TheComfortCorner | V.10

[Hawk WillowWatcher]

Don’t you trust me? Stop treating me like a child, I hate it. Another day, another night to cry myself to sleep. You scream at me, try to change me, Make me hide everything that’s who I am. And yet. You still try and make me feel even worse. For once, can you stop trying to guilt trip me? Stop harassing me? Acting like I am the one who did everything wrong? Please, just this once. “Stop acting like the victim, you don’t know what I go through.” “ You should stop crying or I’ll give you a reason to cry.” You’re the one always acting like the victim. You’re the reason I’m crying. I’m sorry I can’t be the perfect Christian daughter that you’ve always wanted. One who does everything you say and more. I can’t be perfect. You decide to mentally abuse me, say that you did nothing wrong, yell at me for things I didn’t even do and YOU, YOUR THE VICTIM??? you’re one of the reasons I have trust issues, anxiety, and I can’t be myself. YOU, YOU ARE. (Minor SH warning) I wear long sleeves for a reason. making scars feels better than your words. Each one is just a reminder how horrible people can be. I can’t wait till I’m 18. Even when I move away, the scars still stay in the same place, on me. Still a reminder.

[demodog]

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[.Vellichor.]

I feel like I don't matter to anyone in my life anymore. I thought I was building a small close circle of people I could finally call my (found) family. I was making close connections, overcoming fear, and letting people in.

Now I feel like the unwanted pet more than a beloved friend, partner, or family member. Like I'm something to be ignored, or to be pitied. Not a person with thoughts, feelings, ideas and capabilities of my own. I feel as though I don't exist to others until I'm useful. I usually have to be the initiating party if I want to spend time with anyone - and that's assuming I'm not rejected, or worse, ignored. Nothing hurts more than asking and having someone decide you're not even worth a "no." I feel like a constant intrusion on other people's lives, like just my presence is an unforgivable offense.

I tried to let people in, but I guess they decided what was within me wasn't worth seeing. Kind of want to lock it all back up now.

[ghostbite]

feeling like im hanging on by a thread, im so tired and done lol :')
my life feels like a living hell that just keeps getting worse and i cant take it anymore

[qtip]

why is it so repetitive? every single day is so repetitive, why cant something new just happen?? everyday its wake up, get ready, go to school, go to afterschool thing, then go home. nothing ever changes i want something new to happen

[demodog]

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[updog]

anxiety meds stopped working only taking them now to avoid throwing up and getting sick about it but GOD. anxiety off the rails lately could be because of my Horrible boss but honestly i really dont know because im freaking out over pretty much everything and its been sososo much worse. and i dont have my doctor to talk to about it because i need to switch doctors and aaauuuuuuggggghhhhh (sounds of me Blowing Up)(and NOT in the way you would think!)

[67Phlox]

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[bfdi]

toyhouse sucks. it was supposed to be a safe space for artists. but here i am getting harassed by randoms that just want to be correct-er than me. god i wish there were an alternative i could move to. grrrrrrrrr

[♥ mizu]

I'm at school rn. This girl is driving me NUTS. she got me in trouble because she didn't clean up.. and she's just such a freaking know it all. Like SHUT. UP.