TheComfortCorner | V.9

[pandaa]

too much is happening i just want to check out

[Corals Art Studio]

I have so many mixed feeling about many things in the world. Society, breaking up with a long time friend of mine, becomming someone i hate instead of someone I should be happy and proud of.
My world continuously seems to be caving in on me and my life, I havent been able to have time to myself and do the things I love anymore.
I dont like to hang out with friends anymore at school and work I have also became super isolated from the world and everyone that I have been around is worried. My therapist doesnt seem to be helping me anymore. I dont know what to do.

[Dlrt]

it really sucks that no one genuinely seems to understand my struggles with making friends. i've tried to talk about it on a few occasions and all times it's either been misunderstood as just "being shy/introverted" or the person lowkey getting angry at me and blaming me for everything. i just,, feel like i'm incapable of making new connections like ever. it's so rare that anyone ever remembers who i am or wants to talk to me. my problem is is that i'm not particularly shy, but that no one is ever really interested in talking with me. ever. even if i go out of my way to dm people first every single time, i will never actually become a person anyone actually wants to talk to. the only way ppl talk to me is if i dm them first and thats it. if it's not me, i'm entirely forgotten. and it's not a case of "bad friends" because i cant even call most of these ppl my friends, moreso just acquaintances. i don't know how to bridge the gap between acquaintances and friends. and if i'm not the person to dm someone first in general, i will literally never get messaged first by anyone. i've had so many instances where i was in a group of "friends" where everyone talked to each other in dms a lot as well, but no body would ever talk to me except for one person. and any time i would talk about how unimportant i feel because nobody ever wants to talk to me privately, i just got yelled at and told i was just somehow choosing to not talk to people or choosing to see it that way. but,, it was true that nobody would ever invite me. it was true nobody aside from that one person would ever talk to me in dms. it was true that if it wasn't for me constantly trying to reach out to people and build connections, nobody would actually remember that i exist.
and i don't know what i'm doing wrong anymore. i've tried so hard for so many years to fix this and to reach out even more and to make myself matter to people but it just,, doesn't happen. people are never interested in being friends with me, no matter how many things we may share in common or how much we may enjoy our time together. i just want people to talk to me, i just want to have more than 1 friend at a time, i just want to feel like my presence matters to literally anyone. im so tired of only being that one person whose only really fun to be around when voice chatting. i try so hard and yet it never works. i genuinely think there's just something horribly wrong with me and that i either don't understand something incredibly important or that i'm just,, too boring to ever make anyone interested in getting to know me.

[vist]

i think i’m falling apart at the seams,
but i’m ignoring it, and when i come back in the moment, it hits hard,
i go back to ignoring it,
but i’m on a loop and i don’t know how to stop,.

[crashedOut]

why am i so. attached to a video game?? rumbleverse shut down not even 2 days ago and ive cried over it like 5 times
i guess its just because i miss it. it was so fun but it was only up for 6 months. its like making a friend and having them move away.
i just wish i werent so emotional about it its just a game its just a game ugh god get it together

[RaeOfHope<3]

Holding up the people who have held you most your life is hard… my only supports are in and out of mental wards atm and I’m meant to be there support.. I failed today.. multiple ptsd episodes and panic attacks.. I feel so guilty I’m meant to be on watch for them hurting themselves and I ended up there myself… I failed and I feel so guilty and hate myself so much.. I am a failure and they will probably not entrust me to care for them now and they have no one else… I hate how broken I am. No matter how hard I try it’s never enough… I’m never enough… they would be better off with me gone. 😔

[slifer]

YEAH... this week has been pretty weird for me?? ok so I don't think I am allowed to share this in lots of detail, but I have a bit of addiction with this one thing. just so you know it's not smoking, vaping or any substances.

but I just feel so grossed out about it, I couldn't stop even if I wanted to. idk man I've been feeling pretty sick to my stomach since I've talked to my friend about it.

they compared it to something much worse then what I'm going through, which is a REALLY awful thing that again I'm most certainly not gonna share what this was but it was pretty bad.

I'm kinda confused on WHY they told me this?? maybe to help stop my addiction??

due to CS rules (again) I'm not gonna share this person's age or my age but they are much older then me. and I'm still in school. not sure if it was the appropriate thing to tell someone whos decently younger then you but oh well.

kinda wish they didn't tell me cause I kinda freaked out and still freaking out a tiny bit writing this!

[gamer]

I wish my chronic illness didn't make me miss out on stuff all the time. Games, warm food, outings, proper sleep, literally everything. It's so frustrating.

[kal!]

its getting bad again

[scottermite]

i kno i shouldnt but i miss u. i hate u dont get me wrong but i miss u. wish it didnt go like this. i hope youre doing bad. id do anything for u. just ask.