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[67Phlox]

Okay, impersonal, got it. That's what the videos said, anyway.

Come on, get those creative juices flowing! There's no need to complain now, so much things to catch up on. And they aren't going to wait for the day to get better, are they?
Maybe instead of letting the world pass swiftly by, each opportunity to improve should be eagerly taken? Food for thought.

Also, to be respected is to take care of oneself and keep up appearances (+ manners). When was the last time a thorough preening took place, hm?

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Edit later in the day:
Oooohh! BIIIIIG stretch~
Still a ton of stuff to complete, but hey, work's at least begun! That's progress. Little steps forward.
Awesome

[yharnam boy]

i hate being mean, or perceived as mean.

[viles]

• tw dysphoria
  i heard myself singing today and i just,,, aaa i sound so feminine i want to cry idk it's so silly and goofy bc like idk im not a professional singer or anything i just idk jkhsdkjfh idk if i'll ever be able to take hormones so this might be the voice i have and it just makes me,, it makes me feel like extremely disconnected from my body and i just,, idk there's nothing i can do right now except feel awful so like :shrug: idk im just i dont want to have to speak or sing or hum ever again which sucks bc i love singing and talking and just making sounds ykyk??? not all the time am i thinking about how uncomofrtable my voice makes me but like i am thinkign about it rn i just need to make it through it ig lmao ok thats all ig i dont have anything new to say so im gonna end the post here
  
  edit: i just,, i don't feel like my life can start until i transition and idk if i'll ever be able to do that. there's a lot of things going on and i'm trying not to think about it,,, but i just,, aaa i just,, i am. idk. i'm tired and sad. i'm trying not to be for the sake of others atm but i just,, aa it's hard
  
  (gonna add another tw for mentions of transphobia)
  edit: i've decided i want to change my legal name. i mean, i've known i want to do that all along, but i just,, i want to do somethin about it. but i just,, this process, it seems so difficult. idk. i'm just,, aaa i'm trying to be hopeful but it's so damn hard these days. every time i check social media it's just,,, soul crushing, and this is just another reminder of....well, everything. i'm so tired of feeling this pain. i hope some day the world will be kind to trans people

[scottermite]

idont wanna feel like this anymore But i used it all up Now i have to sit here thinking about how dizzy and nauseous i wish i was
in your arms im a child. In your arms.
i wish you were still around And still liked me enough to say That my being so pathetic was a virtue. That my weak will and fragile simple ego were my best qualities. I want you back I want you to want me back And god knows it would be easy

[67Phlox]

The computer can wait. Obviously it's chugging pretty bad, so it seems like a good opportunity to do some traditional sketches and tidy up. It is possible to get up, nothing is keeping you hostage. huh..

Okay, ONE more song and then it will be time for business.

[cainhurst]

it's been like a year since you tried to reach out to me. i tried to respond multiple times, but i could never find the right words to express myself, and so days turned into weeks and then into months and now a year and it's kind of... hitting me hard right now. i wish i had answered. i wish i had gotten to tell you that i'm sorry, and that it was my fault that things ended so terribly. that i hold no grudge anymore, that i'm no longer this bitter, angry person who didn't know how to handle those negative emotions in ways that weren't either self-destructive in nature, or involved lashing out at anyone who made those emotions flare up. i want to assure you that i truly hope you're doing well, and that you're happy, and living the life you want and deserve.

but i'm a coward, and now it feels far too late to say anything, even though i feel like i'm finally at a point in my life where we might even become friends again if both of us went into it with the desire to be part of each other's life once more. because i miss you. i don't miss my ex, but i miss the amazing friend i had and lost. to this day, i curse myself for deciding it was better to shoot my shot than keep quiet forever.i regret going into a relationship when i was at one of the lowest, darkest points of my life and thus one of the worst versions of myself to this day.

i guess i was just... foolish enough to assume love would be enough. that being with the person i loved so deeply would somehow magically fix everything and there wouldn't be any issue at all, despite the fact it was my first relationship to begin with. but i should have known better. how was i supposed to love you like you needed, give you the security and stability and reassurance you needed from me, when i myself couldn't even give any of that to myself? looking back, i realize now just how awful of a partner i must have been to you at times, and i'm ashamed of it. because you deserved so much better. before, during, and after our relationship.

i wish i could show you how far i've come since then. even if it leads nowhere, i wish i could at the very least give you some closure so maybe the memories we share feel just a little less sad to the both of us. but i'm not sure if you even want me to now, or if simply leaving you alone like i've done for years is the better option at this point

[changbin]

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[Cerbie]

she promised she wouldn't replace me again.
i have to wait until MIDNIGHT just so i can talk to my only friend because shes too busy during the day.

im not saying shes not allowed to have other friends but god why cant you just spend some time with me for once?
then she'll come crying to me because her parents arent letting her stay outside like are you really that upset that you finally have time to talk to your "bestest friend forever"??

how are you going to keep me up until 2 am talking about how much your new friends hurt you but then ignore me all day long because youre too busy having fun with said friends???

i just wish i was normal so i could actually make friends, im so tired of being all alone all the time.

[crashedOut]

can my attachment and abandonment issues not like... freak out lol. we get it storm, your qpp is at a con, good for them! stop being sad because you cant talk to them! theyll be back tomorrow probably! v is just at the movies and will be back soon too! god. im going to forget everything that happened today anyways. its literally not that deep. it just hurts knowing i havent been able to talk to anyone in general all day. i hate being isolated. so much.