TheComfortCorner | V.10

[scxr]

i start yet another dead-end minimum wage job tomorrow just to make ends meet, and i'm exhausted. i feel trapped in my own life. i'm not living the life i want. i want to shed my skin and be someone else, be anywhere else in the world than here. i want to be someone who makes something of themselves. i could've done so by now if i hadn't made so many mistakes in the past. i hold a lot of regrets. my existence feels mediocre, forgettable. i'm a shell of a human being.

[xXFoxfaceToastXx]

Today’s the today I’m going to confront something I’ve put off since my dog passed away. I haven’t done laundry in months due to being scared to confront the articles of fabric that had been last used on my dog. (I tell myself that I’ll try “today” a lot but I’ll keep trying)

[rabidcoyote]

This is a checkpoint! If you've made it here, you're safe.

If you feel like you've reached rock bottom, remember the only way to go is up. You've got this!

[LittleMaple]

^^ that makes me feel better thank you

going in for an appointment tomorrow for labs because of my constant passing out. since i went to the er ive passed out once. it wasnt as scary for me because i could still see things in my mind but my arm did jerk a little according to my mom. if things go badly? i may have to go to a cardiologist to make sure it isnt my heart. im going to get my blood drawn and im very scared. im very scared that things are as bad as they seem. that im not getting better. that i wont get better. i know what i need to do : drink water and be active. but i dont like either of those things and i havent been doing them as much. having summer classes didnt help. im scared that i havent been doing enough. that its going to be my fault if its something bad. im just so scared. its a lot of pressure on me even if it doesnt seem like it. sigh.

[Soy Sauce]

I wish there was a way to share are you do off site. Ive been making a lot of art and im super proud but i have nowhere to share

Also i js got my schedule for school and ive been crying about it all day

[amaoretto]

//just complaining

i’ve been living the same week for years. work. stay home. work. stay home. it’s like deja vu by the time i get to the next week. all i do is work. i haven’t had a trip away in so long. i feel a little empty as the days go by, i don’t have many friends so i really have no one to have nights out with (my bsf lives across the country :,( )i want to visit her but flights are so expensive … i don’t even know where to start when planning a vacation like that,,, i also wish i had a different job, i love my job and my coworkers, but it’s so repetitive, so draining. i work long hours, my job is cracking down on trying to sell our membership cards but everyone says no to me soooooo we’ll see how that goes i guess. i wish i didn’t stop going to school either, both my best friends graduated and im always comparing myself. but what would i even do? im clueless.

haha not sure, all my thoughts are everywhere so this is just a jumbled mess. i just wish i had more friends and my life was more exciting.

[scxr]

why am i so unlikeable

[marciplier]

edit: i think it was all in my head. ive been doing really good at not assuming but this time i did and it turned out he just felt sick. im glad i asked him instead of letting my feelings stew. even though ive been doing good at not assuming, it doesnt mean i always will. its still something i need to work on. today was a little hard but i got through and im proud of myself.

[Cassini]

I feel really dejected, creating things is hard.

[mourning dove]

im at my lowest im at my lowest im at my lowest

i feel so sick.

this is so disappointing. i didn’t think id be back here. i didnt think id be reliving this moment. i cant breathe.