TheComfortCorner | V.9

[Fleetwood]

everything just happens at once
they removed some tumors from one of my dogs, good results from the biopsy thankfully, but taking care of him and keeping him separated from my other two dogs was a bit stressful
then my mom had eye surgery, learned her retina was detached, and is now having emergency surgery tomorrow. the restrictions and the fact that I'm probably gonna be her primary care taker for at least two weeks, and taking care of everything else is scaring me. I don't even have time to mentally prepare really. I suppose all of the dogs will have to stay in my room because the after surgery care is crazy. for good reason, it's all very important, but wow I'm overwhelmed. and worried for the surgery and hoping everything goes well.
but perhaps my most selfish complaint is the fact that I'll probably have to take two weeks off of work. we're financially secure, quite thankfully. but my friend's last day is next week and I'm gonna have to train someone else to take her spot. the idea of being gone for two weeks is strange, no one does things the way I do and I like my routine. I'm being selfish, I know. My mother needs this surgery and I will do whatever I can to help out. It's just all happening so quickly and I'm a bit panicked.
also I really need to see a dentist at some point soon and that worries me too.
I just like posting all my rambling, it makes me feel a bit better.

[basil!]

mourning the person i could have been if i wasnt so busy trying to stay alive
i wish i had gotten the chance to work toward something i cared for, make something of myself
but back then i genuinely thought there was nothing in the world i wanted. and maybe back then that was true.
i am happy things have changed, i suppose, but im also scared that it will get taken away from me or that i wont be able to do anything despite it.

[gamer]

my head hurts I hate that I have developed a dependency on caffeine 😩
monster ftw

[onion]

i dont even know what to say to perfectly or even slightly accurately express how depressed and upset i am right now. at least we didnt get halfway there this time...

[Soy Sauce]

I js got chicks today. And its warm so i gave them everything they needed hung out with them for a few hours then set up a light. Its to warm for a heat lamp so i put one like high above it them js for light. Idk why but im so stressed its gonna fall (ik that if it falls it wont be on them) but im so scared of fires. I spent like half an hour googling if it could catch anything on fire (it cant) but im js so stressed that i have a timer set for every 30 minutes to go check on them. They are super cute tho.

[CyberneticVampire]

What did I do so wrong that people ignore me, block me and even change their username to avoid me. Am I really that bad of a person? I'm so overwhelmed with these thoughts I don't know what to do. I just have to attempt to cheer myself up somehow since no one is ever there for me. I never get any reassurance from anyone so that tells me I don't need to be here.

[eeep]

the pain in my stomach wont go away. i wish you knew how much i love you. i dont think you do tho. mm..
what is wrong with me. why do i want this. its only gonna end in heart break.. for both of us..

[dakotapaws]

sad i keep missing out on fandom zines ): theyre years old and i wasnt in it yet and i dont even know where to find new ones and it sucks

[basil!]

why am i readin gthings that i very well know will make me spiral its like im praying on my own downfall but i just cant stop reading now :skull:

[viles]