TheComfortCorner | V.10

[Moiraine]

Sometimes I feel so hopeless. I do my best to help people, but there's so much need in the world that it makes me feel paralysed even without taking my own issues into consideration, and I wear myself out just doing what I can. There's that little voice in my head saying I can't help these people, I can't even help myself

[Soy Sauce]

“ON WEDNESDAYS WE WEAR PINK”

[Serious.]

WHYYYYYyyYYyyy did I look at my autism diagnosis papers from 5 years back. They make me feel like a freak and so self-conscious of myself and like I'm not intelligent enough and like I'm a constant embarrassment to everyone around me and ahhh I really shouldn't have looked at them!!

I guess I should be encouraged though... I'm a whole different person now. And honestly my diagnosis was probably the biggest reason why I could change and grow as a person.

I made the mistake of reading mine and the language was something else. It really makes you sound like a collection of symptoms rather than a person, but one of my support workers told me this: they have to phrase it like that in order to get you the help that you need. You can hand that document over and get reasonable adjustments for work/school etc, it will go much better if it outlines your difficulties in a cold clinical way than if it just says "well they have slight problems with this sometimes but generally they're okay-". It is phrased that way to help you, as much as it doesn't sound/seem like it.

Just remember that you are much, much more than what those papers say. They do not reflect who you are as a person and how well you function in your daily life. It's just a guide for people who will largely never meet you or have mininal dealings with you. The people who truly know you don't need any of that to know what you're really like, and you know what you've come through and how much you've changed and grown over time, which is really the only thing that matters.

I just saw this now, oops! But thank you so much for your encouragement. It was hard reading my diagnosis papers, but it really helps to know that the language used is intentionally cold and clinical. And now I know to avoid reading them in my free time - I'll save it for my doctors :')

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[bfdi]

on my episode and feeling like all my friends hate me again and honestly cant find a single proof that they dont... i wish my online friend were here so that they could punch all my enemys for me... i hate being so weak and being subjected to bullying... i hate them so much... but they hate me too and i'm sure i've done nothing to make them dislike me... i'm just... weak...

i dont know how to go back to school again. cant I just drop out? cant i just always work until i save up enough to start a new identity????

[bfdi]

update to the above - told my mom about the bullying and stuff. seems like she's going to file a police report because they threatened me with getting physical . restraining orders aren't a thing here but im wishing they were. im also adamant about changing schools. idk, we'll see. i have a small hope for change even though im usually better than that.

to give some context, any of their bullying is like, so uncalled for. i'm generally that person with no enemies if that makes sense. so they just want to beef with me because...?? they dislike me?? for some reason. i barely talk to them. im so happy this is my last year. the only thing i wrote while they were writing paragraphs of insults is "..." and "ok" but they kept going, with the inside jokes too which makes me think they def trashtalked me in a private group. oh right all of that is online because i'm staying home at this moment. but they never hesitated to make fun of me irl as well so that's really irrelevant. i'm not scared they will beat me up, i'm just scared of wasting my time on those people when I can do commissions to save up money to leave. something like that. no, i'm definitely not thinking "i deserve it" or any things of this sort. i may appear like i deserve it to people i genuinely harmed, but they know like nothing about me, not even my discord account or any of my hobbies. i never insulted them back or even replied. i'm just really upset they just hate me because i exist. this is so dumb.

I hope it goes through with the police report.

sorry for posting twice in a row if that bothers anyone. im literally out of energy regarding everything in life. i dont even watnt to go to work tomorrow. sorry.

another update : talked to the homeroom teacher and she was made aware of it and they said the next time thye do smth like that they will take action lol!!! hooray!!! but the biggest problem is that im afraid they will just make them apologise and they will just continue picking on me even harder afterwards,, but we'll see

[qtip]

shut up nobody cares idc u gave birth to me idc what u do i didnt even ASK to be here at all. howd u even get a man as ugly as u like shut up idec abt that missing assignment. STOP HOLDING IT AGAINST ME!! i wasnt even at school today from 2nd class to 6th and the missing assignment is in 3rd and my mom said 'oh well u could of turned it in yesterday!??!?>!?' and she threatened to give me sentences?? idec go die ill stomp on your grave and if i die first ill haunt you so hard you will regret that sm.

[qtip]

srry double postbut now i rlly want both of them gone

[❦Acidic-Tea❦]

What if it was right person wrong time. What am I supposed to do then? We were both young and scared. I know that. But I’m still young and scared. What if it’s never the right time for anyone? Do I just have to stay alone?

[peachiye_tea]

Maybe adopting me was a mistake if you were going to hurt me so much. I have no future because of you. Everyone of us hates you. I'm isolated with you and I fear for my life daily.

Please make it stop. I want to leave.