TheComfortCorner | V.9

[pandaa]

stop letting ur mind get the best of you, they’re just thoughts. everything will be okay and no one’s hurt. don’t worry.

[67Phlox]

Back early and arleady not good thoughts.
Terrible things. I try to constructively think about my problems and end up in a fetal position. The funniest part, if only I would begin thinking a bit more positively all of this could be avoided. I am responsible for this, for getting swarmed by unneeded worry. I am responsible for losing my ability to easily communicate my feelings.
And I still only think about myself. Sure, I help, but still. I don't think that's enough.

I know someone a year back offered to hear me out, but honestly I don't want anybody to suffer because of the things I imagine and believe about myself.

I'm sorry you had to see this, im sorry you had to see this, im sorry you had to see

[General Chaos]

It's been about a year since I was on this site last. As soon as my phone recommended this site again I clicked in pure excitement. I used this site to escape at one point, I would roleplay as anything I could ever dream. I would collect any pets I deamed worthy. I would write pages on pages of anything, and everything.

Needless to say, I made a new character. My heart sored at the thought of the nostalgia coming back, reliving the escape I would once grasp for. The adventures I would have while sitting in my dimly lit room. The friends I would make a long the way.

I couldn't break my smile while I flipped through the pages of 'dreamies' I had collected, common and rares alike. My hoards encapsulated my mind with joy, even though most were left unfinished. Most given to me by complete strangers just hoping to brighten someone's day.

I remembered all the pain I had endured. Pain this site not only helped me escape, but overcome. This site encouraged my dreams, encouraged me to write. And write more. Write until I couldn't think of any more stories to tell.

This may not be a post seeking help, or to vent. But I felt like this was the correct place to post this. Maybe as a reminder, or just a glimmer of hope. You are not alone, and you never were. This site is full of people, kind people, that want to see you thrive as much as I do. Just keep writing, keep collecting if that's what you need. You'll get there soon.

[shinx.]

today has been so very not good. i was meant to work on monday 5-9 after school but the buses had all been cancelled/diverted due to a crash on the motorway so i couldn't make it to work within a reasonable time. went to work on wednesday fine, i'm meant to have a shift tomorrow that's 12-9.
got the updated rota as well for next week where i'm working sunday 12-9 and monday 5-9 as well, so that meant 3 days in a row with late finishes.
i'm doing 4 highers this year, i've got no free periods which means every single school day i'm constantly at a class except for the breaks and lunches. i have 5 essays due (2 of them being for monday) and absolutely no free time and i absolutely just crashed seeing that updated schedule and cue me crying for 2 hours straight because i'm so exhausted.

i'm planning on quitting and not going in tomorrow (or the subsequent days) but i feel incredibly guilty. the mangers have their faults but they were really nice and my coworkers were really nice, i had a really good experience with them on wednesday after feeling so out of place and weird and i'm just sad that i finally was beginning to feel okay-ish and i was making friends sort of that it's all going to be gone): and i'm incredibly afraid i'm going to be in trouble or something because i don't know what my contract is, they've never shown me the updated version of it and i'm just overall terrified of what'll happen tomorrow. i don't want to make anyone mad or inconvenience them i'm so afraid and stressed]:

[Paprikat]

i lost a drawing i was REALLY proud of and really really loved and its probably gone forever and i just hate this day. I hate it so much.

[67Phlox]

Eh, slowly trying to get used to feeling not-so-oki-dokey & periodic migraines (thankfully have painkillers).
Overall, life's okay. Well, I hope I didn't just jinx that. I may be just being too much of a perfectionist (read: lazing around and not working towards things I want to actually accomplish in life... yeah, I'm terrified of failure).

Still self-centered, but kinda working on it? I don't know how to human hah

[halo]

ignore the edits ;; tried n failed to make this appear transparent under my posts . i don’t mind it anymore

i feel like almost no one wants to talk to me bc i’m so weird n awful with social cues . those who do talk to me only do because i’m like a jester . it’s really easy to laugh at me . and i feel like they talk to me only when it’s convenient for them . i’m tired of responding to messages rly fast only to get radio static from the other person for hours up to days . i understand if it’s a one time thing , but it’s routine at this point . can only assume , “ they don’t want to talk to me . “ why do i bother anymore

[Restful Dead]

Slowly falling apart at the seams

In the past, I've always been good at persevering no matter how hard things got. I just down know if I have that strength anymore

[flooxii]

when will you come back?
I miss you.

[67Phlox]

Today was not bad, but not good either.
No major upset, just wish I could've motivated myself to do more.
For the past two weeks I've been looking through (albeit not diligently) various self-help videos about 'keeping yourself going' or 'setting goals'... now I'm searching for ones that might enlighten me on how to effectively communicate w/ people in person. Not really taking this venture too seriously to not discourage myself too much, but..
eh, i don't know. It feels defeating that I need to teach myself again how to be normal. Because I want to be useful? Be liked? No sure why I am doing this. Maybe it just feels wrong for me to not try to improve somewhat. Again, not sure.