TheComfortCorner | V.9

[hot rod]

My brain wont shut up I dont wanna think these thoughts they're scary I want to feel better and stop feeling like this everything is going so fast I just want my brain to stop making me think these things I don't want these thoughts I don't like feeling like this I feel like people are watching me and I feel like everyone is out to hurt me and I'm scared all the time Im scared to talk to people about what I'm feeling and I just want to not be scared of people I wanna go outside and not hide when a car drives past I want to sit in my room and not dissociate and feel like things are looking at me and staring at me and wanting to hurt me its a constant up and down and lately it just keeps getting worse and worse like I was walking and I started hiding and rocking cuz I thought I was being followed and then my brain tells me these horrible things and keeps making me picture these things that scare me and I don't wanna look I don't wanna keep running through the what if what if what if and I don't want that to happen I want my brain to stop telling me these things I'm scared of myself I scare myself I'm scared I'm gonna hurt someone or myself it wont shut up for once I just want it to stop thinking I want to to be quiet

[bluebudgie]

I'm exhausted. And scared, and stressed and falling apart. I don't know how much longer I can take this. I hate myself so much. My life is good, I have a good family, good house and I really don't have anything to worry about. Except I'm always freaking out about something and I'm always miserable. Why can't I just be content and confident? I should be. There’s no real reason for me not to be and yet, I can't. I'm so tired of having to live as me. Existing is so draining. I so badly want to escape from having to be me.
I hate how I worry over nothing. I hate how I can't be interesting. I hate how I can't be happy. I hate how I compare myself to everyone. I hate how I'm not supposed to be like this. I hate how I can't change the way I think. I hate how I can't open up. I hate how much of a liar I am. I hate how I'm stuck when everyone is moving on. I hate myself.
I want a job so badly but I'm absolutely terrified of getting one. I don't even know why I'm scared anymore. I just am. It's always there in my mind. A constant reminder of what I need and the dread that comes with it. I can’t do this but I need to.
I hate how I can't focus on the present. I'm either thinking about my future doom or all my regrets. I'm sorry I didn't treat you guys better. I've always been a horrible friend. I wish I could change, truly change. I'm not a great person, I know, and I'm sorry. I destroy everything I touch. I'm sorry.
I just want to be okay. I know I'm probably going to be half okay and yet, I can't seem to really believe that. There's only bad things in my future. Time and time again, I ended up alright and I still can't stop worrying.
Everything I try to help with my fears doesn't work. I used to feel a bit of satisfaction and now, it's not even close to being enough. I can’t silence my thoughts and fears anymore. I'm scared it'll only get worse despite all my efforts. It's already bad enough but it's not getting better. I'm trying to face my fears but it feels like every ground I claim is lost elsewhere. It’s a losing battle.
Is this it? Is this my purpose? To live with this pain all my life? Does it ever get better? I just want to be okay. And normal. And everything I'm lacking. Which is quite a lot of things. I hate being me.

[dreamer.;]

I can’t take this..

First of all my toddler has behavioral issues bad, like really bad so he’s constantly crying or whining about something…
I lost my best friend on Friday, and I haven’t been myself since my cat passed away, in my arms. It was awful. I had him for 12 years, 12 years we were attached at the hip.. he was loyal , knew tricks on command, loved walks , loved car rides and baths, I’ve never met another cat like him. I needed him like he needed me…

Anyway, I’m currently shaking uncontrollably and I’m having an anxiety attack.. everything has just been, way, way too much.

Too much at once, I can’t process anything anymore. I’ve been a blur, just, simply here for lack of better terms.

My boys body is off to be cremated and I just want him home… it doesn’t feel right without my best boy… 💔

I hope he knows I tried everything I could, I hope he knows how much I miss and love him.. I always will. Because of him I found a love for Grey tabbies. I have another kitten that’s now carrying on his reigns.. I think he told her to. She’s been clingy since he died.. I got her long before anyone thought tigger was dying. Her name is Sage. She helps… but it’s nothing like tiggers help any I really needed to hug him tonight and I can’t and it pains me. It makes my anxiety skyrocket…. I just want my baby back 😭😭😭💔

[mitziolet]

feeling pretty sad because my mom and sister are both annoyed at me again. maybe i will cry until i fall asleep again like last night

[honeycat;]

just feeling very lonely. i can't keep myself together

[triceratops.]

feeling emotionally drained. im tired, and im confused. im kind of stuck at the moment

[scxr]

man. what am i doing. this isn’t my life. this isn’t the life i wanna live. i hate who i am. i’m so bored.

[ellebee]

Man.. without sounding whiny, being an adult sucks. I look back on years ago when I yearned for adulthood and freedom, I got it, I lived it, now I'm just tired. Constantly breaking yourself physically and mentally just to scrape by. I'm constantly exhausted, and sometimes I just wanna go home. I haven't eaten a home-cooked meal made by my parents in so long. It's something I always took for granted.
I don't know.. it's just.. I'm so much different. I try to be the same person for everyone because it makes them really happy, I keep doing what everyone needs and what everyone wants. I just need to rest. I need to sleep for like a year or something. I haven't had a day off in almost a year, either in classes or working. Weekends, holidays, always.
Half the time I'm literally so hungry I feel sick, and hey, ramen does the trick but it's hard not to get sick of the same instant food you eat every day because it's one of your only affordable options.
Anyways yeah, I just feel so cold and estranged, like I've been longing for a hug for years. Which is true, I'd do anything for a long hug right now.

[.Vellichor.]

I hate when I have a bad exchange with someone that leaves me feeling uncomfortable for a while because it leads me to kind of avoid the person in question until I've healed emotionally from it even after we've talked it out, and I feel like that makes me a jerk. But at the same time trying to force myself to "get over it" just makes me feel worse and makes me internalize a bad situation more and more.

I just need a break after experiencing emotional pain and it's hard to let myself have that.

[halo]

i feel like i’m falling apart , like everything around me is crumbling . i almost started crying multiple times at school today . i wish i were better at helping people , i wish you would just talk to me . it’s so unfair for both of us if we laugh together and you cry alone , especially if all i do is whine about my problems . it isn’t your responsibility to help me , i would never ask you to . but i want to try to help you . please , say something , literally anything . are you leaving me ? are you staying ? i’m so confused and anguished . i’m especially scared you’re going to leave me wordlessly like you did way back when . please , just know i love you . do what is best for you .