TheComfortCorner | V.9

[pandaa]

just got some horrible news, oh god. see it’s not even the fact he’s gone that hurts, it’s the way it happened. how it could have been prevented. poor little guy, i can’t imagine how he must have felt. im sorry nick. you didn’t deserve this.

edit: i still feel sick over it. god this sucks.

[67Phlox]

Straight up got told to parent myself, not in my echo chamber or anything. By a real, physical person.
I mean, I've been neglecting to do so for the past.. two years?
Well, if I don't actually commit this time, then I can just say goodbye to my hopes and dreams :')
Ahh, I am too used to a life without responsibility, I need to finally take some accountability - maybe then I'll chase after my goals?

Who knows, who knows! All I know is that I need to force myself, because motivation is just not cutting it lol

[rileypillow]

My little one passed away this morning… I knew he wouldn’t make it and I’m amazed he made it this far, I was told he wouldn’t even make it past the first night he was sick. Poor little one, I hope he’s at peace now. I’m going to bury him tomorrow, and I’m wondering whether to preserve the little eggshell thing he hatched from or bury it with him.

I also have too many plants to care for, they got sick while I was away. ;-;

I had a terrible day again. I feel like I’m stuck in Groundhog Day but I don’t know where I went wrong. I’m treated like a waste of space and time, a burden to society, and I’m so socially awkward that I don’t have friends. And all the pointless arguments too.

I also have to see that guy tomorrow… I don’t have the energy left at all. I wish he’d just stop asking me about my pets all the time. I’m sick of it but I don’t have the energy or confidence to ask him not to.

I wish I could have a happy moment where I can just relax and be myself.

[mourning dove]

feelin like garbage and idk why. whole body is shakin. i feel so empty. so lonely. it feels like something is missing. im trying to watch videos and play games and listen to music to fill the emptiness but nothing works. i dont even wanna sleep anymore. all i can do is lay here.

[dizzytoffee]

I feel like I barely have an identity of my own these days, and I just mimic everything I see around me. I can't even remember unique things about me when I actually want to... Why does my memory have to suck so much?

[CyberneticVampire]

Again I'm wondering why I'm here. I feel so depressed I can't take it. I just want someone to love me.. someone who wants to talk to me and listen to me. It's all loneliness, all day every day. I mean I love my alone time as much as the next person but when it's every single second of every single day it gets to be too much. Plus it's my birthday next month and I know that's only going to show and remind me how lonely and unwanted I am.

[dusekkar]

[CyberneticVampire]

Do people just enjoy hurting me? Saying they aren't like all the others then going around and doing the same thing anyway? How does anyone expect me to trust when the same thing always happens no matter what I do? I can't sleep cause I'm just so depressed and there's nothing I can do about it. I've been blocked, for no reason and have no other way of figuring out why. Why am I so bothered by being alone all the time when people just treat me this way? I'm so depressed I can't sleep and I just keep thinking about everything that makes me sad. I don't want to think about this crap anymore. But I'm just obsessing over it and making myself sick. I just want to know what I did wrong.. that's all. Why does everyone do this to me? I just want to hide and disappear. It's not like it would matter and I would just be saving myself the heartache of being blocked by someone else. Maybe I can cry myself to sleep. Who knows.

[mourning dove]

i feel too guilty to eat. i dont belong here.

[67Phlox]

I keep whining about things I may be able to change
I'm just so apprehensive about trying and failing tremendously, which in turn would make me more of an outcast that I arleady am
Maybe I shouldn't care? Then again, I do prefer isolating than talking hah
And, yeah, I'm so far up my [place where the Sun doesn't shine] anyway, so I doubt anyone could stand even being near me