Hi I am starting a BPD support chat

[dillydallydarlene]

Hi, I'm not sure if this is allowed (if this can stay i will make this first page look nicer and more organized and page rules very apparrent) , all I know is I'm on here alot I enjoy this communitie and sometimes other's who have BPD (like me) or other things need to just be able to either

A. Get things out
B. need some support (just some time to be heard)
C. Just general comradory
D. Or ask BPD related Questions
E. expressing experience's
F. sharing knowledge

On here there will be rules we do have to abide by.

~ Chickensmoothie and age safe topics.
~ Also to include Trigger warnings on your post if it
could be triggering to others.
~ No fighting.
~ No medical advice as we are not Dr.'s and this is
not where to come to get advice for that.
~ No information that is too personal/Name's etc.
~ No Med discussion/ Comparison till it is.
confirmed to not go against CS's rule's

All of Chickensmoothie's Rule's Apply here.

I thought it would be nice having a mutual page like this for those that are affected, a safe place to discuss with those in common or to even just come and Learn about BPD, whether it affects you or someone you love. (if this is not allowed on CS feel free to remove)

Having a place to be heard and that you can go and relate to others or ask questions and learn about it . Can highly help those with this disorder and without. Also just having and Access to a place (cause not all of us do) a place where your not alone can do wonders for those with BPD.

Again if not allowed here on CS please delete or message to inform me and I will take down.

[dillydallydarlene]

Hi, I am dillydallydarlene

I was recently diagnosed with BPD along with my other stuff, and I chose to make this post because I recently had an episode and am still feeling weird, I don't have many to talk to.

I have a question I can ask maybe it can help someone else too.

Is Brain fog and prolonged out of body feel a thing that others with BPD experience?

Also I can tell about my episode. Maybe this can help someone not feel so different from others.

I couldnt sleep the night before and had woken up early and was good and productive, i had a virtual Dr.s appointment at 10:30 so me and my fiance talked with her together cause she had taken me off meds and I was having adverse affects (apparrently the meds where helping) so I asked if I could get back on them and she told me the side effects where worse then she previously thought. Which after further discussion has now made me weary of them. She suggests another that as well has some bad effects. At this point I just gave up and cried inside because it felt hopeless like things weren't ever gonna improve. After the appointment I shut down my Fiance called onto work and I almost went onto a 72 hour hold, but I slept it off felt eh better? Then I went down and talked to my Grandma and lost my self again and that night my eye's where messing with me it looked like i had steam coming off my hand and like nats were infront of my eyes also jolts of blue lightning moving side ways, and the guitar that was across the room from me the top part showed up super close behind my phone and either looked like fingers or a face it creeped me out so i put my phone down to go to sleep, i didnt know if that was happening due to my meds being taken away, or exhausten, or hunger or from bumping my plush rabbit on my head cause it felt fuzzy and weird and was bothering me.
I have a 2 year old daughter and this past week she has been able to see that I am off, we haven't gone to the park and Babba (dad) has been home more, I've had less energy etc. I feel bad about this. Now it has been a bit better today has been good we went out side watered the garden met some new people had ice cream and watched the kitty show. Which has been nice, after meeting those new people I felt kinda weird cause we'll I was following my daughter. She didn't wanna go in yet after watering the garden and she appeared to wanna take a walk and I was like oh ok so I put her shoe's on and we walked she led the way first she wanted to stop by the Holiday Gas station for ice cream and I told her I don't have my purse, so she changed direction towards the park and I was like ok we can go there and swing, so we started walking as we where going she saw people and decided she wanted to say hi, and I was like uh I don't see why not so we walked over and said hi ended up having some food and she played with their little girl had a popsicle, it was nice and weird at the same time we where there for like a half hour, then she had to go potty so we made her way home.

I was think the night was gonna go like water the garden play on her little playset a bit and then go in have ice cream watch the kitty show Then nigh nigh; instead we added in an adventure in the middle of that plan. It just idk it felt weird and made apparrent I need to start teaching her Stranger danger cause she is so social Friendly and out going. Just felt weird and I feel tired a d off and kinda funny about that whole situation especially since she was the one who initiated the saying hi right after initiating suddenly going for a walk.

I just feel funny and weird now.

[dillydallydarlene]

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