TheComfortCorner | V.9

[medimedes]

Man, one of these days I’ll snap and go full emo on y’all and I won’t regret it <33 I can only seem happy for so long <33

[CyberneticVampire]

Why can I never seem to keep friends? Why do they all leave me? I haven't don't anything wrong and I get blocked or ignored. Why do I keep investing myself with people who will just end up leaving me. I literally cried myself to sleep earlier because someone I really care about and love isn't talking to me much anymore. I don't know when or if I'll ever hear from him again. He made me so happy.. yet here I am, back at square one. Depressed. Lonely. Making friends never works for me and I'm cursed by this fact. I want to just throw my phone away and act like I never existed. No one would notice or care anyway. I don't want to do this anymore.

[viles]

• small silly thing but i just,, ugh i've been trying to write one post for hours now but i don't think i can actually finish writing it bc i just Dont Have Words and thats so much time ive wasted,,, i needed to be asleep Hours Ago but it feels like my brain is stuck im p exhausted so hopefully ill pass out soon if i cant actually fall asleep but like,, idk. even as im writing this im thinking about how words could go for that one post why cant i let this go

[neapolitan]

you say you're not upset anymore but i know you are. i'm just scared.. i know i'm a bad friend but you didn't tell me and now i'm not sure what to believe.. do you really love me? do you actually care about me or miss me or am i really just a backup like i always say? i don't want to mess up again... maybe it would be better to just leave.

i don't even have any right to be upset.. you made me feel so bad but in the end it was my fault, and i know it was my fault.. and i just want to go back to how things were but you'll never forgive me and you'll always remember it and...
just.. go to your other friends. i guess i really can't help. i never could.

[acura,]

im really tired. i dont know if i can keep trying so hard

[demodog]

lowkey tired of being ignored, i cannot tell if they hate me or want to date me. this is so confusing man. i just want to be nice and all they do is make things worse but i dont think they mean to. all they do is making jokes that hurt, but i care about them. and i think im just being a bit dramatic. sighh this feeling is tricky

[acura,]

what if?

what if i had done something different?

what if i didnt ask for your instagram that day?

what if i decided to just keep it casual?

i hate myself for that day. i hate that you left after you got me attached; i hate that youve moved on but i still think about you three months later. i hate that because of you, i changed everything about myself within these past few months because i felt so unloveable as the person i was. i hate that to you it wasnt a big deal at all, but to me its made me question every damn part of myself and wonder why the hell i wasnt enough. its made me hate the way i look, hate my smile, hate my entire life. i went out and did stupid [censored] because i thought if i did all of it, maybe id be more desirable to you or other people. i thought youd want me back if i changed myself to be more like you. i hate that i cant bloody hate you, i hate that you literally dont give a damn. i hate that i keep blaming myself. i stopped doing schoolwork, stopped going to gym, stopped loving myself, stopped doing the things i enjoy, all because i keep thinking 'what if' whenever i replay the situation with you. i hate you. i hate you, i hate you, i hate you. i hate that whenever i like people, its always the wrong ones. its always the ones that will never like me back but im so infactuated that i forgot how much itll hurt. i hate that i let myself like you when i knew it wouldnt work out; i hate that i let myself trust you. i hate it so much. i hate that i let myself be vulnerable and embarrassed myself in the process.

i hate that you got me attached and gave me false hope before you left. i was so scared to open up, but i did because you said i could trust you. now look. there hasnt been a single day, not one single damn day in the past 3 months that you HAVENT crossed my mind and i hate it. it hurts so much and it doesnt make sense. we were never together, only knew each other for a bit, but it's the 'what ifs' that hurt me the most. it's the constant wondering of what if i did that differently, what if i did this that day, what if this, what if that. i cant stop thinking about it, i cant stop thinking about you. what if i messed it all up? what if we just gave it a go? what if we would be good together but we'll never know? what if you just found me too ugly after staring at me for too long? i dont know. what if i was different? just a little bit better?

i hate you, but i cant. in reality, i just hate myself

[sharky]

have I hurt you..? Why are you acting so strange.. I miss the old you.. please.. you don't seem to care, and it hurts..

[tiredddd]

I hate that I’m struggling, this makes things worse

[sodatab]

They're singing, "Happy birthday"
You just wanna lay down and cry
Not just another birthday, it's 30/90
Why can't you stay 29
Hell, you still feel like you're 22
Turn 30 in 1990
Bang! You're dead, what can you do?

i dont want to grow up. i want to wake up in 2018 or smth, and have someone tell me that this has all been a dream. im literally in denial that 2016 was almost 7 years ago?? no that cannot be real bro. it cant. i miss my childhood. i took it for granted. hell, i miss 2020 memories. playing amongus was so fun, with my siblings. why cant we go back to simpler times when no one fought about all this stuff like racism and homophobia?? it sucks man. it really does.