TheComfortCorner | V.9

[i<3 wolves678]

My family dog of 10 years had to be put down yesterday. He was over 15 years old and suffering with dementia that was taking a worse and worse toll on him as time went on. I’m relieved, as watching him deteriorate was incredibly upsetting, but it’s barely been a day and I already miss him so much. The house feels empty without him, and our other dog seems very lost.

[raezel]

idk man i'm just tired of living like this. i want to move out again. i hate, hate, hate running around and doing errands for other people just because i'm the only one with a car that doesn't say no to their constant begging for stuff because nobody else will say yes. i'm sick and tired of it. they're wasting my gas, which is stupid expensive, and it's nearly constant. i am so sick of being an errand boy 5 days out of the week because nobody else will say yes, because they KNOW better than to be manipulated and guilt tripped into this crap.

if it wasn't for the hurricane, we still would be moved out and living in our own place. i hate that we came back here, even if it was our only option. i hate it. i want to leave again. i'm beyond exhausted from work and i have to be a personal butler for these other grown ups because of the consequences their own stupid actions. i work 40+ hour weeks and make a good amount of money but it's all wasted on other people who can't just grow up. just ONCE i would like to not go into the negatives a week into my paycheck and scrounge for scraps for the next week until i get paid again. this isn't living anymore, it's just surviving.

[Cosmonaught]

but look into the lake
shimmering like smoke
rises the moon

oh, close your weary eyes
i promise you that soon the autumn comes
to darken fading summer skies

breathe, breathe
breathe.

rises the moon - liana flores

im tired

[flooxii]

I want to break down
I ruined absolutely everything
I'm so so so sorry
I want to fix things
I really do
I did that
you didn't
I did
I'm horrible
I'm a bad human being and I just want to
I just want to decompose.
be part of the soil.
dirt doesn't have stress.
but dirt's important.
we all know I'm not.


I just need to talk to someone..

[vist]

why am i so bad at rEPLYING TOO PEOPLE,
i want to talk to them ,
why is it so hard,
i want to,!!

i’ve ruined and am ruining so many relationships, < / 3

[sharky]

I can't help you.. i cant give you anything, i'm stuck here, stuck here and useless. why havent you just left me like all the others? why cant you see i'm the one ruining your life

[mourning dove]

for some reason i feel incredibly hurt. incredibly empty. i want to forget everything you did to me. i want to forget all the ways you hurt me. all the lies you told me. all the rumors you spread. it all hurts so much. every day i’m reminded of it all. i try to distract myself and it just comes back even harder. i feel so sick of it all. you all made up things about me. you spread lies. was it to justify the way you treated me? “hmm, surely if we make him out to be a bad person, treating him horribly would be excusable,” right? i’m tired of people saying false things about me. i’m tired of all the memories. i feel so sick. i forget everything except the things i want to forget. i can’t remember if i ate today or if i showered recently or when my friends birthdays are or the activities i did last night but i can remember the way she begged for forgiveness just to keep me longer. i remember the breakdown that happened when i saw those screenshots. i remember the way my body twitched uncontrollably, i remember the way i screamed. i couldn’t look my mom in the eyes because she’d know i’d been crying. i screamed and cried, then bottled it all back up because YOU told me you still loved me. you told me everything you said was LIES to make them like you. but really, you just lied to me. you left me with scars that will never heal. i will never be able to trust someone the way i trusted you ever again.
and now luca has to deal with my problems.

[Onion_707]

Am I really that bad at talking?
Why cant you just tell me about your problems? Isn’t that what friends are for?
I just need you to be yourself around me
no matter how annoying
or boring
or depressing you think you are,
I will love you either way

I wish I could stop your pain
but I cant
I wish I could take it from you
Its so unfair how you are so much sadder than I am

I thought that you were finally getting better
I cant stand to see you like this another day

I just want you to be comfortable with me

we’ve barely known each other for a year, and now all this crazy stuff is happening between us
What happened?
When did this all start?
It just came out of nowhere

I hate this feeling so much
Things are so awkward between us now, and on top of that, you’re coming to my house on the weekend?
I’m so happy to see you again, but it feels like I’m a stranger to you
If you don’t want me in your life anymore, just tell me
I wont be upset.

I know you need someone to talk to, I can be that person.
I always try my best to make you happy, but clearly that doesn’t work anymore.

You’re always the light of my day, and I just wish you could feel the same about me.

[viles]

• there's nothing quite like looking for a job that makes me feel so useless and incompetent. idk, i haven't been able to find something that would be viable for part-time, let alone something which would i could support myself. my older siblings have tried to offer advice, but there's not information to be gathered from them. for example, my sibling got their first job from a family friend and has been working in their desired field since they were in high school. i don't know what i'm supposed to learn from that. know people, i guess? and then my brother got his job from having fairly good references, but i don't have those. like, when i got my last job i did, but i've lost the contact information for those people at this point. of course, i didn't think to ask for a reference from my previous employer, so not only do i have limited skills and experience, but i don't even have people to vouch for me. idk, if possible i'd like to work somewhere other than a fast food restaurant.
  
  idk this all started because of the appointment i have today. if insurance doesn't cover hrt, i'm going to have to pay out of pocket for it. i have enough in savings to cover,, a few months (depending on the dosage), but ideally, i would like a job, so i can know for certain that i will be able to take testosterone. i've talked on the phone with family members since starting this post, so i'm feeling more motivated than i was. but still,, idk sdkfjhskj. i just,, aa it's a very frustrating and overwhelming process. (i meant that in reference to the job search, but it certainly could apply to starting my medical transition as well.)

[P0stHum4n]

One of the teachers in my life, specifically my math one, Is a half and half “ can’t figure you out “ type of person. I can’t tell if he likes his students or if he doesn’t. He makes me feel useless, stupid, and often overwhelmed. I’m failing his class and constantly being yelled at because he doesn’t teach. And I can’t say that because my parents just say he’s doing so much stuff for me when he’s not. “ well.. If someone else doesn’t wanna try to answer the problem, I guess we all can just sit here and wait! “ “ It’s not fun when someone isn’t working with us, just sitting there and watching the problems. “ with a rude and sarcastic tone. And then randomly the next day I’ll be super tired and stressed and he will look at me and whisper “ are you okay? How was your ankle, does it still hurt “ And I’ll look at him “ yeah. It’s fine. “ and it’s frustrating. And then I’m being yelled at all the time for failing classes and it wasn’t my fault.