i really thought things could get better, change. but hey, guess she's right, you can't change someone's personality. i want to cry, and i feel like i'm about to but for some reason it's not happening. maybe it's happened so many times that i'm used to it. This is my life now.
my grandma is sick in the hospital right now and she's getting worse :(
i'm going to cry
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im not even my own best friends first option anymore.
she swears that im her bestest friend ever!!!11!!1!1! but then she meets a new boy and replaces me. this has happened SO. MANY. TIMES.
she has been online for 8 hours now just talking to her bf WHO SHE MET BECAUSE OF ME and shes been ignoring me for the past 6 hours. im so tired of being ignored and replaced by her all the time she doesnt care about me unless her bf at the moment is too busy to talk.
i want to completely cut her off and never talk to her again but i just cant do it no matter how badly i want to. i just want everything to go back to normal i hate him so much if only i wouldnt have asked her to come hangout that one day maybe she would actually still care about me. ill never be "good enough" for her will i?
Definitely not okay My moods been doing that fun little thing where it starts switching from extremes and my like anger response has been activated instead of just the regular depression so that's fun I haven't had this in ages and boy howdy do I not want it back Oh you are afraid of being abandoned? Why don't we be aggressive about this and make everyone want you less My brains currently panicking and tying to make everyone like me but also I don't want to be near anyone and I'm being a sarcastic ball of misery
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egging him on the way you all do is just going to leave him hurt or embarrassed and me feeling like the bad guy. Just stop. I will never be interested. he's old enough to be my father and then some. please just stop.
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i feel p disconnected from myself rn,, like idk i have vents i could go into but i dont wanna use Words:tm:,, i could like, ignore it but idk im not feeling like,, Normal enough to do things i enjoy. im just in this weird limbo between breaking down and being fine and its so strange,, like skdjfksjf idk i just. i know im a Person with a Life but it doesnt feel like it??? it feels as if im sub-human rn (/neg),, maybe its just that i feel sort of lightheaded??? idk what is a physical feeling and whats an emotion. everything is too complicated and confusing. idk i just,, i wish i felt more disconnected from myself. like ive heard people being able to turn off their emotions like a light switch, and that's just,, i know it's not Healthy but i'm fantasizing about being able to do that.
okay thats all i think idk these words did not help lmao