TheComfortCorner | V.10

[demodog]

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[arabella !!]

please, give me peace of mind.

[Serious.]

(I will always love the Comfort Corner. Thank you for giving me the space to write this.)

Today I've been an utter mess. Went from being all giddy in the morning to completely crashing by the end of it. Freaking out internally, snapping at people without meaning to, losing the ability to calm down or change the channel that my thoughts were stuck on. My brain turned into a pile of dissociative mush, my stomach twisted into figurative knots that also affected me physically, my appetite disappeared and I still have little desire to drink water or eat food. And now I'm flat-out EXHAUSTED after dealing with this roller coaster of emotions all day.

All of that because I have a crush on a guy. Like genuinely, that's the only thing that caused this.

I honestly think this is an affect of being autistic. My emotions are cranked up by 500% until I literally have no idea how to handle them. I have trouble interpreting social interactions, so I overthink every one of them. Everything is a big deal and it ruins the fun of being infatuated with a cute guy.

Today was A Day. But I got through it and I learned more about myself. Now I can rest and recover, and then I'll figure out my next steps.

[_SmollJellyfish_]

I'm a bad friend, I'm a bad friend
I can't stand these negative thoughts anymore, they make me seem like a horrible person. Evidently I am, why do I always have to think so negatively? Why do I get upset over such irrelevant things? Are you hiding something from me, why don't you talk? Why do I have to always tell you everything and I have this sense that you hide secrets from me, why do I have to think like this? It's my fault, I'm sorry I don't know what's wrong with me

[bfdi]

online people are so mean to me. everyone is so mean to me. people will be like «oh yeah this is a neurodivergent friendly space!» and then call me out when im being a little bit to excited about my hyperfixations... im not saying im using my neurodivergence as an excuse, but it is an excuse for my behaviour. because. you know. IM NOT NEUROTYPICAL. I DONT EXACTLY THINK THE SAME WAY AS THEM. AND IM SO TIRED OF PEOPLE PRETENDING LIKE WE ARE SUPPOSED TO BEHAVE THE SAME WAY. its not news we think differently and yet we have the same expectations... and they dont have 2 be so rude about it as if i just killed a person and laughed about it? i was talking about my characters and they called it tasteless and provockative? god. people.

[rabidcoyote]

i swear to god the only reason why i stay on this website is because i lack self respect

[♥ mizu]

i am so freaking stressed out right now. we have a big family dinner with our relatives EVERY weekend and i go EVERY time. i haven't had my computer so i couldn't work on any of my stuff for an entire WEEK. i have 15 missing assignments. so i wanted to stay home and do them but my dad freaked out on me. "screamed" isn't the right word. he roared. if i didn't have a good poker face i would've cried. it was terrifying. he terrifies me. i can't go to this dinner tonight. i can't. i have so much dang work to do and i'm so stressed. i could not give less of a hell what my relatives have done in the past week. all i do at those dinners is sit in the corner because my dad dominates the conversation. i hate my life. i hate my life. i hate it. why can't i do anything. i hate this. i didn't give him ANY attitude. i purposely presented it in the nicest, most respectful way possible. i said, "dad, i love seeing my relatives, but i have so much work that i need to do and i don't think it's wise to go right now". why do i get no respect. i don't even DO anything there. we're going to be there at 5:30 and it's 3:27 rn and i all i want to do is shake and freaking cry. i hate my life.

[67Phlox]

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[le fantome]

seriously, get off my back.

[dimndots]

liquidizes you liquidizes you liquidizes you liquidizes you liquidizes you liquidizes you liquidizes you blows you up

how are you going to ask me to play a game, get uninterested of said game in under an hour, and then open a new game and get distracted playing that one leaving me wondering why i'm suddenly the only one playing and not even letting me know you wanted to quit until AFTER i logged off because I WAS THE ONLY ONE PLAYING. i'm not mad about you wanting to play another game i'm angry at your lack of communication skills AGAIN!! you sucked at communicating with me AGAIN!!! oh god forbid i want to know something every once in a while!

& the way you have absolutely nothing to say after i pointed this all out to you speaks VOLUMES. STOP asking me to play video games with you if this is how you're gonna act because i don't need this rn or ever. i'm not angry at you wanting to do something else or whatever thats fine! thats always fine i'd never want to be controlling over what we do but when you ask me to do something and then go "mm, never mind actually" without even telling me is when it makes me mad!!!