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[Serious.]

My head is EXTREMELY wonky I do not understand

[ToxicDark2173]

While working I saw a pigeon get hit by a car 🥺😭 and I feel bad I couldnt do anything to help it. But I just can't stop unseeing it..

[LaceWhiskey]

stress, stress, stress

i'm conflicted. a part of me is so happy that there was interest, but was it truly that or just interest for free things they can use? i don't know. i'm trying to be positive and be happy, because there's people in my life that look highly of me, but i feel like a failure. that my work isn't good enough, that i should be doing more. i feel like it's falling flat because my brain isn't all that creative. i'm better at improving on an already existing thing. i can't do that here though.

from wake to sleep of trying, working, but it's not good enough. i keep scrapping and redoing it. i'm really sorry.

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While working I saw a pigeon get hit by a car 🥺😭 and I feel bad I couldn't do anything to help it. But I just can't stop unseeing it..

Internet hugs~

Experienced something similar and it broke my heart. It's really awful. I hope you're able to mend and allow yourself to think about something else; to heal.

[darkspawn]

I’m just having a really rough day. I feel like I can’t do anything right. Every thing I do just makes him more mad at me. I’m just going to stay out the way today

[viles]

• i just...idk. i feel Not Good. i don't have words to describe my feelings and that's part of it, yk? i'm just... Dumb:tm: idk kjfhkfjgh it stings every time i think it but it won't leave my brain. i used to think i was So Intelligent and then i got depressed. and like,, yeah i have low self-esteem. thinking negative things about myself isn't exactly New to me. i just,, idk. my brain was the one thing i could rely on. i considered myself to be a horrible person and unlovable BUT my one redeeming quality was that i was moderately smart. but now idk. i just think i'm irredeemable lol. and idk. i just....UGH i hate that i know my iq now. i hate it so much. this number won't leave my head i don't like haivng htis knowledge. like it wasnt even...an undesirable result?? it's just the simple fact that i have a number and that's it. that's the number i have ykyk??? like no matter what i do that will always be my number and i just. hmm. idk it's just hard for me to live with, that's all.
  this was supposed to be about how i haven't felt like talking to my friends and like idk. i've talked to on eof them but it's only been in like short bursts ykyk they keep asking to hang out and part of me wants to do it but the other part of me doesnt want to and that part of me tends to convince the other one into not doin git KJSHDFK i mean i've been busy this week anyway bc Holidays:tm: but like still idk. i'm just...idk. Words, ykyk?
  
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[.Marigold.]

Here’s a cute bunny. I hope he comforts someone. I hope all of you feel better soon.

[Guest]

i thought we were the perfect duo. in your words, the "pimped up duo".
i thought we were in good terms. i did nothing wrong, you did nothing wrong. at least, i think i did nothing wrong. i don't know what i did to deserve this.
but it really, really hurts.
it's been less than twenty four hours and i've spent so much of my day crying over this and crying over you. i'm supposed to be going to j's place and hanging out with him to pass the time until you got to your hotel.
but now i don't even know if you've left or not. and now i don't even know what to do. i cancelled on j, i cancelled on d. i cancelled on everyone.
i miss e. i want her to call me so i can get my mind off you. but she's busy with friends. which i'm glad she gets to see, but i just wish i was there.
i'm really hurt. i don't know what i did to deserve this. i would originally say it's because i'm younger than you, but that's never been an issue.
is it because i'm not as good as you? i know i'm not. i don't have the talents you do, or the things you do. i don't know how to talk to people like you do. is that it? me just being less than you?
i just want closure. i want to know what i did wrong. i thought i was growing as a person, i thought i was becoming a better person. i didn't think i was the person i was before. but maybe i still am.
please text me, i'm begging you.
i just want closure. you don't need to stay or anything, just please. please.

[❦Acidic-Tea❦]

There’s nothing quite like reaching out for help and getting met with anger. Restoring to playing games 24/7 so that I can have constant stimulation and never have to think about anything <3

I wish someone understood

[Soy Sauce]

You feel like this in the winter. I get it just as bad in the summer. I don’t have friends. Contrary to what you believe, your the closest friend I have. So in the summer when I don’t get to see you or anyone else everything gets worse. It doesn’t help that you don’t seem to be interested in seeing me. Your always with her. Going places, doing things, if we do hang out i’m kicked out early because your going somewhere with her. I’m scared for the summer, we fight when we are separated for to long. I don’t want to have to turn off my phone so I don’t text you. Spending 7+ hours not talking to a soul. Its not heathy, you don’t want to know what I do in the summers. How I occupy my time. I hate the summer. I hate being lonely. Right now you say “we aren’t that close” “we don’t even talk” but when summer comes around you will. You will spend weeks on end together. Take trips, go to the beach, have fun. While im stuck at home hating life. But your happy. So part of me is excited for summer. You’ll be happy again! So summer will roll around like it always does. You will get happy, you’ll go on trips with her, go to the beach, hang out. And me? I’ll sit at home, i’ll smile and laugh when you tell me about all the stuff you did. I will be understanding when you promise to do something with me but can’t. Cause something came up and your hanging with carley. I will smile and nod when you say “this year will be different” same as you did last year, same as everyone does when I tell them. But you will be happy, and thats what really matters to me. So I will stay home without speaking to a soul for months, and you will hang out with her daily. Then school will start and for a few more weeks you’ll still hang out.
But eventually you’ll let me back in. I will hear about everything you did and i’ll smile. I’ll make up some story about how I didn’t have time this year for fun. To mask the fact that I sat at home all day everyday for three months doing nothing except hurting. But I can’t wait to see you smile again. I can’t wait to see you happy! Summer depression hurts. It hurts to see everyone thriving all summer long. While I just wish for all of it to end.

I can feel it starting. Winter isnt even over and the only thing on my mind is summer. Its like being on the edge of the cliff. When im around other people im perfectly balanced. But as soon as im alone i start to sway, i try and regain that balance but it wont come. Im just waiting for the day that I fall.

[Devilish]

My husband and I hosted Christmas this year in our new house - his side of the family and mine (well, just those that live in the state). About 35 people. We were going to tell the family about expecting a new little family member. I was 12 weeks, doctor said it was pretty safe to tell now. Started miscarrying Christmas Day. I still made the turkey, gravy, mashed potatoes, and a pecan pie, all while going through my own hell. It is unbelievably hard to host so many people and pretend that everything is fine when it is totally not.
Looking back, things that used to make me upset truly do not matter. An overwhelming college project, being sick for a week, family/friend drama, a boy is mad at me. I could go on. This may be the worst thing ever.