( *:・゚✦ ) xx❝xx𝐨𝐫𝐢𝐧 𝐠𝐨𝐫𝐦𝐚𝐧 !! x─────ix ♔
x──────i ii zeus iii eighteen. iiii tags: auggie auggie auggie.
ivicabin thirteen.
x──────i ii zeus iii eighteen. iiii tags: auggie auggie auggie.
ivicabin thirteen.
- "i have my connections so that i have a source for all the ones that need their necks wrung. you know, if i've had a bad day, call up ron down the circuit, everything's fine and dandy. he gets rid of one of his - no, sorry, that's horrible. i don't know why i'm saying that," the sentence broke. "i don't make a habit out of strangling birds, no matter how long and easy to squeeze their necks may be. i'm not that bad."
he nodded at her the way one would nod at a child insisting that they could do something exaggeratedly grand - like jump three metres in the air or breathe underwater - as she pushed about her capability to flick with vigour. "right. of course you can. you're just not going to do it now because you don't want to show off,"
"well, if you're saying the french are as insane as me, then that's not insane at all. that's perfectly sane. and i'd say - you know, i'm sane. i wouldn't say the french necessarily are. i think you've got things muddled up here. we're on opposite sides of the sanity spectrum," he retorted. "i don't know if i want to share the details of the incident to someone who would so quickly judge a man on his living situation. i don't know if you'd judge me for it. what if you thought me some kind of incorrigible freak? there are too many scenarios. you've shown your true colours here, and it's all down to the muppets."
he nodded shortly at the question. "is this not war, what we're in?" he asked. "and is this not torture? that's a war crime. you've committed a war crime. i hope you're proud of yourself." he shook his head, mirth hardly masked. he offered no true resistance when his face was half-revealed, still trying to keep up the mortified facade. "you're revelling in my clear distress. what you're doing is not right. i'm gonna start campaigning against you. start a revolution to make sure that i am never pulled up on my minor celebrity-related mistakes again." he paused. "but, to be clear, betty white isn't the same as betsy ross, is she?"
( *:・゚✦ ) xx❝xx𝐭𝐞𝐢𝐥𝐨 𝐠𝐫𝐢𝐟𝐟𝐢𝐭𝐡𝐬 !! x─────ix ♖
x──────i ii thanatos. iii seventeen. iiii tags: clive.
ivi hampton inn, rooftop.
x──────i ii thanatos. iii seventeen. iiii tags: clive.
ivi hampton inn, rooftop.
- "oi, you! standin' there like one of burton's dummies. listen to me, there's no seeds sowed here, pal. so i don't know why you're loitering. he's not dead yet. wind your neck in. get lost." the words weren't directed at teilo. he wasn't sure who they were for, but it didn't really matter. he was barely hearing them.
everything felt a little bit softer than normal. the cold was farther away, the throbbing, the dampness of his face a problem for someone else entirely. teilo had spun out of his own existence and was in a cloud that promised a bout of calm. it was nice. the chattering that was happening next to him, though, was not as nice.
"taffy," it became harsh and stern, clive's voice, drawing his eyes to open and wander over to the spirit. "it's freezing, isn't it?"
it was. he remembered that. felt it as it was mentioned. didn't know why he had to remind him of that. a little mumble of agreement. it didn't have to be. it wouldn't be freezing if he could just -
"feel it. proper cold, in't it? feels like your fingers are gonna fall off and your eyelids are gonna freeze," yes, it did. "why'd you come here, again? 'cause of the cold? the freezing, freezing cold?"
teilo shivered. "quest," he dragged out, looking with both eyes now, vision spinning with enervation.
"right. and you've got that fella you mentioned 'ere, who else? can you name 'em?"
he thought. "mira -" it was difficult to reach. maybe that was the point. a short, sharp shiver "aiden, ash, jamie, aggy, skylar, dahlia,"
"there you go. alright," clive's four sets of eyes were lighting up. "tell me something you're scared of,"
"i dunno,"
"anything. anything at all. stupid as you like. don't need to explain it, just tell me,"
he pondered for seconds that passed like hours. it felt like running through water, finding these thoughts. "dragons," he finally decided.
"something you hate,"
"american football," this was quicker.
"do you like the proper game? the beautiful game? who d'you support?"
"manchester united," despite the liverpool hoodie he wore.
"disgusting. right. okay, that aside -" he crouched so that all teilo could see was his single, hardened face. "what did you wanna do, before all this?"
"rugby," he murmured.
"were you good? you were speedy, but were you good? did you win any games? what was your position?"
"yeah," all lost chances. "was a wing."
"that's nice. that's good. tell me about the one who died."
"don't want to," he shook his head.
"his name. what did he teach you? how'd you spend your time? when did you find out he died? how did you find out? you didn't cry, but did you scream? did you shout?"
his head felt a little clearer, which meant the memories were painful, but the slurred thoughts were shining with clarity. he suppressed another shiver, took a breath in, cleared his cotton-wool filled head. "just called him wilder. it was his last name," funny, because he did feel a bit like he was going to cry. the sharp pain was coming into his field of perception. the scythe in his hands felt heavy, top of the blade resting just underneath his chin. "taught me how to unlock a car with a shoelace. we were in maths together. it was announced at an assembly, everyone knew but me. i ran home. miles. don't really remember it. i was so angry. all i could do was shout." all answered in order, his throat tightening.
"right," solemn, but he powered on. "last one, teilo. last question. you're doing brilliant. still chilly, though, isn't it? that's not the question," he felt a lot more lucid. he didn't know if that was the point. he thought it might have been. "right now, you've got a big choice. easiest one you're ever gonna make and the hardest one to put into action." a pause for the attention. "life or death? are you gonna sit here and faint and freeze and let all those lot down there find you in't morning, or are you gonna get up? you're not gonna die of your injuries. they're not fatal. they just hurt. focus on that hurt. it's the cold that'll kill you. the tiredness."
it was a decision he had prompted himself with earlier in the evening, before the meeting, but in a far more abstract sense. choosing to live in the present rather than dying in the past. if he died, he'd probably be able to find wilder. but that 'probably' wasn't certain. if he lived, he'd definitely be able to continue on, for as long as he was supposed to. he'd had this decision before, a long time ago, on the bridge, walking through the forest where the trees had hearts that bled for untapped potentials. he wasn't scared of dying. but when it was presented to him like this, he was struck once again with the realisation that he didn't have to rush it. "could see him again," he said, using half his lung capacity to force the words that felt impossibly large out.
"do you see him here?" the gentleness swiftly became an abrasive, serious tone. "he's made his decision. he's gone. left you here, on your own. he's washed his hands of you. i'm sorry teilo, but if he were interested in sticking around, he would've. you would be talking to him, not me. but i'm all you've got at moment, and i'm telling you to make the decision. life or death. i don't think you're brave enough. i think you think it's safer to die. can't disappoint anyone if you die, can you? don't have to answer anyone's questions. you can drift away, thinking you had no choice. i'm not having that. you've got a choice now. i wanna hear you say it." this was a change of tact. but it was sort of working. the spark of rage became spite, and if there was anything better to hinge his life upon, he didn't know what it was.
"life," he answered, jaw clenched. "you don't know anything."
"good," clive's lips pursed. "you can argue with me when you're not an 'air away from the pearly gates. get up and prove it to me. prove you're no coward, and i'll take it back."