TheComfortCorner | V.9

[derpy!]

i wanted to share that experience with you.
something i love and enjoy but i understand and i
wont push it further, but i cant help but to feel
disappointed): i feel stupid for being upset, but
whatever i guess

[stellulite]

Over the past year it feels as though every individual thing in my life that makes me happy has been bound by a timer where everything eventually runs out. What’s ironic is that when my situation is perceived by others, it makes no sense for me not to be happy where I am currently, but others don’t understand. I have this growing pit in my stomach that the person who makes me the happiest is starting to slowly fall out of love with me, and if eats me alive every day. It’s only been a few months since we first moved in together, which is something that we both longed for years prior. We began with only being able to see each other for a few minutes throughout the school day and occasionally seeing each other for a few hours after school once or twice a week. After being together for years we eventually spent most of our days together at my parents house after we graduated. I cherished the time we spent together even though we stayed at a place that was both out of our control. After six years of being in a relationship and two years being engaged, we finally have our first place together: one we can call ours and ours only.
I can’t help but shake the feeling that you aren’t as happy as I am. I was taking college courses and working a few days on the side feeling like I had no time to myself which always frustrated me during school, but I always spent the time I did have to myself missing you. When you’re not here my thoughts are consumed by you, I miss you so much while you’re at work. Oftentimes when you come home I feel as though you’re not excited to see me when on my end you are all I have thought about all day. I know that you are exhausted when you come home from work and want to relax and partake in your hobbies, but I wish we spent more time together. I feel like we used to spend a lot more time together than we do now. When I think about it too much, the wishes I have transform into thoughts that tell myself that you don’t love me the way you used to. The thoughts I have and the anxiety produced by them consumes me everyday. Sometimes while I’m laying next to you I just gave the other way and quietly cry to myself, something I’ve always been good at but still hurts nevertheless. A lot of the time I wonder if it’s something I’m doing wrong, but when I try to talk about it you just seem like I am being irrational, but I can’t help but feel the way I do.
It’s hard to think about my life if you’re not apart of it. Although we are both young, once February comes that will mean we have been together for seven years. Seven years. That means that we have been in a relationship for 1/3rd of my life. It’s hard to wrap my brain around. It feels like we haven’t been together for that long and that time has passed quickly, yet, it feels like we have been together for most of our lives. There’s nothing that pains me more than the thought of is not being together. I wouldn’t know what to do with myself. I can say confidently that there’s nobody else I would be able to love after being with you. I just hope to myself that I haven’t done anything wrong and that you still do love me, but the feelings I’m having right now are really hurting me. I feel like most things in my life have taken a turn for the worst and you’re the one aspect of my life that has remained consistent and I couldn’t do this without you.
Everything just hurts so bad.

Please do not reply to my post.

[lextopia]

i just want a best friend.
my boyfriend is one of them, but i need a girl friend... ever since i lost my last best friend, i've yearned for one.
i've always loved connecting with others and creating bonds, and last year in may i made a connection with an irl friend
who quickly started to become my best friend, but her bf made us stop being friends because he didn't like me. i feel so mixed about it
because i understand why she couldnt leave him just so we could be friends, but it sucks because we cant see each other
and she barely texts me, which was already typical but the moments we saw each other it was so much fun and we're different
but also very similar with the same interests and it just feels like good things are constantly being pulled away from me. i want someone i can chat with and share random stuff with, it sucks.

ever since my father passed, things have been different. i miss him so so much.
frogs remind me of him, and i love to draw them in honor of him so doing that has made me feel theraputic..
i think thats what ill be doing..

responses encouraged and welcome <3

[Soy Sauce]

i just want a best friend.
my boyfriend is one of them, but i need a girl friend... ever since i lost my last best friend, i've yearned for one.
i've always loved connecting with others and creating bonds, and last year in may i made a connection with an irl friend
who quickly started to become my best friend, but her bf made us stop being friends because he didn't like me. i feel so mixed about it
because i understand why she couldnt leave him just so we could be friends, but it sucks because we cant see each other
and she barely texts me, which was already typical but the moments we saw each other it was so much fun and we're different
but also very similar with the same interests and it just feels like good things are constantly being pulled away from me. i want someone i can chat with and share random stuff with, it sucks.

ever since my father passed, things have been different. i miss him so so much.
frogs remind me of him, and i love to draw them in honor of him so doing that has made me feel theraputic..
i think thats what ill be doing..

responses encouraged and welcome <3

I feel you, ive never really had a best friend tho. I had a really close group of friends then we split up. I kinda consider my gf as a best friend but ik she doesn’t feel the same.

She has a best friend, someone she does tons of fun stuff with. I just want that kind of relationship they have. In the summer they do everything theyre inseparable. I want that.

Ive had so many friends for years but never any best friends even as a child. Just normal friends nothing different. I was never a well liked kid, and growing up in a small town everyone was the same. You were in the same school with the same few people, so making new friends was highly unlikely. Even now that im older its still the same people.

And dont get me wrong i love hanging out with my girlfriend more than anything. Thats why i would consider her a best friend but it just feels weird to says. Because ik she doesn’t feel the same. She has someone, a real best friend. I just wish i could find what they have.

So sorry to hear about your father. I 100% sympathizes with you. Just wanted to vent about the topic. I hope everything works out for You, and you have a wonderful holidays and a happy new year!

[Spearow]

man i just feel like everyone's trashcan. gifting is like my love-language. and i can't get either if my friends to see me for even one day to give then their christmas presents. i only have two friends and i love them, but what do you do when that love isn't returned? hang on as long as you can, or let go and be even more alone?

all i want is some time with you and make you smile, i really need someone right now

[crabodile]

my first day of work is today.

this is different than anywhere i have worked before. this is official. this place has- well, its uniform code is stricter.

i mean whatever. i dont mind a uniform. the problem is that they never told us where to find them, passed the fact that they are to live at the place and not come home with us. i know this will be solved when i find my manager. its still making my gut turn with nerves, though.

the bigger problem is that i am scheduled to work an hour earlier than everyone else (though i do get off an hour earlier than them, too, so my shift will be the same length). i know this isn't because i am new. this place at a pretty good purge during covid, so only about 1/3 of the employees right now have been there for a season or more before this.

its only the second day of the season, so i know there is expected to be some issues to figure out and such.

ill just go to work, planning to arrive a little earlier than 12. if either manager is confused to why im there, ill show them my schedule on my phone. ill ask them where to get my uniform, too. it wont be that hard, im just nervous.

[Paprikat]

Everything is just so… normal. I have known it’s been like this for ages, but today I just really felt it. It’s too much and I just want to scream. When will things get better? When can I go home?
I have my family. I’m at my house. I have my friends. But I’m not truly at home. I can’t wait to just leave this year behind but going into next year is terrifying. What if it’s all gone down hill? What if I lose her? Lose them? Lose what I have left? Yes, I’ve been happy lately. Yes, things have been better but… it’s always lingering there like a burden. It could jump up at any time and I’m not sure if you know how terrifying that is.

And then there is her. I wish you would just get out of my head. Just leave. Please. I like to think that you are gone forever and it’s now just up to me to forget you and the pain you brought, but I know you won’t stop next year.

I just want to scream. I just want it to be over. When things got better, it felt like this huge relief but the moment one tiny and thing happened… it felt like my world shattered. Because I can’t bear to go back to the way things were.

I really just need to type this out. Never had a chance to say all this in one go. I had a diary but honestly writing in it is so exhausting. I love this site, it’s an escape when things suck and even when things are good I still love it.
I’m not ready for next year. But I’ll get through it anyway, somehow. <3

This was pretty unspecific… basically just having/had some family/friendship issues and today was extra bad. I hope tomorrow will be ok

[lextopia]

i just want a best friend.
my boyfriend is one of them, but i need a girl friend... ever since i lost my last best friend, i've yearned for one.
i've always loved connecting with others and creating bonds, and last year in may i made a connection with an irl friend
who quickly started to become my best friend, but her bf made us stop being friends because he didn't like me. i feel so mixed about it
because i understand why she couldnt leave him just so we could be friends, but it sucks because we cant see each other
and she barely texts me, which was already typical but the moments we saw each other it was so much fun and we're different
but also very similar with the same interests and it just feels like good things are constantly being pulled away from me. i want someone i can chat with and share random stuff with, it sucks.

ever since my father passed, things have been different. i miss him so so much.
frogs remind me of him, and i love to draw them in honor of him so doing that has made me feel theraputic..
i think thats what ill be doing..

responses encouraged and welcome <3

I feel you, ive never really had a best friend tho. I had a really close group of friends then we split up. I kinda consider my gf as a best friend but ik she doesn’t feel the same.

She has a best friend, someone she does tons of fun stuff with. I just want that kind of relationship they have. In the summer they do everything theyre inseparable. I want that.

Ive had so many friends for years but never any best friends even as a child. Just normal friends nothing different. I was never a well liked kid, and growing up in a small town everyone was the same. You were in the same school with the same few people, so making new friends was highly unlikely. Even now that im older its still the same people.

And dont get me wrong i love hanging out with my girlfriend more than anything. Thats why i would consider her a best friend but it just feels weird to says. Because ik she doesn’t feel the same. She has someone, a real best friend. I just wish i could find what they have.

So sorry to hear about your father. I 100% sympathizes with you. Just wanted to vent about the topic. I hope everything works out for You, and you have a wonderful holidays and a happy new year!

thank you so so much<3 this means a lot to see someone respond
i just wish people talked to me more jngrnjg haha
im sorry to hear about your predicament too, it sucks we're in similar boats.
i get jealous when my bf hangs with his friends because i just miss that so much, so i get it!
i grew up in a small town as well where everyone is close-minded and are rednecks, so it is a struggle indeed to find genuine people.

[.euphoric]

i just want a best friend.
my boyfriend is one of them, but i need a girl friend... ever since i lost my last best friend, i've yearned for one.
i've always loved connecting with others and creating bonds, and last year in may i made a connection with an irl friend
who quickly started to become my best friend, but her bf made us stop being friends because he didn't like me. i feel so mixed about it
because i understand why she couldnt leave him just so we could be friends, but it sucks because we cant see each other
and she barely texts me, which was already typical but the moments we saw each other it was so much fun and we're different
but also very similar with the same interests and it just feels like good things are constantly being pulled away from me. i want someone i can chat with and share random stuff with, it sucks.

ever since my father passed, things have been different. i miss him so so much.
frogs remind me of him, and i love to draw them in honor of him so doing that has made me feel theraputic..
i think thats what ill be doing..

responses encouraged and welcome <3

I feel you, ive never really had a best friend tho. I had a really close group of friends then we split up. I kinda consider my gf as a best friend but ik she doesn’t feel the same.

She has a best friend, someone she does tons of fun stuff with. I just want that kind of relationship they have. In the summer they do everything theyre inseparable. I want that.

Ive had so many friends for years but never any best friends even as a child. Just normal friends nothing different. I was never a well liked kid, and growing up in a small town everyone was the same. You were in the same school with the same few people, so making new friends was highly unlikely. Even now that im older its still the same people.

And dont get me wrong i love hanging out with my girlfriend more than anything. Thats why i would consider her a best friend but it just feels weird to says. Because ik she doesn’t feel the same. She has someone, a real best friend. I just wish i could find what they have.

So sorry to hear about your father. I 100% sympathizes with you. Just wanted to vent about the topic. I hope everything works out for You, and you have a wonderful holidays and a happy new year!

thank you so so much<3 this means a lot to see someone respond
i just wish people talked to me more jngrnjg haha
im sorry to hear about your predicament too, it sucks we're in similar boats.
i get jealous when my bf hangs with his friends because i just miss that so much, so i get it!
i grew up in a small town as well where everyone is close-minded and are rednecks, so it is a struggle indeed to find genuine people.

i feel you! i am SO sorry about your father ❤️🐸 you can pm me if you want, and we can be buddies!

[.euphoric]

🥹 i honestly just. want someone to talk to me?? infodump to me about their special interest even?? or something? i wanna talk to people , i feel vulnerable but im gonna come out and say it that i feel so lonely and for the new year i want New Friends, that is all im wishing for

please feel free to pm me! i am always looking for new friends