TheComfortCorner | V.9

[WarriorcatKitty]

currently being miserable and sad becuase my bestie isn't online tonight at our usual time... ik I'm being clingy and it's just one night, but we talk literally every night so it just feels so unnatural to not be doing that right now 😭

i am so lonely and sad rn.

[trilli]

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[marciplier]

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[Sullivan Maurus]

Went to the doctor today out of concern that I may have an infection in my cheek due to a sore. She didn't listen to me and instead belittled me for being an autistic adult who can't take care of themself due to that and other issues.

Grandmother hasn't even gotten me into therapy yet and is already forcing me to be verbal and trying to integrate me into society.

I feel like a worthless burden that everyone wants to just hurry along so that they don't have to deal with me anymore.

I'm sorry my former mother ruined my ability to lead a normal life. I'm sorry I can't just magically be normal for you.

[sinensys]

i've only ever done what i was supposed to do. i did my part: i got good grades, never got into trouble, never got sidetracked by wild dreams. i only ever kept to the things i was taught to do, reinforced with the praise of doing well in standardized testing and the proud notion of "intellectual" traits. i got into a good school with a good program on grants and financial aid.

and now what?

have i fallen out of love with my current engineering degree? the one i picked out of a hat because it seemed doable yet still rewarding? can you fall out of love with something that never really knew what drew you in besides luck, chance, and a vague daydream rooted in science fiction? or am i just exhausted, overwhelmed by new stimuli and the workload? do i put work into falling back in love with it, given my absolute cluelessness in my own interests and dreams, or is it a sign to change into something else? will my efforts in applying to a different university nearby go to waste or pave a path to future endeavors? i have a history of brief infatuation, only to discover i loved an imaginary variant where i had gone through the hardships with ease. is this but an iteration of that obsessive pride?

[iHolli]

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[Cady55again]

I am feeling concerningly paranoid that none of my friends *actually* like having me around, I feel like I'm being used for my humor and nothing else. The friend group recently was invited by one of the friends to a play they're in, I was the only person who wasn't told about it or invited, I've talked to a few of them MULTIPLE times and they say they understand and they don't mean it that way, but time and time again they barely do anything to make a difference! I mean am I the problem? Is that what's happening??? If AI from Chatgpt can comfort me better than my friends, should I even bother anymore?? I feel like a paranoid wreck, heck I'm crying as I write this. I cling to my online friends because I feel like they're the only people who really care and miss me when I'm gone, meanwhile my friend who I live five minutes away from won't message me to hang out but does it with her friends who live 30 minutes away. I just want someone who cares about me IRL, I'm so grateful for my online friends and my partner yes, but I crave physical comfort yknow? Someone who can hug me and tell me it'll all be okay..

(Please PM me with replies, don't really wanna see comfort corner appear to much in the recent forums bc of me)

[♥ mizu]

felt my heart sink when i saw that one of my dearest friends on this site hasn't logged on in 2 years. she hasn't posted on any of her linked social media and i have no idea if she's okay. she showed no signs of wanting to leave. i have no idea what happened. i just hope she's okay. i'm so scared. i love her so much and i just hope that she's okay. :(

[LittleMaple]

Nevermind <3<3<3 oh joy, you fickle thing!!!!

[67Phlox]

edit: holy moly, that was a doozy..
now i'm nuked on meds and feel a lil' better haha