TheComfortCorner | V.9

[azemyc]

u g h
Whyd did i move
Why did i think this would magically make everything better
I have no support system
No one cares.
I havent heard from my friends for almost a month,,,
I just
I dont matter

[meowchirp]

i think i might have really messed up in the direction i wanted my life to go and it sucks to have to rip everything down and start over again. i dont know what im doing. i just know i cant go thru life like this anymore. it sucks to leave all i just worked so hard building behind, but what else can i do? it isnt making me happy

[LaceWhiskey]

I was already stressed out that someone had removed my interaction with something they're doing, which I know they have every right to do, but I can't even reach out anywhere to ask why. Especially when the single one interaction I've had with them wasn't negative in the slightest, which would mean it's a them problem rather than a mine. I know in life and online, not everyone is going to like everyone else, but I still feel awful and like I'm at fault. Even if I know rightfully I'm not. I know it's impossible to get everyone to like you, but I want to only bring happiness and support.

So that's where one part of my brain is, but the other half. . .

My head is filled with heartbreak. I watched the video. I can't go into it because of cs rules, but to all those in a place in the world that is dangerous, my heart goes out to you. It was honestly egregious. I'm sorry. Please stay safe.

( pm's are fine ).

[marciplier]

i feel really bad :(

[wholesomeisfine.]

it's odd. my school life, social life, and home life are all nice. which means it's a me problem, right?
why am i so tired all the time? why do i feel like i'm swimming through honey, even though i should be so happy my life is working so well? am i stuck in the past? i think i am, if i'm still on this site. it was my world in fifth grade.
lately i've been revisiting it all, diving into all of the little places and things i enjoyed in elementary school, when the world seemed kinder.
but i don't know if that's a good thing, since i've been crying over the lost times when it was less complex.
and i worry that i need to be focusing on moving forward, since staying in the past will prevent my growth.
is this actually harmful for me?
..how?

[pandaa]

why am I set off so easily, one iffy experience and i spiral :,)

[Night_Assassin]

I feel like life it really unfair. My dad was diagnosed with dementia last week. I've seen what it does and I don't want my dad to go through that. I'm trying to be strong for my mom. I live with them, to help take care of them. It's like I have 2 full time jobs. 1. I work full time in a kitchen and 2. I take care of my parents and the animals we have. I wish life could leave me alone for a little bit.

[valyxa]

When your mental health worsens, I'm always there for you. I give you my shoulder to cry on, I shower you with affection + gifts, and I treat you with nothing but kindness.

But when my mental health worsens? You threaten that it'll ruin our relationship and tell me to just "suck it up".

It's not fair. :/

[LittleMaple]

My heart feels heavy. Like something's going to happen. I'm scared. I just- I want- I dont- I dont even know. My stomach is in knots. I'm afraid.

[Fleetwood]

every time I start to feel like I'm actually doing okay, I fall apart all over again

for the first time in months I felt like things were going good at work. for a week-ish? I was doing fine. even dealt w something I never thought I was capable of. was kinda proud. and then, today. everything was so overwhelming. I started crying the moment I was alone. it must've been obvious, because my coworker helped a lot more than usual, so at least I had that. but they dump a lot of work on her, too. it isn't fair to either of us. any of my coworkers, actually. whenever we get new people, I just expect them to quit within a few days. I don't blame them, it's a very overwhelming place and job. so we're always understaffed, and we're all overworked.
And! the main reason I took this job, was because I could ride to work w a relative of mine, who actually owns the place :/ (don't work w family, seriously....) but she's starting another business? and she honestly didn't even tell me anything, so whatever. but soon enough I'm not gonna have a ride to work everyday. I feel guilty for making someone else take me, it's out of the way.
and of course I think, it's a perfect opportunity to quit. move on. but I don't want to start over, in a new environment and new people and have to do different things. I have my routine I know my coworkers and the building. I'm alone most of the day. my coworkers don't try to make me talk. I can hide in my area and do my thing.
but I'm miserable. evenings, weekends, time off, I just dread going back. I feel sick and I've lost all interest in things I enjoy.

I just want peace again. I want to feel okay.