TheComfortCorner | V.9

[antics]

I have an english test tmr and I think I'm going to be sick
I flunked the last one and I've been struggling with quizzes
I used to be so good at English many years ago and then all of the sudden I can't analyze things anymore (or read a book that can hold my attention for longer than 30 or so pages). I can do grammar but that's it. (side note: I know I only capitalize "I" in my posts but writing with proper grammar online just feels wrong? idk)
I wish I knew what happened to me. did I just get dumber? have I seriously rotted my brain by spending too much time on electronics? or is this class just "too hard" for me and I'm not really as amazing as I think I am?
all of my teachers and family are constantly complimenting me and going on about how smart I am just because I have straight a's. it's made me put myself on a really, really high pedestal and I don't know how to get down. and everytime I mess up (my definition of "messing up": getting a grade lower than a 90, sometimes even 100), I fall off of said pedestal, hit my head, and black out in the worst pain possible until I can "fix" things again.
I hate school. it makes me feel awful.

[ElloJelloMelloFello]

Money's really tight right now, and I'm really not sure what we're going to do :")

[saw]

i dont really have anyone in my life anymore.
that usually wouldnt hurt but today it stings. it hurts worse that it ever has in the past.

i just wish i had a friend or two that really cared.

[onion]

it hurts so bad but i cant break. i cant break again.

[tenor]

how do i stop thinking like this? how do i stop the negative thiughts?

[onion]

i truthfully think im dying.

[yharnam boy]

i don't really want to be stupid and ignorant, but my existence would be easier if i was. -_-

[kal!]

x

[sapphipop]

some days i'm fine and other days my brain just won't stop :']

[pictochat]

dad triggered an emotional breakdown for the first time in a while. I don’t know how he can’t see that this isn’t helping me