TheComfortCorner | V.9

[rileypillow]

My identity was completely invalidated. I was told that the best and most likeable thing about me is an identity I do not have but many people insist I do. I feel horrible. They probably won't even understand how it made me feel… I haven't felt this awful for a while even though life's been very rough lately. I keep thinking about it over and over and over.
Why can't people see me for me? Why don't they like ME? The real me? Why?!!!

[Cerbie]

i miss saying that i hated school and NOT actually meaning it. I used to love school so much, my old teachers were so nice to me:(

my new school is so draining. nobody ever talks to me because im "different". unless someone needs help with english homework ill get ignored all day long. Im failing all my classes except for english just because i dont understand Polish too well, the teachers dont even care to help me because im too old to be asking such stupid questions like im sorry what?? i dont understand half the words youre saying and you wont translate or explain what you mean to me just because im too old??
just because im not a child that doesnt mean that ill automatically understand everything you say to me istg.

the people at my school are so unpleasant to be around as well, theres not a single person who doesnt misgender me. they all know that im trans yet everyone keeps deadnaming me and calling me a girl. idk if they realise that if they talk about me whilst sitting right next to me that i can hear everything but it hurts so much like i really am trying my best i dont get why you have to be so mean

i have such a genuine hatred for this country i want to go home so much.

[67Phlox]

/*I know why I avoid being productive, all the things I could do to change my current behaviour, yet I make no real, long-lasting attempts to better myself. This feels like such a chore.. but it <b>should</b> be fun, right? Ugghhh, foiled yet again by my incompetence and lack of patience. I guess I'll just get destroyed on instant gratification*/
//At least classes were somewhat fun today

[ChevyTheQH]

i just miss her so much. she was taken from me too soon. its been over a year and i still cant cope with it. I miss my chicken and gosh that sounds so stupid but i got her during covid and we bonded over two long years. she was there for me when others werent and i want her back

[FNAF]

feeling so lonely lately and idk why . ): feels like no matter what i do people get bored of me. i try my best but it still ends up with them never interacting unless i message first. i miss playing games and having fun with friends but lately it feels like nobody wants my company

[Guest]

A friend really picked the worst time possible to stop being my friend.
He said he can't go on as friends because he is too attracted to me and the more we hang out the worse it gets and if we can't both be on the same page he can't be my friend anymore.
I'm at a really big low mentally and it really sucks to lose someone I felt really close to. We talked a lot and had so much in common, he was one of the main things keeping me somewhat ok during the past few days and it really sucks that it was all because he wanted to date me or something.
That's something I miss about being uglier. If I didn't want to date someone they would generally go "oh well your loss we can still be friends" but now they really do take it personally despite the fact that I have a boyfriend.
And don't get me wrong, i'm not pretty. I'm not attractive. I do in fact look like a zombie, but I was indeed uglier a few years ago and it's easy to tell how differently people treat me and deal with my lack of romantic interest.
It stinks.
I absolutely hate it.
I'm seriously considering taking worse care of myself to get rid of this issue because it's the third good friend I had this issue with this year and it sucks.

[flooxii]

I just want to cry.

[partlysocial]

Everyone left me. First L, who I loved and cared about so much, the N, we were friends for two years until I was doing really bad for two days and then he decided to leave because I was being “boring”. And the just yesterday C left me for the same person that N left me for, they’re not even interesting, they only talk about the same things and aren’t open to talking about anything else. Those were my closet friends all of the earlier close friends had already left and I was finally happy. I had a group where I felt cared and comfortable and loved, then they all threw me away and kept being friends. The new people I try to be friends with prefer N over me, always talking to N, slays hanging out with N, never me, because I’m just me, and no one cares about me anymore. I have no one, I’m so alone. I tried to use E to fill the hole L had left, and the it grew into more, and today E asked someone out right next to me, they accepted but they were talking to other people about it later and all they cared about were E’s looks and not even the amazing person that E is. Not like E cares about me, I’m probably just annoying him, I’m so tired, everything is happening to fast. I need a break but I can’t catch one. No one cares about me, I just want to be cared about, I just want a close, true friend again. Is that so much to ask for? Everyone else has someone, not in the love way, but everyone around me has friend, even if they’re my old friends that left me. I’m the only one without anyone. I though I was doing okay, I listened to them, I talked with them, I was there when they needed me, I did everything I could possibly do. So why did they still leave me, what did I do wrong? Why won’t they just tell me so I can fix it? I feel so alone, everything is going downhill so fast, so many people are noticing it, it gets harder and harder every day to put on a face. I can’t do it anymore, I’m so tired. I need a break. I just want friends.

[acronymm]

im starting to fall back into that cycle of hopelessness and sadness again. it always comes back.
i feel so bad for not replying to my boyfriend, or anybody else. i dont have the energy to talk to them
i work so much, multiple jobs too, which is good and bad. good in ways that i make money, and most importantly keep my mind off things and serve as a distraction. bad in ways that i have little free time and barely any energy. which is really saying something bc i didnt have much energy at the start

i wish things were different. i regret so many things i have done. i wish i could have a do-over

[Sullivan Maurus]

My former mother has robbed me of every comfort I had. All I can do anymore is stare at the ceiling and sob while I listen to her cackle like the witch she is as she lives her best life on the computer that was supposed to be mine.

I was gonna do so much this year and now I can't do anything. I can't even see my friends anymore outside of Discord, and they're waiting to do stuff so we can do it together and I feel so awful.