TheComfortCorner | V.10

[ghostbite]

i need to get out of this house. my parents get mad at me just by speaking, if i dont do what they suggest or tell me to do they get mad and cause a fight. im only trying to calmly talk to them and figure something out. i cant have my own voice or decisions here. i cant take it anymore. i always end up having a breakdown or feeling nauseated after dealing with them. i cant even feel safe or comfortable in this house anymore.

[LittleMaple]

I lost my class ring actually gonna

[marciplier]

just been feeling bad. i feel like we talk less and less and espesially less about important things. very often wondering to myself "what am i doing with my life?" these days. i feel dirty, like im doing something horribly wrong. guilty too. disgusting and creepy even. i dont really have anyone i can talk to this about either. not my family, not my friends. the monthly desire to delete all social media and block everyone and just kinda. digitally run away is crawling in again and i think she might win this time

[Purgatory K9]

I am so alone.

[grimora_the_original]

i guess i'm just tired of being alone. i like being around my people yk
when i'm alone it's harder to distract myself
but i don't want to bother ppl with my issues by asking them to keep me company

[onion]

why do j feel suddenly llike im not trans enough cuz im nb....

[vist]

can i mourn someone i never got to be,

[flooxii]

you made me so paranoid.
you made me think I was gonna get killed the next day.
you made me so so anxious.
and yet I'm still called your friend?

you thought.
oh, you thought I was gonna be that stupid every day
you thought I was your little toy, didn't you?
your flimsy, wooden doll to just play with.
and ruin its childhood.

well guess what?
you're the one who's stupid.
you thought I'd think like that every day, didn't you, honey?
ha.



I'm tired of you.
so tired of your vague explanations of your actions.
so tired of your "can I call?"
jesus

[Wall Eating Lizards]

God I'm just so tired, nothing seems to be as nice and slow as it was just a few years ago and I hate it. Time seemes to just be leaving me in the dust as I get older.

[silverlock]

i think about my ex everyday for no good reason. i just go on about my day and suddenly i briefly think of him and my thoughts spiral. it's been almost 9 months since we broke up and i've thought about him nearly every single day since then. lately i've been seeing him in my dreams, too. i don't even care about the boyfriend i have now other than the companionship he provides me with only when he has nothing better to do - judging by his such behavior, he doesn't care about me either.

there's a discord server my ex invited me to while we were still together and i never bothered looking at it, let alone leaving. i opened it about an hour ago and now my thoughts are racing so fast i want to cry, it's the middle of the night but i know i won't be sleeping for a long time. either he's changed so much he's not the person he used to be anymore or he never ever showed me who he really is. he's been with at least one other girl since we broke up and he's never talked about me on there like he does about... whoever she is, his other girl i suppose, or maybe another after her, i wouldn't put that behind him at this point. and he's out there living his best life at full speed, clubbing and drinking and going out with colleagues and meeting hot girls. and here i am, rotting in bed all day long fighting the urge to cry and never stop because i don't even get a single text in a day. the same way i didn't even get that with him, too.

i feel my self dying inside my body. i have almost nothing of who i was before left in me. i'm turning into something i'd only seen in other people and i've always believed was bad. i still believe so but i can't stop it. i saw it in my ex far too late when it turns out that he's always had it. he called me a monster - i hope he's right... otherwise i can't move on from the stupid naive girl i've been and into the person i need to be to survive.

i won't stand to be the free time doormat for anyone who wants to use me for their own gain anymore. i'll hurt everyone in my way but that's what's best for me. i don't care about anyone other than myself anymore. i really am on my own.

if anybody understands this and wishes to talk about it, feel free to pm me. i really need to talk to someone who gets it. it's eating me up from the inside and i don't know whether i should stay put and provoke no one or burn it all down and forget about the consequences.