When My Life Began (Novel thingeh. Please Post!)

[ZombiePoodle]

Haha, oh yes, and I am still working on writing more of it. ^^

[ZombiePoodle]

Ch. 3 is from Spencer's POV by the way, and I'll probably have a few other chapters that might be from his point later too.

Ch. 3
Should I tell her? I asked myself for the umpteenth time, No, it might scare her too much...
I glanced over to the girl walking by my side...Lilly. She was beautiful, her red-brown mane of hair flowing freely over her shoulders, her eyes gleaming angerily in the beams of moonlight that shone down on us. I was at war with myself because of her. Should I tell her or no?
I wanted to, so badly. But, how could I, when it could push her away from me?
I looked away when her eyes flashed in my direction. She knew I was watching her though, so why bother?
It was hard to admit it, but she made me weak. I wanted nothing more than to hold her in my arms. I was, undoubtably, in love with a girl who barely knew me. That was the big problem, she didn't know me as well as I knew her.
I blinked, as, watching Lilly, I saw she was shivering. So, I did the only thing I could think to do, the only thing that any gentleman would do. I took off my black leather jacket and folded it around her shoulders. I trailed my hands down her shoulders longer than I needed to to make sure she held on to my jacket. She looked at me in surprise, but supplied me with a small smile.
"You looked cold." I whispered, shoving my hands in my pockets and looking away, into the dark forest and hoping she wouldn't see my blush.
"Thanks," I heard her whisper back to me, then she looked away.
An owl hooted in the distance, cutting through the darkness like a knife through butter. Lilly jumped back, pulling up against me and holding my hand in a tight embrace.
"Scared of a little owl?" I teased her, forgetting for a moment. I shouldn't have, I should have realized...
I could see tears glistening in the moonlight, trailing slowly down her cheeks. She shoved my jacket into my arms, puching me back, and started away from me, fast.
"Wait! Lilly, I'm sorry! I didn't...didn't mean to upset you." I called, racing after her, almost tripping over twigs and bushes in my haste.
Lilly stopped somewhere ahead of me, leaning up against a tree.
"No, you wouldn't know, would you?" I heard her say as I came up behind her, putting my jacker over her shoulders again.
"They won't stop Spencer. The nightmares. They keep coming, because it killed them. Everyone says it was a car crash, but I know better..." Her words were almost lost in the whisper of wind, they were so soft, but I heard her all the same. And I did know. I knew about her nightmares.
I wanted to comfort her. I wanted to wrap her in a hug and hold her. I wanted to kiss away the tears staining her beautiful face. I wanted to tell her.
I love you...I love you...I love you. I wanted to tell her, but I didn't.
"Let's just get you home..." I whispered instead, grabbing her hand and pulling her along close to me. She didn't pull away as I thought she would, quite to the contrary, she walked even closer to me, clutching my hand like a lifeline.
"I can help you if you want." I said teasingly, trying to lighten the silence.
"What?" She asked, looking at me like I was a rainbow pony from outerspace...
"Oh, y'know, becoming a super hero. I can help with all sorts of crazy fighting moves."
"Uh...What?" She said again, an even more confused look on her face.
"Haven't you ever watched Batman? Getting over his fear, becoming his fear...?"
"Oh...I'm not becoming a super hero."
"Why not?" I asked in mock incredulity.
"Ugh, just...ugh." Was all she said, crossing her arms and making an angry face at me. I just laughed a bit, and she couldn't resist a smile.
"Almost there..." I said, forgetting for a second.
I cringed when she gave me a look.
"Yeah..." She sighed.
I looked away, staring off into the distance and thinking to myself,
Why didn't you tell me it was going to be this hard mother? Why did you let me know beforehand? What if I mess it up? It's true you didn't make me love her, at first I thought she was just another pretty girl...but, because you let me meet her...Why make it so hard? I love her...I just wish she would love me back...

Sorry it's a short chapter *facepalm* But I'm just no good at writing from a boy's POV and stuff. Hope it's still okay ^^
Hopefully I'll be starting Ch. 4 soon! ^^

[PercabethObsessed]

just bookmarking this so I can read it because you read mine sorry don't have time right now though...

[ZombiePoodle]

Alright, cool ^^

[cujo.]

this is great

[ZombiePoodle]

Thanks x3
I'll try to get the next chapter up later.

[distraction;]

ok thanks!:)

[ZombiePoodle]

Ch. 4
Standing on the porch of mine and Eli's perfect little house, I turned and faced Spencer.
"Thank you Spencer, for walking me home and stuff." I murmered, with a trace of sleepiness in my muffled voice. I handed his warm jacket back to him, and he took it, folding it over his arm.
"Yeah, don't mention it." He said dismissivly. He stared at me for a moment, creating a knot in my stomach, before extending his right hand towards me. I slowly, and warily, extended my own hand, and folded it into his palm. He smiled and flipped our hands over before taking his away. A single, beautiful, picked lily flower rested in the palm of my hand.
I might have gasped a bit, how did it get there?
It was crazy, it was magical.
I cradled the flower to my chest, a smile turning my lips upward towards my eyes.
He smiled back with an almost tender look in his eyes before turning abruptly away from me. "I should go." He said, already walking away.
I opened my mouth to say something, but I didn't know what. Finnaly, dashing after Spencer, I called out for him to wait. I wrapped my arms around his neck when I caught up to him. I saw surprise wash over his face.
"Thanks again for, like, walking me home." I whispered, pulling back to look up at him.
"Yeah," He grabbed my hand and brought me closer. "Um, Lillian, I..." His quiet voice sent shivers down my spine, and his arms were warm around me.
"Yeah?" I looked at him expectantly, and what I saw caused my heart to thump painfully in my chest. His features were illuminated by the lights on the house. He looked like an angel felled from Heaven.
But suddenly he pushed me away, emotions battling across his face like they were starting WWIII. "Never mind." He said finnaly.
"Um, okay." I said dejectedly. It sounded like he wanted to say important. I stared at the gravel under my shoe, trying not to let him see the look on my face. I was crushed that he'd pushed me away, but I shouldn't be. It wasn't like that...we'd barely just met, and I knew next to nothing about him. So why was I so infatuated by him? Why did he send my heart thumping painfully just by being near?
"I should go, and you need to get inside before Eli gets too worried." Spencer an his hand through his hair, looking at me worridly, as if I'd tell him he wasn't aloud to leave. And like he'd have to obey me.
"Okay," I whispered, refusing to point out that Eli had probably forgotton I even existed for the moment.
Fingers tilted my chin upward so I was looking at him again.
"Yes?" I asked quietly, blinking as his eyes met mine.
He bent his head down and pressed his lips to my cheek.
"Maybe I'll see you tomarrow..." His warm lips moved with his words and each slightly uneven breath against my ear spread shivers along my spine. I felt as if I were melting, like my legs couldn't hold me up, even though they did.
"Ummm..." I almost hummed, a slightly confused exspression evident on my face as he moved back.
Spencer smiled and turned around, letting go of the hand I didn't realize he'd been holding.
"Goodnight Lillian," He said, without looking back. And, as I watched him leave, I thought I heard him whisper, "Dream of me..." I dismissed this without a second thought.
But, after cleaning up and putting Spencer's lily in a vase on my nightstand. After checking on Eli, and changing into my sleepwear. After everything that night, and after falling in to bed...
I dreamt of him.

[Jinx.]

This is brilliant! It's amazing, and I really love it.

[ZombiePoodle]

Thanks!
I'll try to type some more soon as I can find where I put my notebook...