TheComfortCorner | V.9

[sharky]

I feel very very sick, very ashamed, i'm tired of myself. I know you keep saying i shouldnt be sorry, but think about it. i'm a monster in my own right, i'm sick and twisted and horrible

[rudeboy]

I self-sabotage a lot. I lost my best friends recently because of my own selfishness and my own problems, and I know I hurt them a lot in the process. I'm scared to make new friends because I don't want to hurt them the way I did my old friends.

[tiredddd]

It’s all eating me alive, the depression, no motivation, I just want to be done. I just want to go home but home isn’t home anymore.

[bug]

I didn't just figure this out but I really just can't let it go..

Have you ever found out that you couldn't ever do something you've always wanted to do? Well yeah.. that's happened to me.

I have known that my diabetes stops me from having certain jobs/careers but I didn't know (for a while but I do know now and have known for a bit) that it's extremely dangerous for one with diabetes to have children.. there is like a 99% chance I can't have any kids, ever.. I know that maybe there will be a cure someday but will that day be a day that I'm on this earth? I don't know but I just wanted to finally get this out because it hurts, it hurts so bad..

[flooxii]

I wish we could make things normal again.

[nyctophilia]

I had to put my hamster to sleep today. He was a very old little man and sick. I'm glad he's free of pain. Rest in peace Greg :"(

[Kayara]

tw ig; female bodily function or just a bit tmi
...
so
just cried my eyes out.
why do I have to have a freaking inexplicable identity crisis every time my period is due to arrive? I don't know how to deal with this if it becomes a consistent thing. of c o u r s e it would be me that wouldn't have bodily pain or discomfort but instead the most awful culmination of my worst fears to be really emotional about, that's what I do best. be dramatic

[☣Uzi Doorman!☣]

Okay i'm not sure if this belongs here but
I WAS TRADING AWAY A POUND PET AND
I DIDN'T KNOW YOU CAN GET MESSAGES FROM THEM
WHAT
I FEEL GENUINELY BAD D:
NEXT POUND PET I GET IS STAYING WITH ME FOREVER CAUSE I CANNOT HANDLE THIS GUILT

[shinx.]

i like,, don't get it. you disappeared on the 6th of august last year with absolutely nothing, radio silence. it's been 9 whole months of nothing and absolute confusion and pain for me, wondering if you're okay, if i did something wrong, etc. but having no answers because you just, left?? and then, on the 20th of may this year, you come online on discord for a few minutes and now you've disappeared, again, with nothing.

did i do something wrong?? i don't get it):
i really really miss you, a lot more than i can express. you felt like the only true friend i've ever had and someone who i could actually believe when they said they cared about me and wanted to talk to me. you were also the only person who could ever properly comfort me and make me feel better, and now whenever i'm sad i still wish you were here which just makes me feel worse because you're not and i don't know what i did wrong): we even had plans to watch an anime and you just vanished.
i just want to know that you're okay, please): please stop just disappearing with nothing, i miss you so much and seeing you online the other day and having absolutely nothing from you again just brought everything back and it's destroyed me more than the last time.
i just feel numb and like i'm on autopilot now.

please, please come back and be okay): i really love you and miss you.

[vist]

i hate my terrible concept of reality , it’s still not entirely hitting me that only a year and a month ago i lost someone who was a staple in my life,
i physically couldn’t deal with it, and took a toll on me .. and now,? i hardly think of them, i’m not afraid to sleep,
was it love if i’m not as heartbroken anymore,?

just so odd how a year and a half ago i had people in my life i thought would be here forever, and now they’re gone but still at an arms reach,. a message away, but they probably don’t think of me any longer,
if you’re there, tell your dog i said hi,.
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if there’s one thing i regret, it’s not practicing self love and care,.

i really think i keep finding the perfect people, but during the worst versions of myself,. and the days and months and years just keep passing, and i keep losing them and letting them slip through my fingers because i can’t love myself enough to believe someone could love me,. i’m doing it again,
if i had just spent the past year, learning to move on from my ex but also bettering myself, maybe the interest in a person i have right now could blossom and flourish,
but instead i’m letting it wilt,. i work on myself for a week, and slip back into old habits, why aren’t they enough to better myself,? why won’t i for them,?

i recently was told by a coworker , not to enter therapy if i don’t plan on bettering myself / am not ready to yet, and now i worry .. what if i’m never ready ? what if i let myself sulk and stay this way forever ..?





i hate myself so much it’s eating away at me .. ..