TheComfortCorner | V.10

[Thianna]

My oldest brother broke my heart today and I didn’t expect it. Or I guess, I did but I expected… more. I just feel a weight I haven’t felt in years settle on me and I don’t know what to do to alleviate it.

I had forgiven something horrible he did to me years ago (of course he had never apologized in the first place) and I brought it up to move him to forgive our little sister (who actually didn’t do anything wrong, she just hangs out with a cousin of ours my brother feels wronged him, but I digress) and he acted like nothing ever happened. That I was making it up and it felt rotten and opened my wounds I thought I had healed with therapy. Gaslighting in the purest form, but I know what I remember and to try to pretend that I am wrong, just rubbed me the wrong way.

Fine then. If nothing ever happened then you don’t need my forgiveness right? I rescind it. Have a good life.

[vist]

yoink [/color]

[gamer]

I've been so down in the dumps because of my combined health problems. Crohns and HS is a horrible combination.

I'm always in pain, and when I'm not the moments are very brief, only a few days before I'm in pain again. The pain is so debilitating sometimes I can hardly move and I've cried several times over it. I'm going to the bathroom constantly and I'm slowly but surely dropping in weight. Because of my crohns, the smallest things can set off my appetite and I won't be able to eat for even up to 3 days without feeling sick. I haven't been able to take care of myself or my surroundings in a couple of years. I hardly have the willpower to get up and wash a few dishes, because each little movement is a sentence to another hour long bathroom trip. It's painful. It sucks. But nobody seems to understand or even care how bad it is.

The worst part is being uninsured and being unable to do anything about it. I did go to the doctor once, and they gave me antibiotics and it helped my problems! I was practically normal! But no way am I gonna be able to convince anyone in my family to pay for another doctor visit for me. They say I just need to diet, just need to drink more water. Ever since I got hit with covid I have been. It's not been improving. Not to mention I'm unemployed so I literally can't afford to eat healthier! It sucks. It sucks so bad sometimes it's all I can do to not break down crying. But in a household full of people who will make fun of you for showing the slightest bit of weakness, it's all I can do.

I would give anything to live with any of the conditions my family has. At least they get to live life. I'm stuck at home all day, unable to work, unable to do anything, it's absolutely miserable.

[silverlock]

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i should have eaten enough when i had the chance. nothing will fill this void now and it's all my fault

[dakotapaws]

why do i feel so overwhelmingly sad? it feels like its going to swallow me whole. im doing what little i know to keep it at bay but i dont know where its coming from

[clues]

time is moving so quickly and every day is the same. it all blurs together and theres nothing to do but sit in my room scrolling, sleeping, doing meaningless things just for the instant satisfaction. i wish i had the energy to make a change but its just so so hard. im terrified that ill never be happy again. i miss looking forward to waking up in the morning and being with people. i miss feeling loved. i miss taking care of myself without questioning whether or not i deserve it.

i used to love christmas and i really am trying to get myself in the spirit again but it just hurts. knowing that everything i used to love about it is gone now. my family fell apart and we lost our traditions and no one cares to piece something back together. we aren't even putting up the tree this year. i feel so alone in trying. i want to be the strong one. i wish i didn't feel so torn down by the people around me but i do, i wish i didnt have to rely on them so much but i do, i WISH i could stop WISHING and just DO SOMETHING. why is it so hard? why do i continue to wallow?

[vi‎ ‎]

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[bfdi]

why are they like this? why am I the only one trying to be friends? why did I tell them I am going to stay forever? I just want to leave. which I just do whenever there’s a problem I cannot solve. and this problem is them. I am not doing anything wrong and I know that. I just... want to leave... I don’t want to keep trying...

[neapolitan]

i wish i would've just been rude to you back then. you don't deserve my good side. maybe you did once but i really don't care. i was only nice for her sake.

and i also don't want to think about this but it's 3 am and i can't stop it

[LittleMaple]

IM BETTER NOW LOL I FOUND A VENT WEBSITE AND ITS SO FUNNY SOMEONE THINKS IM A GUY NAMED TREVOR. THAT IS NOT MY NAME GIRL. GOOD LUCK TREVOR

Edit: this website is insane/pos now we have someone caroling. Why