TheComfortCorner | V.9

[scxr]

i got fired from my job today and i’m actually spiraling i don’t know what i’m going to do i hate change and i wasn’t prepared for this and i’m crying i don’t know what i’m going to do what am i going to do i need money and i need structure and i feel absolutely ruined

[LunaLate]

I miss my dog Freddy and sometimes I feel I should be over it because it’s been six years! But I think I will always miss him. And I can’t get a new dog because we are poor. We have a nice backyard but we just can’t afford the monthly expenses. I go on walks everyday and it is so lonely without a dog.

Also I am very self conscious about my voice and I feel very alone in it. For a long time in elementary school I had speech therapy and I couldn’t say a lot of sounds right. It has been a long time and I can speak normally but I still feel ashamed. My voice sounds whiny and grating to my ears and still sometimes the sounds come out wrong. It’s hard because I am everyday reminded of it. I recently watched a video I had from me talking in high school and oh my gosh i sounded so much worse than I remembered.

[basil!]

im so angry i feel like im going to explode and i dont know what to dp
shes just ignoruing me because shes mad at me shes makingt me hurt so much i cannot staznd being ignored and she doesnt care
she wont get anything for hurting me like this
no one else will ever
and im theone overreacting its probvably mg fauly anyway
it hurts so much and no ones going to care and no ones going to be held accountable
and its my fault isnt it
i dont know i dontknow
i just feel like im going to impode im so angry and im so sad and i cannot be ignored i cannot
im at her mercy again

[vist]

nvrm spent too much time with myself 😌

[tiredddd]

I know I have to leave, it won’t work out but god I love him, he makes me so happy and I’d be lost without him but I don’t think it is going to last, we’re in two different worlds,,

[sharky]

I keep saying we're friends, and I have fun with you I suppose.. keep you smiling, but I still feel so uncomfortable with you after what you did to me.. you'd know I'd never do that to you.. and yet I got blamed. I felt so guilty and horrible.. but you were the bad guy! What you did wasnt okay.. but she doesn't agree I was right either.. and it's not like you'll ever admit you're wrong

[pandaa]

im starting to hate watching new movies with my dad. i know it’s stupid but its something we used to bond over and now he’ll find any reason to hate on any movie we go see. it’s just annoying especially when i enjoyed it and he keeps just pointing out flaws. like its obviously not gonna be perfect maybe just enjoy the movie? like it’s not meant to be realistic it’s literally a movie dude

[Electronia]

if a person has my best interests at heart i tend to hate their want to control my behavior, self destructive or not
i'm angry anyways, of course. if one doesn't have my best interests at mind, i tend to stop caring. i suppose that's the diffence. i can handle anger and arrogance, but being selfish is a trait i choose to ignore.

a loving family, a caring close inner circle, and my concern is my control towards my treatment of myself.
how pathetic.

[tiredddd]

It just hurts, it hurts so bad, wanting someone so far away, I will have to give up everything to be with him and the worst part is, I’m in love with him, I’m so deeply in love with him it would crush me to not be with him, he left me once a few years ago and it was so bad, I couldn’t even walk, I was dizzy. I love him and he loves me, I know he understands exactly how I feel because we’re like that, I just want him with me, even if it was one night, I’d do anything for it, im not okay, everything is crumbling around me, the stress of life, my family, him, it’s all so much and god it hurts, I need a hug, I need help, I need someone to tell me it’s all going to be okay because I don’t believe myself, I haven’t had a hug or anything like that in 4+ years,, I’m so broken

[Sullivan Maurus]

Haven't vented about this anywhere yet mainly because it sounds ridiculous but I really have to get it off my chest.

TW death, pet death
Not long ago I had a rather strange dream. I was laying on the floor of an unfamiliar dinning room facing the table. It was dark in the room. From the darkness emerged my recently deceased cat, Onyx, with a letter in her mouth. Behind her was a figure in black sneakers, black sweatpants, a black hoodie with the hood up, black gloves, and a blank white mask. It was most certainly Death. Who else would be with my dead cat? Death approached me, and I woke up gasping and sweating.

Am I going to die soon? Were they trying to tell me, and my own fear pulled me out of the dream? What was in the letter Onyx carried? They haven't come back and I'm not sure how to feel. I've been increasingly paranoid since then, though.