TheComfortCorner | V.9

[wholesomeisfine]

i wish i could give better advice.
a couple weeks ago my gf came to me for advice, asking for help with intrusive thoughts.
there was nothing i could do but listen to her struggles and urge her to talk to her parents about getting therapy, because to be honest, everyone needs it.
but i really wish i could have helped more.
i want to help people, especially her because she's so closed off, but i just don't have the tools.
and i'm just a teen. i can't be a therapist, even if i want to.

am i actually helping? can someone here tell me?

[skyline]

i have been so on and off lately i feel absolutely terrible. it's like, from feeling like that image where everyone's staring at u weird with a cup in their hands every time i text someone or talk anywhere, to impending doom, to physically being unable to get out of bed because even though i slept 10 hours i am extremely fatigued and exhausted, i went to the hospital for this weeks ago and thought it was over, nope!!!!! i have so much i'm doing this weekend, stuff i have to get done. i want to have fun, but if i keep feeling like this it'll be impossible. i then go to my doctor on tuesday to take a test i'm pretty sure i already know the results of, and if they are, i have one more med switch until i need a defibrillator like i'm 80 years old. then i'm worried about going to the dentist. i was born with absolutely perfect teeth and ruined a lot of that because i was never forced to brush them when i was younger, so now i'm paying for that as an adult and have to face that fear after years and years of putting it off. i'm so tired. scared and tired.

[67Phlox]

The empty head thing is brain fog.. hh... now I'm required to drink coffee

Edit: I'm ashamed of acting in a certain way so that people feel pity for me
I mean, I understand it's good to talk about not-so-bright thoughts.. ugh, it's just wasting everyone's time if I do so

[banjokazooiey]

i feel like i’ve done some terrible trading on this game and it’s actually stressing me out and really upsetting me, why did i mess up everything i had, i literally overpaid for so much and nobody told me.

[Soy Sauce]

Do you ever think ppl say think purposely to make you cry?

[Paprikat]

She hurt me so much. I can’t even count the times. I hate her so much and I hate that the thought of her keeps me up at night. I hate that my friends love her. I hate that I’m the only one who gets treated this way, so when I try and ask for help, they say I’m overreacting. They’ve seen what she’s done to me, but when I ask for a bit more support I’m suddenly a horrible person for not appreciating the minimal support I’ve been getting.
Watching her become so close with my friends was so painful. At first they hated her. Then she told them the lies. Then they loved her.

(Just realised I switched from talking about her to talking to her)

I just wish we’d never met. I wish we never spoke on that day. I tried so hard to forgive you each time. But I can’t.
I will never forgive you. I know all your apologies were fake. I know you think it’s all a joke. I tried to tell you what you were doing and you called me “delusional” and told me to “get lost”
I hate you so much you ruined everything. Ruined friendships, my year, everything.
But in the end, i miss you so much. You are horrible, toxic and rude and I want you back.
Why? Because back then, despite all the tears, the fighting, the texting and everything that hurt so much, I was happy.
But you ruined it. I couldn’t see myself ever being happy again with or without you. You’ve changed. You are no longer the annoying person who I have a bunch of tiny arguments with, but still have a fun time with. You are ruthless, and will do anything to win a fight, and see me suffer and so much more.
Why do I have to suffer? For your entertainment? No one is helping.
I want you to leave. Please just go away, out of my head, out of my life forever and never come back.
Please come back. I miss you. I hate you.

[screamingrainfrog]

Kinda realizing how much I actually was used by him
I don't think he loved or respected me at all
It hurts to know that the first relationship you were ever in was like this, it wasn't even a relationship. I'm pretty sure he didn't want me to call him my boyfriend.
Also he just left and didn't even say goodbye to me.
it's been over a year 👍 I am still hurting
The sad thing is I'd take him back instantly if he ever wanted me, I just want to feel like someone cares about me
I want to feel loved so badly

[Paprikat]

I'm so tired, I had to take care of my nieces all day and I had a breakdown at 4 am so I hardly got any sleep. I'm not going to sleep now because that would only mess up my sleep schedule more. Honestly happy to just have a break and be able to play cute virtual pet game

[boyfail]

UGH im so annoyed / angry gooodddddd. the community college i go to makes you meet with an advisor before making your schedule (you have to make your own schedule here) and all of the appointments are booked until february. WHY ME UUGHHHHHHHSFHFH... i guess im gonna have to reschedule my freshman year to fall 2023. :/ i hate college so muycgh i wish i could get my dream job with no extra school agh. i actually seriously wish i could be a hikikomori neet for the rest of my life i woulf be SO happy no lie. just because life wouldnt be complicated anymore, and i wouldnt be stressed out about ppl being disappointed in me bcs well. i would've already gone off the deep end in that regard lmao. honestly i havent actually gone outside in. a month now? before then i hadn't been outside in idk about 7 months so ive already kinda got the hiki lifestyle down :/ but whatever it is what it is and it will always be this way so theres rlly no reason to bother about it.

uhgghh i hate being a legal adult actually. im so bad at adulting. and every time something small goes wrong like this ^ i just completely shut down and wanna cry and regress back to my comfort items/series even if i haven't thought of them in 10 years. the struggle.

[Asinine]

My cat is throwing up constantly right now and I have no way to get to a vet cause they all need appointments and I can’t call cause it’s midnight and I’m scared idk what to do I know he’s scared too cause he’ll jump up on me and want pets after and jsut he doesn’t even have any bile left I’m scared isk what to do I can’t drive abs the pet hospital is far away and when I took my last cat it cost 1k abs I don’t have it cause my dads sick too abs I’ve been spending money to help him I hate everything why

After over an hour of him doing it he finally is calming down,, I tried giving him water but when I did he panicked too much and threw it up but I don’t want him to have a empty stomach ahhhhh

My friend who has done so much for me already got me into her vet that she works at even though they were full…. I’m so blessed…
My cat has pancreatitis. But, they said other than that he’s doing well. I got meds, food, and other stuff for him. He’s already looking better since he got a IV but he still won’t eat even though it’s been over a day. I just want him to be okay. I love him so much.