TheComfortCorner | V.9

[☼ morgana]

my patience has run dry. i have none left. i can't do this anymore.
on top of the other crap of today. my cat is likely on her deathbed, 1600 miles away, and i can't even go to say goodbye. i will miss you so much my sweet baby girl.

[Starry Night]

sad.
tw, mentions hospital/related.

My Grandmother was admitted to the hospital today, I was very close with her,
and didn't get to see her before she was admitted.
She had emergency surgery. We don't know how well she did yet as they are
keeping her under anesthetics for a while.

I really want a hug. (I've been given a lot today, but now I am alone)
I'm using ChickenSmoothie as a coping mechanism rn.
People have been very lovely, and I really appreciate those
who've sent well wishes and listened to me.

I'm not one to normally share my problems,
but I am overwhelmed by this and my family doesn't
process grief the same way I do so my crying is a bother to them.

[67Phlox]

hello void, hope you're having a nice day today

and if you're overwhelmed with life, that's okay
and if you're not feeling like yourself, that's okay
challenges come and go, that's just life
i'm so thankful for you being here and trying, even when things seem bleak

[shinx.]

just want to ramble a bit cause i have nobody else after pushing everyone else away lol but i got an offer for my dream uni the other day which is insanely crazy to me. it's conditional so i have to get certain grades for it but the fact i might even get into uni?? that i'm even being considered??

literally a few months ago during a class we had to decide whether we were going to college/uni and my friend dragged me into the uni class against my will at a time where i was completely tired and depressed all of the time but by her dragging me into that class it kind of changed my life ???

my attendance went up in school by 20%, i found i have an actual interest/passion in something for once and i'm really excited at the possibility of getting into a uni that i really liked and for a course that i will actually enjoy and i wish i could share this with some people who i regrettably pushed out of my life hrjkesm

but i'm also afraid. i'll be on my own fully, which i can't wait to get away from my family and their arguing, but, i'm petrified of the unknown. none of my friends are going to the same uni as me, everything will be changing, i'm going to be an adult very soon with a whole bunch of new responsibilities, i still don't know what i truly want to do with my life, i'm terrified of being around a bunch of new people and i'm scared that i won't be able to keep up and i'll break down.
and i've also got the pressure of having to even get the grades in the first place. i don't really know if i'll get them. funnily enough, i need 2 A's and 2 B's but the only grades i'm relatively confident i'll get are the 2 A's. I'm just really struggling with the other two classes and i'm barely passing them and i don't really know what i'll do if i don't get into the uni either. literally everything depends on these next few weeks and i'm so afraid ahrjklesm i hate the future and i wish i could really talk to someone about this and have a hug.

there's also prom coming up which my friend forced me into going and now i have the stress of trying to find a dress and that adds an extra layer of stress because i'm an idiot and me going to prom will probably confirm rumours about me and ahroieslkmrs
just want a hug and a break

[viles]

• tw health, food
  my doctor told me my diet needs to change. i don't want to eat because i know the food available to me isn't healthy. i'm not in control of purchasing groceries for myself, and while in some ways that has been beneficial for me, in this particular way it is incredibly detrimental. i was looking at some sort of meal kit delivery service, but i don't have the money for it right now. idk i need to do something so i can implement the lifestyle changes i want to, but i don't know what to do. everything feels so unattainable.

[LittleMaple]

I'm in a lot of pain
Headache and cramps
I'm so exhausted and I just want to be so small
And held really gently
And I want to be kissed on my head by people who love me
And cry on them
I'm having a great time, I swear
It's just
Really hard to continue to have energy
I'm so happy that this is almost over but I'll also miss it
Idk maybe I'm just complaining but I straight up do NOT care I couldnt care less because like. Why should I. Ugh

[Cosmonaught]

why cant everything be *normal* for once. why do my teachers insist on singling me out. i cant even trust one of my counselor friends and i think someone else might be in co-front rn and erfhwbvhfbhvdc i hate math i want to leave i need to leave i need to leave so so badly but i have to stay and suffer through it i dont even have my bag i cant even draw rn

editing so i dont double post: ALL THE THOUGHTS ALL THE TIME ive become hyper-aware of my system atm (only happens under extreme stress) and citadel who i cant tell if i recently stress-split or he was forced to co-front bc i was stressed is NOT HELPING and my rw fictives are trying to sort themselves out bc of the stress theyre hyper-aware too and idk i cant hear the rest of my sys only citadel and nsh/sirius and there might be artificer and saint and idk idk idk my systems a mess im a mess of a host :thumbsup: ummm other systems pm me??? i want to. talk to other systems. tank u

THIRD EDIT: SHUT UP COSMOOOOO SHUT UP ABT YOUR SYSTEMMMMMM JUST FOCUS (fourth edit this was probably written by artificer)

[vist]

i’ve never missed someone so much in my life,. like oh my god i hate you,

[flooxii]

what have I done...
it's all my fault you're gone.
I miss you so much, but god I wish you were never a part of my life.
I hate you, stupid jerk.
but god do I miss speaking with you.

[viles]

• theres a thing going on and i want to talk about it because i'm upset but i don't know if i should talk about it on here,, and i just. idk. i would pm someone or text a friend but. i dont want support. my friend tried to comfort me yesterday bc unfortunately we were on call when i received the news but aaa,,, it just,,, idk it helped a little but in another way it just made me feel worse.
  i need to go back to therapy.
  
  edit: i can't sleep bc of my anxiety i just want to escape the whole situation for even a few hours but my brain wont let me have that i mean im also very tired but yk the thought of not thinking about the thing for an extended period of time is unbelievably appealing,, im hoping that like,, in a hour or two ill just like,, become so exhausted that im forced to sleep