Write a Letter You Cannot Send (Read the Rules!)

[sky,]

You.

Haaaa. There are a million things I wish I could say... but honestly, words cannot even express. We have been friends for 5 years. We've shared laughes over drinks and I watched as you protected me from every danger that lurked when I got a little wild. I trusted you with just about everything. My hopes and dreams... my deepest darkest fears. All of it. I was completely vulnerable as a person. I truly trust very few people and you were most certainly privy to my loyalty and complete dedication. Now you took that bright and shiny, gung-ho for life, woman that I was.. and completely snuffed out her light. You have hurt me in so many ways, counting them makes my head spin. Now, I would say this to you, but you won't listen. I have tried time and time again, but your methods of twisting my words and making me feel like it is all my fault won't work anymore. Because you know what? It is your fault. You are a poor excuse for a man and a shrivel of what being a father requires of you. You have failed in every sense of the word. Thank you for letting me see your true colors before it was too late... and maybe it already is. I cannot even believe I put myself through the last two years giving you chance after chance after chance.. when the first time should have done it. I am DONE lowering my standards for scum of the earth like you. I am too good for that. I hope you find what you are looking for , but I know for certain, there is no way in hell I will ever forgive you. UGHH don't you even see the amount I have invested in you. I was PREGNANT... dealing with financial hardship and my own burdens with my career. But I still lived in your car with you so you wouldn't feel lonely. But somehow I managed to help you buy your house... I helped you pay your phone bill. I even bought you freaking dinner on all our dates. Even after everything (which I can't talk about on here.) You systematically stripped me of everything. My body, my dignity, my stability, and my self esteem. You will never be sorry. I love my son. I love him with everything I have. He is my entire world. You will never be his father. I would never subject someone I care about to knowing you. You would just screw him up. Truthfully, you deserve to be in prison. But, it must be nice to have friends who will protect a criminal. I feel bad for them... because one day they''ll see that you're not worth protecting.

So with that being said, this is the last time that I will ever talk about you. I am free of you now, all the way across the country in a stable environment with people who love me. A career that I love and an incredibly happy baby. My life isn't perfect and it isn't where I thought it would be, thanks to you. But I have come to terms with that. So you can stop trying to harass me. You can stop trying to get a reaction out of me. Because you won't get it anymore. I am done and free from your clutches. I hope you find someone one day who does the same thing you did to me. I honestly couldn't care less if you wind up happy. That's the last privilege of honestly you will get from me. HA.

Finally, After 5 years, I have the last laugh.

So long!

[emo boy]

huh
i dont know what to say to you honestly.
i dont know how i feel about you. but i dont hate you, if thats your concern
i definitely can't say i like you though.

but navigating through my own relationship, i realized... im happy. ive never been this in love with another person. he's everything to me, and nothing you were

and that made me realize... we really screwed "us" up huh?

i say we because we were both at fault. i dont blame you for much, but i hate how you treated me.

though, i am sorry i didnt care. im sorry i still dont, nor will i anytime soon.
but to be blunt, we didnt deserve each other. we were both dumb teenagers.

i couldnt give you 100% of me, i was a hurt person. and im still unpacking the trauma of that situation. im sorry the rebound comment held more weight than you knew

i also realized.. you never showed me you cared. you swear up and down you did, but your pretty words hold no weight to me. i had to beg you to simply talk to me, to at least pretend you cared. i didnt deserve that. so i left, and i wish i stayed gone.
but you begged me for that second chance.
and i gave it to you, and well. you remember how that ended.

as ive gotten older, i realized you were better as a friend, i genuinely cannot remember a time being happy calling you mine. as harsh as it sounds.

but our conversations about stars, aliens, i loved that
i loved our friendship. im sorry i was too childish trying to realize i didn't need a partner to get better. i needed time to heal. and ive finally been making those steps.
and i confidently say you didnt deserve to get caught in that crossfire.

so for now, i can only hope you found someone who makes you as happy as i find myself these days. i sincerely do wish the best for you, no matter how evil you view me

maybe one day we can have that conversation. but try to make that first step yourself this time, yeah?

be easy z 🌌

[Guest]

erasing the original one.

mmm....

i'm sorry i blame you for everything. i know you're just doing your best, and you have a lot going on right now. life isn't easy, especially not when you're in that situation. i'm sorry i keep doing these things to you. i know i don't help. i make things worse half of the time. i yell at you, i argue with you, i hurt your feelings and i call you mean names. it's never true. please don't ever believe the disgusting things i've said to you before, i never meant them. i know that doesn't change the fact that i've said them and it doesn't change the fact that it hurt you. but i love you, and i'm sorry. i am. i am the worst kid you could have been hitched with. i have addictions, im lazy, im a liar, im not a good person. i never have been, and i'm sorry for always trying to put the blame on you. you're just trying to do your best and make the best out of a awful situation. you're doing great. i'm sorry i'm not helping and making things harder. i'm not sure what to do anymore. my life has went downhill and i'm suffering. i'm not happy being alive. and i keep blaming you when it's not your fault - you're probably the only thing that's helping keep me afloat so well. i never want to hurt you like that. i never want you to suffer like that, it's not fair to put you through something like that. i dont want to hurt you anymore than i have been hurting you, i don't want to continue to give you bad memories and leave you crying and leave you upset because i'm an idiot. i dont want to keep hurting you. i just want to be a better kid, i want to be a better daughter to you. i want you to know i love you, even though i dont express it at all or properly. i want you to know you mean the world to me and you're the only mother i could ever ask for, you're absolutely wonderful and amazing. i'm sorry you got hitched with such a monster. i know you'd always keep the door open for me, i know you'd always let me stay with you and eat your food, even after a disgusting and horrible fight. you don't deserve the things i put you through or the way i keep blaming you for things that aren't your fault. it's all my fault.

i love you, and i'm sorry. i don't ever know how i could tell you this without it going wrong somehow because i know how argumentative i am and how toxic i am. i know i'm a bad person and i just wish i could say i love you like this.

[Hyrule]

Dreamed about you, and woke up thinking about you. How are you, Mom? Are you doing okay up there? They say once you pass you're not in pain anymore, I really hope that's the case. I would hate for you to be in pain after all you've endured. How am I doing? I'm doing the best I can. Getting new glasses today, finally. I'm moving out of the house soon as well. Got a couple of weeks left before the big move. I'm excited yet nervous to start a new life, though the fact that I have to do it without you sucks, but... it is what it is. I hope to make you proud in whatever I end up doing.
I love you, and I miss you. Forever and always.

[Soy Sauce]

Im thinking about you again, my head spins at how you can be so sweet when you think i said such awful things to you? I didn't by the way, i would never hurt you js because you wanted to be your own person. I really miss you tho. I want to talk to you like its only been a few days. Like we arent complete strangers who have basically never met. I wanna tell you everything you missed. Like i got baby chickens and I’ve basically got over my chicken fear, turkeys on the off hand. Im getting a new room and i have another pet! I realized how horrible i was and wish i could apologize. It my birthday in a few days! I wanted to tell you i love your blue hair. Me and atlas are going to my first appointment today and im like super scared. Ive been walking my dog a lot but hes apparently super reactive but hes gotten a lot better! I finally got my permit and im learning how to drive. I found a lot of songs to show you. Idk why i still do that but its the last habit i still have
I miss you

I know we cant talk
But i hope your summer has been everything you wanted and more.
Love,
S

[medimedes]

You stress me out. You yell at me, belittle me, everything in the book. I’ve finally started to feel comfy enough around you to vocalize my thoughts, and then you immediately start to yell at me for refusing to let you put on makeup, even though I just wanted to get dinner. you then guilted me because you bought something expensive that you know damn well I won’t use, I think it was just to find another excuse to yell at me. Camp was the best week of my life. I did not miss you. I’ve been latching onto internet strangers because you can do your job basically. I can hear you outside laughing with C while I’m up here, edge of tears because of you. It has been 2 days since I got home from camp, give me a damn day to destress without you making it worse.

You have raised two children before me, both have turned out to be not great people. Maybe it’s time to realize that you are the problem.

Love you Mom.

From your very stressed out child, W

[manhunt]

(un)dear x,

i wish i never met you. i wish i never spoke to you. i wish i never did anything with you.

you ruined my life. poisoned me until i was dying, and whwn i fought back, you acted like all i did was fight you. i never said i wasn't bad, i never said i was good, but what did i say? sorry. countless times, i said sorry, i owned up to my actions, i acknowledged my mistakes. and what did you do? acted like i never did, while you excused every mistake that i had no idea i even made. i dont know how one manages to cancel out someone else's apology, but, congratulations! you did it!

and what did you do after? you took almost everything from me. my friends, my passions, everything. i gave you my heart and soul, yet those were the only things i could take back from you despite you promising that you had both lock and key.

am i the bad guy? sure. hell yes i am. but so are YOU. we're both villains in this situation, x. i didnt know i was causing harm, and even than i apologized when i thought i was, and when you excused my actions every single damn time i assumed that what i was doing was okay. even than, i acknowledged that wasnt an excuse. you, however? you stepped all over me, manipulated me, lied to me, you were a total marcicist, and the cherry on top, you were there behind my back hanging around with the ex friends you know i hated! the ones that, in fact, we both hated! the ones that you stated you have been uncomfortable with since 2020. but, alright, you're buddies now i guess!

if right now you're doing well, than satan damn me to hell for wishing otherwise. if you're not, than maybe you should log off the internet, because all you do is stress out the people around you, and than blame them when all your friendships crumble.

ive been with my real friends, much happier. doing things i did with you and more stuff i never could. i dont love you anymore, im glad you dont love me either. i wish i never loved you, because loving you made me hate myself. i wish i never had the guts to tell you i loved you in the first place, because the crush i had on you crushed my life.

so long, and goodnight, mortem. ★

[sharky]

Hey [X] jay again.. baha. Wish you could know how I really felt.. all these emotions and things, I wish I could tell you so bad.. I mean it's not that I think you can't take it.. more that Im too scared. And with all that's going on in your life.. out friendships gonna die a little isn't it.. I'm worried about that too. I don't want to lose you.. I never did but especially after today..? You're like- my everything.. please stay

[alicent]

s,

i often wonder what you think of me. we’ve known each other for,
what, six months? a little over that, even. since towards the end of
december. i wonder if you think i’m some silly little girl — and that
now that you’re back home in NJ, you’ve gotten everything you
wanted from me. i hope that’s not the case. because truthfully, i
fell in love with you. since january, pretty much. and all those nights
we hung out, they meant so so much to me. i thought getting into a
relationship would help shake you from me, but it didn’t. all it taught
me was it was you that i wanted, and no one else.
of course, i’m too chicken to say any of this to you. i’m afraid if i do
i’ll lose you forever. i love you lots, though. i can only hope you feel
the same, that you don’t want to let go of me.
all my love,
l

j,
it’s over. i hope you realize my silence means that. please move on.
don’t ever contact me again. i care about you but not in the way you
deserve to be cared for. to me you’re a friend, and i should have
realized that sooner. we never should have started what we did with
only a week, maybe two, of knowing each other. it was a mistake. i
realize that now. i’m sorry.
- l

k,
you drive me crazy (in a good way). i’m sorry things happened with
cordy the way they did. she really hurt you. to be fair, neither of
you are innocent. but you’ll always have me on your side. i wonder,
though…do you feel it too?
- l

[acura,]

dear me in 6 months;

hi me in the near future. by this time in 6 months, it will already be 2024. frankly, thats quite scary as you will be done with school and moving on with your life.

currently, life is relatively difficult but i hope that by now, youre at a stage where youre doing much better and focusing on yourself. i want to hold myself accountable for goals i want to accomplish or at least attempt before the year ends, so i want to write you this to ensure that you are held accountable. i hope within 6 months, we've gotten our license and (hopefully) have a honda accord cl9 2006-2007, if we have another car thats sweet too. hopefully weve gotten some pretty cool photos with it as well! god, better have done some late night drives, sunset watching and chilling on top of a mountain. i hope our driving anxiety has also lessened and weve had some fun with some friends driving around too, or just solo drives blasting music. currently, we're dreaming of it. 28 days till i go for my license, not sure if ill pass but its whatever if i dont, always have the time to try again. feels so close yet so far; a surreal feeling that soon ill be driving by myself and accomplishing one of the biggest goals ive ever set. i hope that weve also at least tried going for our motorcycle license and seen if its something that we truly want to try or if its just something we love to look at/watch others do; i truly hope that my love currently for motorcycles isnt just a 'phase' and that we do end up getting our license and a motorcycle though haha, if not thats alr though <3 dont pressure yourself so much if its just not for you, you can still love it without doing it (though a honda CBR250R or yamaha R3 would be pretty sick to own yk?). youve kinda been worried that this passion for motorcycles and cars started because of bryce; honestly, yeah he did start it, but that doesnt mean your enjoyment for the two is 'fake'. he sparked an interest in the two and from there, youve found true joy in both of these things. dont get a motorcycle for him though, or because you think itll finally make you 'enough'; only get it for yourself and because you really do want it. think about that for a sec, yeah?

i hope that within the 6 months, youve picked up on gym again and started becoming consistent w/it again. we kinda suck at gym rn, only going 1-2 times a week at this rate haha, your pants dont fit you anymore man. maybe changed up your schedule and hopefully going for PRs again!! its been a min, gotta pick up the slack in due time and get a crazy physique again. i hope that weve also maybe dabbled in photography or/and video editing! also would be great if we still have our job lol, wonder if youve quit, been fired or maybe promoted?? idk. i wonder if youve figured out what you wanna do with your life yet, have you? currently have 0 clue, but trying to take it one day at a time and focus on the present than dwelling on the past or future. life rn feels bland; simply a repeat everyday and just plain boring, i hope that within the next 6 months things have gotten better and life seems more enjoyable. i want to focus on myself again and accomplish all these little goals i have currently; i want to try and make life more enjoyable and exciting, i wanna try new things and mess up a few times, then pick myself back up and do it all over again. im tired of being hurt over the whole bryce thing and dwelling over the 'what ifs', wondering if i do something different if he'll want me again. im done w/it. time to refocus on my own goals and interests again, and take it one day at a time to get better. i hope that youve accomplished this. i hope you and i have done it and all is well again. stay strong and take care.

love, yourself.