TheComfortCorner | V.9

[נוריאל]

Honestly it might be time for me to consider quitting chickensmoothie, lol. ^_^
I have no real friends; nobody speaks to me.
Trading is utterly impossible at this point.
It just feels hopeless.

[cainhurst]

i thought last night was just an off night for me, but i'm once again laying in bed feeling. strange. there's this pit of. anxiety? in my chest (with no particular trigger i can identify). if it's gonna go like last night, i'll end up feeling like my,,, very being is trying to float out of my body? i don't even know how to describe it. feels a little like depersonalisation ig, but,,, also not. my head goes light and i feel floaty and like somehow everything is too fast and too slow at the same time, which could potentially be pleasant without the restless pressure in my chest? physical sensations also get wonky. my head is on my pillow and my pillow is incredibly soft, but somehow it starts feeling. hard. spiky? like. i'm aware it's soft and it feels soft but also like my head is resting on a very soft and smooth yet hard and jagged surface. "cyril none of that makes sense" i know!!! and i hate it. because i get so caught up in analyzing that feeling and how it doesn't make any logical sense and how it's comfortable yet uncomfortable. and i can't close my eyes because if i close my eyes the feeling of my consciousness jumping against some inner cage and floating and everything being slow and fast and just off somehow intensifies and. i dunno. man i just wanna go to bed please,,, what's wrong with my brain lately. wish i had the right words to even accurately describe these sensations but i don't lol

[marciplier]

just feeling really crappy. i feel really lonely and isolated. i kinda feel like nobody wants to talk to me and my company is bad and not enjoyable,, why else does nobody want to talk to me? i drive away every person i meet maybe i am just not a good person and no matter what i do i just cannot improve a bad and ugly personality

[angst]

Please just leave me alone. I'm so tired of this. I know you've all united in your hate for me, now just leave me alone.

I gave away everything I loved because I don't deserve it. All of those things I've been collecting for years that I loved and made me so happy? Gone, not mine anymore. I'm going to give everything I love away and crawl into the pits of hell, just for you.

Please don't hurt my friends and the people I care about. They want nothing to do with you. If you want this to be over, then stop dragging it on further. I know you're watching, just stop. There are worse people than me in this world.

Tormenting someone who hurt you doesn't make you the bigger person, it makes you just as bad. I know you're angry, and I'm sorry. I want to help you, but there is nothing I can do now. I am begging for mercy, please. I don't want trouble.

I know absolutely nothing I have to say to you will make a difference. Nothing I say matters to you, and the only ones who can stop this are yourselves. Please don't hurt me. I'll give you all my money and everything I own if you just leave me alone, please.

I wish July 31st was as far as I went. I know you can't forgive me, but I'm so sorry. Let me rot like a corpse by myself, please.

hey. I don't know what happened, but I do know you deserve love, joy, and to have fun. I hope you're able to find peace somehow.

[angst]

Honestly it might be time for me to consider quitting chickensmoothie, lol. ^_^
I have no real friends; nobody speaks to me.
Trading is utterly impossible at this point.
It just feels hopeless.

yeah, I get this post so much. this site is such a strange social scene! feels like it really, really works for some people and not for others. and I've also felt that people have grown strangely picky and choosey about even the most basic trades?

I hope you're able to make good choices for yourself without letting anxiety take over, and that you can do what's best for you! you deserve to thrive in cool internet communities that make you feel good about yourself!

sending you lots of love and peace.

[Captain. A. Stark.]

someone i used to know passed away
i want to remember him but im struggling to feel
everything is just too much
all i want to do is reconnect with him one last time
before i go back to drowning in all my other problems
but i can't
all i can feel is anger and stress and depression from everything
else in my life that i can't handle
i hope he knows that even though i didnt know him too well, he changed me and i won't ever forget that
i'll think about you my friend

[yuukamei]

I wish people would actually be honest with me for once.

[Kayara]

My sister and I have been watching NatGeo's Limitless w/ chris hemsworth and I'm relating too much. It's basically talking about the body's stress response and how that effects you and of course, a few things people have done about it. I was aware that starting around two years ago at least it became very apparent to me that I had symptoms of bad anxiety but I knew why,, it was a stressful and scary time in my life but after I was mostly recovered from that occurrence, I just tried not to think about it anymore. Like what did I really have to be stressed about, it'll go away eventually, little by little. No, not necessarily. And on top of that, it doesn't just effect me psychologically, it could be the reason why I feel so sick so suddenly when I speak in front of other people. The reason why I tremble when I cry. The reason why sometimes my heart beat seems to fast. I considered hypochondriasis because I am a hundred percent liable to do that :') but before I watched this or knew some of the information I've become aware after watching it, I've had these moments and,, idk. I've watched 3 episodes now and all of them having me thinking, eHM, that's my symptoms- but IS THAT THE hypochondriatic tendency talking orrrrrrr do I need to get some tests done. I hate the doctor tho..
but I wanna live as long as possible and even it's not as simple as being more mindful about controlling my stress levels, that's terrifying but I should know if my heart is okay since the odd beating it happens regularly.

I just wanted to get that off my chest without any of my family being like hEYy-

[skyline]

why am i so empathetic towards people who don't deserve it.
they hurt me and my friends. yet i feel remorse for cutting them off

[Sullivan Maurus]

I have officially given up. You don't listen or care.