bad. I broke his mirror and also bent his gear shifter. I continuously apologised and he wasn’t mad or angry; he said it was fine and was very calm. I offered him money for the damage but he insisted I didn’t send anything, but I sent money anyways. He thanked me over text and told me not to worry, and also sent me a photo of his gearshift fixed, saying his brother was able to fix it for him. I texted him back saying I was relieved and that I was again, really sorry. Also said if he needed anymore cash to cover damage to let me know. But then he only reacted to these messages with a “haha” and thumbs up (iMessage); he has never just reacted to my messages without responding after.
I feel like I completely screwed up a good thing. I feel as if any chances of him having any feelings remaining for me are completely gone now. He probably doesn’t even have a soft spot for me anymore.I’m really beating myself up over this because after a year and a half of not really being close with each other, we started becoming friends outside of work and then I completely messed it up. I’m really embarrassed over it too lol.