Write a Letter You Cannot Send (Read the Rules!)

[Soy Sauce]

Dear b,

I try so hard to express how much I love you. How much I love learning about you and planning our future. How much I love the small things you do for me like fixing my glasses, making me lunch, rubbing my stomach when I get cramps, or teaching me to dance. I love the memories we made together dancing in the gazebo or kissing in the rain. You make me so happy it scares me sometimes, because I want you to know that but when you say things like how you think I hate you or how you think I dont love you (jokes or not) it makes me sad. I love you so much and I know i’m bad a showing it, and im trying my best not to be like her. Im trying to be someone you want to love. I want you to feel the way I feel about you. I want you in my life, however long or short it might be. I want you here forever, but I want you to be happy. I want to be the person you run to with exciting news, or cry to when your day goes bad. I want you to trust me enough to tell me your mad. I want to have better reactions than “im sorry” which I know you hate. I want to be better for you. I want to make you happy. But if i don’t succeed, in the end i just want to see you smile again. Maybe im not the one who can make you smile, but i promise i will try until you tell me to stop. I love you, and i know how much you hate sorrys. So for the last time, im sorry for everything.
I love you.

E

[cecil1a]

Thank you. Thank you for everything you’ve ever done for me. i’ll never get to see you again, but I want to thank you for everything you’ve done for me. Thank you for always being there for me no matter what. Thank you for making my life better. Thank you I really mean it. I wonder where you are now, I wish you were here with me. When the day comes that we are reunited, I hope you’re happy with all you’ve done. Maybe I won’t be able to find you, but that is fine with me. I will forever remember you, and all you’ve done for me. No matter what happens, I miss you.

Sincerely, the girl you met in first grade

[derpy!]

k,
why cant you see how much youre hurting me?
everything is not fine. it never will be.
- heartbroken, me

c,
you make me feel warm, cozy, and comforted.
i think i like you as more than a friend.
i love your pretty green eyes.
- your friend, me

n,
im sorry.
you deserve a better friend.
- apologies, me

[nikilisa]

dear a,

I know we haven't interacted for very long, but I'm so beyond lucky to have met you. I was actually intimidated by you at first, as I'm thinking "who is this crazy talented pianist in my vocal class?" As a violinist who was forced to take voice for my degree in music education, I felt incredibly embarrassed that you heard me sing terribly that day. I didn't want you to think I was any less of a musician, given that you accompany everyone's songs so well. We didn't talk much for the first couple of months of the semester, and I didn't think anything of it. I actually cried the night before when my professor gave me a song to sing in Spanish, terrified that you'd crucify me on the pronunciation. For some reason you were much nicer than I expected, helping me with the diction before I put pitch to the words. Back in November I needed to find a pianist to accompany me on the violin for something important on Dec 14th. I asked around 10 pianists before I finally bit the bullet and asked you. To my surprise, you said yes. Beyond voice class, you were awkward to work with but the more we met up I could tell you felt more comfortable around me. We worked on my violin concerto and sight read some stuff for fun. Supposedly one hour sessions turned stretched into two or when I had to leave. It's actually scary how similar we are. You're socially awkward like me and like to hide in a practice room. You don't have much friends or a social life outside of school. You're incredibly harsh on yourself as a musician, even if people say you're amazing. Well, I think you're amazing and I am inspired to be like you. I wish I could just have a fraction of your talent. Sometimes I wonder why you'd even spend time with someone like me. I love your smile and wouldn't change your personality for the world. You have the cutest laugh and I love it when you talk about things from your hometown. When we went to that concert I still look at the picture we took multiple times a day. I thought it was romantic that you insisted on playing your jury pieces for me before we went, which took two hours and almost made us late. You said no one would listen to you for that long, which I find ridiculous because I would listen to you play all day. Thank you for trusting me with something so vulnerable. That car ride back to campus was hilarious, I'm sorry I got lost and took the wrong road. You didn't seem to mind. I don't know what is going on in your head and if this is all a big misunderstanding, but I am falling hard for you. I thought it was sweet that you offered to get dinner after the competition a couple days ago, and I noticed that was the first time you initiated. Seriously, you need to stop paying when I'm the one taking you out in the first place. I'm going to meet up with you to rehearse some new pieces in a couple days, hopefully we can hang out after. I still have to take you for a driving lesson. I want to ask you to come ice skating with me, but I'm nervous to ask. We've eaten out together three times already, do you enjoy my company? I like you, I think you're special, but I don't know how to handle these feelings or let you know how I feel. Hopefully I'll have enough courage to tell you before you graduate.

Sincerely,
me

[nasa]

j,
thank you for showing me what
healthy love and a healthy relationship looks like.
thank you for always encouraging me to
be the best version of myself. thank you
for making me feel wanted and supported all
the time. you are my best friend and always will
be. i’m sorry that i have to destroy the
beautiful relationship we have. i love you
forever, my honey. please don’t go away
after this

[Espresso. ༺]

Debbythis one makes me cringe. Sorry for making you read the letter that was here before this edit, but tbf you were stalking me so like i guess we're even. Thanks for being my friend again, Bunno Girlo

[Midnight_Shadow18450]

Dear Grandma,

It’s 2 years today since you passed. I miss you so much. Christmas just hasn’t been the same the last 2 years, and I don’t think it ever will be. I just wish that I had gotten to call you one last time. To see you open your Christmas presents (your favourite Lipton Tea and Shortbread biscuits). To eat one last roast dinner with you. You made me smile when I was down. You gave me so many wonderful childhood memories. I wear the watch you gave me every day at work. I have the bowl I used to have jelly and ice cream in displayed in my display unit. I will cherish that bowl forever.
I love you Grandma xxx

[Soy Sauce]

B,

All i do is make you feel bad im sorry. Im sorry im such a bother. Im sorry im such an awful girlfriend. Im sorry im so bad at listening. Im so sorry.

[chevi]

dearest eb,

i really miss you! I hope youre doing great right now in your life and its full of good music and chocolate covered strawberries! I hope you can forgive me. i think about you so much and i sometimes wonder if you think about me? this feels a little like when we used to email each other after you'd blocked me on everything but we still found the time to talk. i hope your days are full of silk sheets and rhododendrons. i hope your thoughts are only good. i think youre such a smart person with the whole world ahead of you, dont let something like what i did to you hinder your movement. i hope youre laying on the softest of blankets right now or looking at the stars or holding hands with somebody new. i hope you find what youre looking for out there, and although i never really said it when it mattered, i love you as a person.

forever fonder, c.

[HennHenn]

Dear J,

I don't miss you. I don't hate you either. I just wish you had never entered my life. I wish I'd been stronger than I was back then, wish I had seen the signs. I will never make mistakes like that again. I still have panic attacks about you. I guess I should thank you for teaching me that not all people you meet will be amazing.

From, L