by laineybug! » Tue Jul 20, 2021 1:59 pm
i'm sorry i wasn't ever brave enough. it could have been so much more than it was... but then again, it led us, led me, to where i am now. i'll still apologize, though.
i'm sorry i hurt you, even if you say it's fine and you weren't affected. i hurt quite a few of you with that, and it may be a joint fault but i should have been more careful. even if it was a weird situation. i'll admit it still scares me. it scares me for the future more than anything, but we'll get there when we do. on that same path, i'm sorry it's still so far away. i'm always afraid it'll be longer than those few hundred days... you know i'll do anything to shorten it.
i'm sorry i left you. i know you're alright, but i also know it's still terrible. i worry about you.
i'm sorry to you all, for doubting you, doubting us. you know these days are long from over, but that's the nature of the situation. i try my best, for you and for me. someday we'll figure it out.
and i guess i'm sorry to myself, as well, for carrying all of these apologies for things i'd never let others apologize for. i am nothing if not a hypocrite.
adult / queer / she/her
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