TheComfortCorner | V.9

[viles]

• i hate the sound of my own breathing i need it to stop but i cant stop breathing im very overwhelmed right now dsjkhskfdhsf why am i like this why is everything like this i just want to be Well Adjusted and not the type of person who cant handle sounds,, like i was doing fine but then i couldnt Do The Thing and all i could hear was their breathing and it was so bad and now im in my room but my breathing sounds like theirs and i just want it to stop i need the sounds to stop sdkjhsdkjfhk
  
  edit: i wasnt going to talk about it but now i want to,,, this song (monster by skillet) it was just,, it was the first song that i really felt Seen by, yk? yk now i know my 'anger issues' i had a kid were actually like,, Autistic Meltdowns:tm: but growing up i obviously didn't know that and i just felt,, like a monster LMAO,, like idk i'm listening to the lyrics right now and i just,, i remember listening to this when i was very young, wide-eyed bc i didn't know other people felt that way, too,, and yk maybe it's not my parents' fault but its' just....sad,, my young self didn't deserve feel that way,, they didn't deserve to be treated like they were...Troubled or An Issue,, they deserved kindness and love and i just,, idk i dont have the words,, i'm just,, incredibly sad as i listen to this song,, and i guess,,, yk this is why i have such a hard time when my family tries to say i'm not autistic,,, because i just wanna scream at them 'then why did you treat me this way' yk?? honestly i just,, idk i have more thoughts but i shouldnt keep talking about this i need to think about something else or im gonna wanna actually yell at my family and i cant do that if i want to have a place to live ykyk

[marciplier]

:')

[shinx.]

finally got a job interview !! it's literally today in 3 hours and 13 minutes. it'll only be temporary, like very temporary but i am so terrified. i probably won't get it, but the tills have always been a major source of anxiety in me getting a job, i know they'll train me up but what if i'm too slow for the tills and getting change out for the customer): and what if i end up forgetting how to use it after they train me up
i'm so stressed and scared ahrijlkems

i got the job !!!!!! i start next week and i found out what i'm doing which won't include tills so i'm really happy. just stressed since it'll be busy because i'll be working during christmas/boxing day and the leadup to those days so hopefully it goes okay ahrkelms

[rover]

Who you were is dead, and now I must mourn you. However, I simply cannot bring myself to. I almost wonder if the person I knew you as was ever real to begin with. I used to think that all that I am was because of you, but now I see that all that you were was because of me. I hope you become a better person, because it really is never too late to come home, and while I'll open the door for you, I'll never trust you as it is the scorpion's nature to sting.

This hits close to "home." Except I am the listener, and the one in mind the speaker.

[×Seven of Nine×]

I'm tired of me too.

[changbin]

oh bfr /nbh.

[viles]

• i found pictures of him. i can't cry because i'm not at home tonight but i want to,, i won't be able to go home until monday so i guess i'll just have to wait to have this breakdown until then sgdfgdfg /hj
  
  edit: i am just,, i read some of through my old posts on cs bc i was having a breakdown (yes i know i said i would put it off im not good at doing that sorry) and i just fjkkjfgjdfgh i dont have words i need words sdkjfhsjfh my brain is just jdkshff yk??? i hope people know that when i keysmash on this specific thread it's not bc im laughing its because i am Experiencing Emotions and Thoughts that i don't know how to express through words shdkfjhskdfh idk my dad was right wehn he said that thing however long ago like dsjkffhksjhfk i just why fgdjfhg why why why oh god i just reminded myself of another post i hate myself and i hate my past self even more i am just sdfkjdhfshdfhkdsj this is too much i need to be home i need to be on my bed so i can cry and hit my head if i need to skdfhfhsd i am so tired of being me can i be someone else please dsjhkjsfh i dont know how to end this this didnt make me feel better i want to sleep but i dont deserve a break from the emotional pain i dont sdeserve any sort of comofrt why did i write this im just trying to be edgy oml shkfhkshfksjh i am going to stop now

[Espresso. ༺]

This hits close to "home." Except I am the listener, and the one in mind the speaker.

I don't know you, nor am I the one you hurt so I can't speak for them. But the person I speak of is someone who I know doesn't feel any remorse or hurt for what they've done, and I think if you feel this hurt over what happened, you're a much better person than the one I have in mind. I hope things work out better for you than they will me, and I wish for only peace for you.

[bubbaberriboo]

im so tired i wish this would end i wish i could just move on i wish i could just say i’m done and i don’t care i wish everything was okay it’s not it might not ever be i’m just being dragged through this nightmare every day against my will even and it doesn’t stop i want it to stop i’m so tired so so tired
i’m having a mental breakdown. i’m not okay i just want to be okay

[Soy Sauce]

All I do is make everything worse for everyone. I wish I could be better. I wish I was more helpful. All I do is start fights and hurt you. All I do is hurt you. All I do is hurt everyone.