by друг » Thu May 18, 2023 9:51 am
I've been feeling like a lost cause lately. I go outside to do things to make myself feel better, go to the movies, go bookshopping, go to restaurants, go to the gym, and then I come home and nothing's changed. There's this feeling of everything being a meaningless thing just to pass time that brings me absolutely no sense of meaning or joy, and that I should just stop trying, because once I've done the thing that's supposed to make me feel better, I come home alone, where I'll in every sense that matters be alone, and I know that tomorrow I'll live the same day all over again. I hate waking up, I hate making myself breakfast, I hate washing my face, I hate the endless cycle of feeding this body for another meaningless day, and I hate going to bed knowing it never ends and feeling absolutely powerless to change anything about my life. From the outside, things must look pretty decent for me, but I'm just completely empty inside and I don't think I could say that I truly enjoy any part of my life
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I wish I could look at him
and just find what went
missing.
But he looks the same.
ari or artyom
adult, they/he
archetypal loser
🇫🇮 x𝖲𝖫𝖠𝖵𝖠 𝖴𝖪𝖱𝖠𝖨𝖭𝖨